Ervaringsbeschrijving
This incident occurred at the end of a long period of abuse - about three years. My abuser isolated me while I was swimming in a pond behind his house. After a brief argument with the man, as I was trying to swim away from him, he pushed me underwater by my shoulders and held me there. I struggled against his hands on my shoulders, but was not able to come to the surface. When I was almost out of air, I looked up through the water at the face of my attacker. His expression was very frightening to me because he was smiling, but also appeared to be very angry.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
Achtergrondinformatie
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1981
NDE-elementen
Was er op het moment van uw ervaring een levensbedreigend voorval?
Yes Criminal attack Other near drowning
I was being held underwater by someone who intended to either scare me or kill me.
Hoe beschouwt u de inhoud van uw ervaring?
Wonderful
De ervaring omvatte
Out of body experience
Voelde je je gescheiden van je lichaam?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hoe vergeleek uw hoogste niveau van bewustzijn en waakzaamheid tijdens de ervaring met uw normale dagelijkse bewustzijn en waakzaamheid?
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
Op welk moment tijdens de ervaring was uw bewustzijns- en waakzaamheidsniveau het hoogst?
When I had decided to, but before I had re-entered my body.
Waren uw gedachten versneld?
Incredibly fast
Leek de tijd sneller te gaan of langzamer?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time stopped and I felt like I was floating with no gravity.
Waren je zintuigen levendiger dan normaal?
Incredibly more vivid
Vergelijk uw zicht tijdens de ervaring met uw dagelijkse zicht onmiddellijk voorafgaand aan de tijd van de ervaring
The surface of the water glinted in the sun in a starburst effect and the appearance of my body was in a haze of the pond water. It was surreal.
Vergelijk uw gehoor tijdens de ervaring met uw dagelijkse gehoor onmiddellijk voorafgaand aan de tijd van de ervaring
I don't remember any sounds except for my attacker breathing heavily and the water slapping against his body.
Had u de indruk dat u zich bewust was van wat er elders gebeurde?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Bent u door een tunnel gegaan?
No
Zag u wezens in uw ervaring?
I actually saw them
Heeft u overleden (of levende) wezens ontmoet of ervan bewust geworden?
No
De ervaring omvatte
Darkness
De ervaring omvatte
Light
Heeft u een schitterend licht gezien of voelde u zich eromheen omringd?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Heeft u een onaards licht gezien?
Yes
Leek u een andere, onaardse wereld te betreden?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place surrounding the light was very comfortable and is not comparable to anything I have felt or seen since.
Welke andere emoties voelde je tijdens de ervaring?
Peace, absolute clarity and an absence of pain.
Had je een gevoel van vrede of aangenaamheid?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Had je een gevoel van vreugde?
Happiness
Voelde je een gevoel van harmonie of eenheid met het universum?
I felt united or one with the world
De ervaring omvatte
Special Knowledge
Leek je plotseling alles te begrijpen?
Everything about the universe
Komen er scènes uit uw verleden naar boven?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I understood a much broader picture while I was not in my body. It didn't flood back to me in a visual life passing before my eyes. I went from ignorance instantly to wide awareness - not just of my life circumstances, but also of emotions, my family circumstances, a sense of purpose that I didn't have before. There was no sense of time, just calm sense of knowing what was and also what I needed to do.
Kwamen er scènes uit de toekomst tot je?
Scenes from the world's future I knew my mom was not going to die from her illness.
Kwam je bij een grens of punt van geen terugkeer?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritualiteit en Religie
Wat was uw religie voor uw ervaring?
Liberal None
Zijn uw religieuze praktijken veranderd sinds uw ervaring?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Wat is nu uw religie?
Liberal None/Open minded
Had u een verandering in uw waarden en overtuigingen vanwege uw ervaring?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Leek u een mystiek wezen of aanwezigheid tegen te komen, of een onidentificeerbare stem te horen?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Zag u overleden of religieuze geesten?
I actually saw them
Met betrekking tot ons aardse leven buiten Religie
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring speciale kennis of informatie gekregen over uw doel?
Yes I understood my purpose on a different level. The string theory was a no-brainer for me. Somehow, I realized that we are all energy and that solid mass was an illusion.
Zijn uw relaties specifiek veranderd als gevolg van uw ervaring?
Yes My sister and I have a special connection now.
Na de NDE
Was de ervaring moeilijk in woorden uit te drukken?
No
Heeft u na uw ervaring enige paranormale, bijzondere of andere speciale gaven die u voor de ervaring niet had?
Yes I can pass easily into this area by choice and sometimes wake up after sleeping with memories of being there, flying effortlessly.
Zijn er één of meerdere delen van uw ervaring die speciaal betekenisvol of belangrijk voor u zijn? Gelieve uit te leggen.
The experience changed my life. It ended the abuse and gave me a huge amount of empathy.
Heeft u deze ervaring ooit met anderen gedeeld?
Yes I started sharing the near drowning experience with my psychologist at age twenty-one. In the last few months, I have been processing the experience with an emergency doctor and have been able to describe the experience in more detail.
Had u enige kennis van bijna-doodervaringen (BDE) voordat u uw ervaring had?
No
Wat geloofde je over de realiteit van je ervaring kort (dagen tot weken) nadat het gebeurd was?
Experience was definitely real I knew the experience was real. Soon after that experience, I began researching near death, out of body experiences, channeling and other forms of spirituality. I even did a report in high school where I interviewed a couple of psychics.
Wat geloof je nu over de realiteit van je ervaring?
Experience was definitely real I view this experience as my life energy moving between planes of consciousness under duress. I view it along the lines of the law of conservation of energy. It states that the total amount of energy in an isolated system remains constant. A consequence of this law is that energy cannot be created or destroyed. The only thing that can happen with energy in an isolated system is that it can change form, that is to say for instance kinetic energy can become thermal energy. Because energy is associated with mass in the Einstein's theory of relativity, the conservation of energy also implies the conservation of mass in isolated systems (that is, the mass of a system cannot change, so long as energy is not permitted to enter or leave the system). Our psychic energy, soul, what have you, is just another form of energy.
Heeft op enig moment in uw leven iets ooit een deel van de ervaring gereproduceerd?
No