Опис на искуството
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Основни информации
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
NDE Елементи
Во времето на вашето искуство, дали имаше поврзан настан опасен по живот?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Како ја оценувате содржината на вашето искуство?
Entirely distressing
Дали се чувствувавте одвоено од вашето тело?
No
No
Како се споредуваше вашето највисоко ниво на свест и будност за време на искуството со вашата нормална секојдневна свест и будност?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
Во кое време за време на искуството бевте на највисоко ниво на свест и будност?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Дали вашите мисли беа забрзани?
Incredibly fast
Дали времето изгледаше како да се забрзува или забавува?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Дали вашите сетила беа по живописни од вообичаено?
Incredibly more vivid
Ве молиме, споредете ја вашата визија за време на искуството со вашата секојдневна визија што ја имавте непосредно пред времето на искуството
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Ве молиме, споредете го вашиот слух за време на искуството со вашиот секојдневен слух што го имавте непосредно пред времето на искуството
I don't know.
Дали се чинеше дека сте свесни за работите што се случуваат на друго место?
No
Дали поминавте во или низ тунел?
No
Дали видовте суштества во вашето искуство?
No
Дали сретнавте или станавте свесни за какви било починати (или живи) суштества?
No
Дали видовте или се почувствувавте опкружени со брилијантна светлина?
No
Дали видовте неземна светлина?
No
Дали се чинеше дека сте влегле во некој друг, неземен свет?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Какви други емоции почувствувавте за време на искуството?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Дали имавте чувство на мир или пријатност?
No
Дали имавте чувство на радост?
No
Дали почувствувавте чувство на хармонија или единство со универзумот?
No
Дали одеднаш се чинеше дека разбирате сè?
No
Дали сцени од вашето минато ви се вратија?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Дали ви се појавија сцени од иднината?
No
Дали стигнавте до граница или точка од која нема враќање?
No
Бог, духовност и религија
Која беше вашата религија пред вашето искуство?
Christian- Catholic
Дали вашите религиозни практики се променија од вашето искуство?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Која е вашата религија сега?
Buddhist
Дали вашето искуство вклучуваше карактеристики што се во согласност со вашите земни верувања?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Дали имавте промена во вашите вредности и верувања поради вашето искуство?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Дали се чинеше дека сте сретнале мистично суштество или присуство, или сте слушнале неидентификуван глас?
No
Дали видовте починати или религиозни духови?
No
Дали сте сретнале или станавте свесни за какви било суштества кои претходно живееле на земјата кои се опишани по име во религиите (на пример: Исус, Мухамед, Буда, итн.)?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за постоењето на Бог?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за универзалната поврзаност или единство?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за постоењето на Бог?
No
Во врска со нашите земни животи освен религијата
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте посебно знаење или информации за вашата цел?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за смислата на животот?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за задгробен живот?
No
Дали добивте информации за тоа како да ги живееме нашите животи?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за животните тешкотии, предизвици и неволји?
No
За време на вашето искуство, дали добивте информации за љубовта?
No
Какви животни промени се случија во вашиот живот по вашето искуство?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
После NDE
Дали искуството беше тешко да се изрази со зборови?
No
Колку прецизно се сеќавате на искуството во споредба со други животни настани што се случиле во периодот кога се случило искуството?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Дали имате некои психички, несекојдневни или други посебни дарови по вашето искуство што не сте ги имале пред искуството?
No
Дали има еден или неколку делови од вашето искуство кои се особено значајни или важни за вас? Ве молиме објаснете.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Дали некогаш сте го споделиле ова искуство со други?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Дали имавте какво било знаење за искуства блиски до смртта (NDE) пред вашето искуство?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Во што верувавте за реалноста на вашето искуство набргу (денови до недели) откако се случи?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Што верувате за реалноста на вашето искуство сега?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Во било кое време од вашиот живот, дали нешто некогаш репродуцирало било кој дел од искуството?
No
Дали има нешто друго што би сакале да додадете за вашето искуство?
No