Опис на искуството
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Основни информации
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
NDE Елементи
Во времето на вашето искуство, дали имаше поврзан настан опасен по живот?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Како ја оценувате содржината на вашето искуство?
Mixed
Дали се чувствувавте одвоено од вашето тело?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Како се споредуваше вашето највисоко ниво на свест и будност за време на искуството со вашата нормална секојдневна свест и будност?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
Во кое време за време на искуството бевте на највисоко ниво на свест и будност?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
Дали вашите мисли беа забрзани?
Neither
Дали времето изгледаше како да се забрзува или забавува?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
Дали вашите сетила беа по живописни од вообичаено?
Neither
Ве молиме, споредете ја вашата визија за време на искуството со вашата секојдневна визија што ја имавте непосредно пред времето на искуството
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Ве молиме, споредете го вашиот слух за време на искуството со вашиот секојдневен слух што го имавте непосредно пред времето на искуството
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Дали се чинеше дека сте свесни за работите што се случуваат на друго место?
Neither
Дали поминавте во или низ тунел?
Yes Already described.
Дали видовте суштества во вашето искуство?
Saw them
Дали сретнавте или станавте свесни за какви било починати (или живи) суштества?
Yes Already described.
Дали видовте или се почувствувавте опкружени со брилијантна светлина?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Дали видовте неземна светлина?
Yes Already described.
Дали се чинеше дека сте влегле во некој друг, неземен свет?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Какви други емоции почувствувавте за време на искуството?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Дали имавте чувство на мир или пријатност?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Дали имавте чувство на радост?
Incredible joy
Дали почувствувавте чувство на хармонија или единство со универзумот?
United, one with the world
Дали одеднаш се чинеше дека разбирате сè?
Everything about the universe
Дали сцени од вашето минато ви се вратија?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
Дали ви се појавија сцени од иднината?
From the world's future
Very private.
Дали стигнавте до граница или точка од која нема враќање?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Бог, духовност и религија
Која беше вашата религија пред вашето искуство?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
Дали вашите религиозни практики се променија од вашето искуство?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Која е вашата религија сега?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Дали имавте промена во вашите вредности и верувања поради вашето искуство?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Дали се чинеше дека сте сретнале мистично суштество или присуство, или сте слушнале неидентификуван глас?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Дали видовте починати или религиозни духови?
Saw them
Во врска со нашите земни животи освен религијата
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте посебно знаење или информации за вашата цел?
Yes Very private.
Дали вашите односи се промениле конкретно како резултат на вашето искуство?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
После NDE
Дали искуството беше тешко да се изрази со зборови?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Дали имате некои психички, несекојдневни или други посебни дарови по вашето искуство што не сте ги имале пред искуството?
Yes Personal.
Дали има еден или неколку делови од вашето искуство кои се особено значајни или важни за вас? Ве молиме објаснете.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Дали некогаш сте го споделиле ова искуство со други?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Дали имавте какво било знаење за искуства блиски до смртта (NDE) пред вашето искуство?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
Во што верувавте за реалноста на вашето искуство набргу (денови до недели) откако се случи?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
Што верувате за реалноста на вашето искуство сега?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
Во било кое време од вашиот живот, дали нешто некогаш репродуцирало било кој дел од искуството?
No