Ervaringsbeschrijving
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Achtergrondinformatie
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE-elementen
Was er op het moment van uw ervaring een levensbedreigend voorval?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Hoe beschouwt u de inhoud van uw ervaring?
Entirely pleasant
De ervaring omvatte
Out of body experience
Voelde je je gescheiden van je lichaam?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hoe vergeleek uw hoogste niveau van bewustzijn en waakzaamheid tijdens de ervaring met uw normale dagelijkse bewustzijn en waakzaamheid?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Op welk moment tijdens de ervaring was uw bewustzijns- en waakzaamheidsniveau het hoogst?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Waren uw gedachten versneld?
Faster than usual
Leek de tijd sneller te gaan of langzamer?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Waren je zintuigen levendiger dan normaal?
Incredibly more vivid
Vergelijk uw zicht tijdens de ervaring met uw dagelijkse zicht onmiddellijk voorafgaand aan de tijd van de ervaring
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Vergelijk uw gehoor tijdens de ervaring met uw dagelijkse gehoor onmiddellijk voorafgaand aan de tijd van de ervaring
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Had u de indruk dat u zich bewust was van wat er elders gebeurde?
No
De ervaring omvatte
Tunnel
Bent u door een tunnel gegaan?
Yes The hallway
De ervaring omvatte
Presence of deceased persons
Zag u wezens in uw ervaring?
I actually saw them
Heeft u overleden (of levende) wezens ontmoet of ervan bewust geworden?
Yes No relatives
De ervaring omvatte
Unearthly light
Heeft u een schitterend licht gezien of voelde u zich eromheen omringd?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Heeft u een onaards licht gezien?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
De ervaring omvatte
A landscape or city
Leek u een andere, onaardse wereld te betreden?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
De ervaring omvatte
Strong emotional tone
Welke andere emoties voelde je tijdens de ervaring?
Elated
Had je een gevoel van vrede of aangenaamheid?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Had je een gevoel van vreugde?
incredible joy
Voelde je een gevoel van harmonie of eenheid met het universum?
I felt united or one with the world
De ervaring omvatte
Special knowledge or purpose
Leek je plotseling alles te begrijpen?
No
Komen er scènes uit uw verleden naar boven?
No
De ervaring omvatte
Awareness of the future
Kwamen er scènes uit de toekomst tot je?
Scenes from my personal future
De ervaring omvatte
Boundary
Bereikte u een grens of beperkende fysieke structuur?
Yes
Kwam je bij een grens of punt van geen terugkeer?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritualiteit en Religie
Welke betekenis hechtte je aan je religieuze/spirituele leven vóór je ervaring
Greatly important to me
Wat was uw religie voor uw ervaring?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Zijn uw religieuze praktijken veranderd sinds uw ervaring?
Yes They are more grounded.
Welke betekenis hecht je aan je religieuze/spirituele leven na je ervaring
Greatly important to me
Wat is nu uw religie?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Bevatte uw ervaring elementen die consistent zijn met uw aardse overtuigingen?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Had u een verandering in uw waarden en overtuigingen vanwege uw ervaring?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
De ervaring omvatte
Presence of unearthly beings
Leek u een mystiek wezen of aanwezigheid tegen te komen, of een onidentificeerbare stem te horen?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Zag u overleden of religieuze geesten?
I actually saw them
Bent u wezens tegengekomen die eerder op aarde hebben geleefd en die bij naam genoemd worden in religies (bijvoorbeeld: Jezus, Mohammed, Boeddha, enz.)?
No
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over het bestaan van God?
No
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over universele verbinding of eenheid?
Yes
Geloofde je in het bestaan van God vóór je ervaring?
God definitely exists
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over het bestaan van God?
Yes the love was in everything.
Geloof je in het bestaan van God na je ervaring?
God definitely exists
Met betrekking tot ons aardse leven buiten Religie
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring speciale kennis of informatie gekregen over uw doel?
Yes
Geloofde je dat ons aards leven betekenisvol en belangrijk is vóór je ervaring
Are meaningful and significant
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over de betekenis van het leven?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Geloofde je in een hiernamaals vóór je ervaring?
An afterlife definitely exists
Geloof je in een hiernamaals na je ervaring?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Had je angst voor de dood vóór je ervaring?
I moderately feared death
Vrees je de dood na je ervaring
I do not fear death
Was je bang om je leven te leven vóór je ervaring
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Was je bang om je leven te leven na je ervaring
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Geloofde je dat ons aards leven betekenisvol en belangrijk is vóór je ervaring
Are meaningful and significant
Geloofde je dat ons aards leven betekenisvol en belangrijk is na je ervaring
Are meaningful and significant
Heb je informatie gekregen over hoe we ons leven moeten leven?
No
Heb je tijdens je ervaring informatie gekregen over de moeilijkheden, uitdagingen en ontberingen van het leven?
No
Was je meelevend vóór je ervaring
Moderately compassionate toward others
Heb je tijdens je ervaring informatie gekregen over liefde?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Was je meelevend na je ervaring
Greatly compassionate toward others
Welke levensveranderingen vonden er plaats in je leven na je ervaring?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Zijn uw relaties specifiek veranderd als gevolg van uw ervaring?
No No
Na de NDE
Was de ervaring moeilijk in woorden uit te drukken?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Hoe nauwkeurig herinner je je de ervaring in vergelijking met andere levensevenementen die rond de tijd van de ervaring plaatsvonden?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Heeft u na uw ervaring enige paranormale, bijzondere of andere speciale gaven die u voor de ervaring niet had?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Zijn er één of meerdere delen van uw ervaring die speciaal betekenisvol of belangrijk voor u zijn? Gelieve uit te leggen.
The love
Heeft u deze ervaring ooit met anderen gedeeld?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Had u enige kennis van bijna-doodervaringen (BDE) voordat u uw ervaring had?
No
Wat geloofde je over de realiteit van je ervaring kort (dagen tot weken) nadat het gebeurd was?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Wat geloof je nu over de realiteit van je ervaring?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Heeft op enig moment in uw leven iets ooit een deel van de ervaring gereproduceerd?
No
Is er nog iets anders dat u zou willen toevoegen over uw ervaring?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.