Опис на искуството
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Основни информации
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE Елементи
Во времето на вашето искуство, дали имаше поврзан настан опасен по живот?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Како ја оценувате содржината на вашето искуство?
Entirely pleasant
Искуството вклучуваше
Out of body experience
Дали се чувствувавте одвоено од вашето тело?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Како се споредуваше вашето највисоко ниво на свест и будност за време на искуството со вашата нормална секојдневна свест и будност?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Во кое време за време на искуството бевте на највисоко ниво на свест и будност?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Дали вашите мисли беа забрзани?
Faster than usual
Дали времето изгледаше како да се забрзува или забавува?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Дали вашите сетила беа по живописни од вообичаено?
Incredibly more vivid
Ве молиме, споредете ја вашата визија за време на искуството со вашата секојдневна визија што ја имавте непосредно пред времето на искуството
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Ве молиме, споредете го вашиот слух за време на искуството со вашиот секојдневен слух што го имавте непосредно пред времето на искуството
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Дали се чинеше дека сте свесни за работите што се случуваат на друго место?
No
Искуството вклучуваше
Tunnel
Дали поминавте во или низ тунел?
Yes The hallway
Искуството вклучуваше
Presence of deceased persons
Дали видовте суштества во вашето искуство?
I actually saw them
Дали сретнавте или станавте свесни за какви било починати (или живи) суштества?
Yes No relatives
Искуството вклучуваше
Unearthly light
Дали видовте или се почувствувавте опкружени со брилијантна светлина?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Дали видовте неземна светлина?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Искуството вклучуваше
A landscape or city
Дали се чинеше дека сте влегле во некој друг, неземен свет?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Искуството вклучуваше
Strong emotional tone
Какви други емоции почувствувавте за време на искуството?
Elated
Дали имавте чувство на мир или пријатност?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Дали имавте чувство на радост?
incredible joy
Дали почувствувавте чувство на хармонија или единство со универзумот?
I felt united or one with the world
Искуството вклучуваше
Special knowledge or purpose
Дали одеднаш се чинеше дека разбирате сè?
No
Дали сцени од вашето минато ви се вратија?
No
Искуството вклучуваше
Awareness of the future
Дали ви се појавија сцени од иднината?
Scenes from my personal future
Искуството вклучуваше
Boundary
Дали стигнавте до граница или ограничувачка физичка структура?
Yes
Дали стигнавте до граница или точка од која нема враќање?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Бог, духовност и религија
Какво значење му придавате на вашиот религиозен/духовен живот пред вашето искуство?
Greatly important to me
Која беше вашата религија пред вашето искуство?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Дали вашите религиозни практики се променија од вашето искуство?
Yes They are more grounded.
Какво значење му придавате на вашиот религиозен/духовен живот по вашето искуство?
Greatly important to me
Која е вашата религија сега?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Дали вашето искуство вклучуваше карактеристики што се во согласност со вашите земни верувања?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Дали имавте промена во вашите вредности и верувања поради вашето искуство?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Искуството вклучуваше
Presence of unearthly beings
Дали се чинеше дека сте сретнале мистично суштество или присуство, или сте слушнале неидентификуван глас?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Дали видовте починати или религиозни духови?
I actually saw them
Дали сте сретнале или станавте свесни за какви било суштества кои претходно живееле на земјата кои се опишани по име во религиите (на пример: Исус, Мухамед, Буда, итн.)?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за постоењето на Бог?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за универзалната поврзаност или единство?
Yes
Дали верувавте во постоењето на Бог пред вашето искуство?
God definitely exists
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за постоењето на Бог?
Yes the love was in everything.
Дали верувате во постоењето на Бог по вашето искуство?
God definitely exists
Во врска со нашите земни животи освен религијата
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте посебно знаење или информации за вашата цел?
Yes
Дали верувавте дека нашите земни животи се значајни пред вашето искуство?
Are meaningful and significant
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за смислата на животот?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Дали верувавте во задгробен живот пред вашето искуство?
An afterlife definitely exists
Дали верувате во задгробен живот по вашето искуство?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Дали се плашевте од смртта пред вашето искуство?
I moderately feared death
Дали се плашите од смртта по вашето искуство?
I do not fear death
Дали се плашевте додека го живеевте животот пред вашето искуство?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Дали се плашевте додека го живеевте животот по вашето искуство?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Дали верувавте дека нашите земни животи се значајни пред вашето искуство?
Are meaningful and significant
Дали верувавте дека нашите земни животи се значајни по вашето искуство?
Are meaningful and significant
Дали добивте информации за тоа како да ги живееме нашите животи?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за животните тешкотии, предизвици и неволји?
No
Дали бевте сочувствителни пред вашето искуство?
Moderately compassionate toward others
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за љубовта?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Дали бевте сочувствителни по вашето искуство?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Какви животни промени се случија во вашиот живот по вашето искуство?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Дали вашите односи се промениле конкретно како резултат на вашето искуство?
No No
После NDE
Дали искуството беше тешко да се изрази со зборови?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Колку прецизно се сеќавате на искуството во споредба со други животни настани што се случиле во периодот кога се случило искуството?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Дали имате некои психички, несекојдневни или други посебни дарови по вашето искуство што не сте ги имале пред искуството?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Дали има еден или неколку делови од вашето искуство кои се особено значајни или важни за вас? Ве молиме објаснете.
The love
Дали некогаш сте го споделиле ова искуство со други?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Дали имавте какво било знаење за искуства блиски до смртта (NDE) пред вашето искуство?
No
Во што верувавте за реалноста на вашето искуство набргу (денови до недели) откако се случи?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Што верувате за реалноста на вашето искуство сега?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Во било кое време од вашиот живот, дали нешто некогаш репродуцирало било кој дел од искуството?
No
Дали има нешто друго што би сакале да додадете за вашето искуство?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.