Mary D
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Uitzonderlijk
Greyson-schaal: 30
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- LandUnited States
- GeslachtF
- LeeftijdAdult
- Datum ervaren1/1/2001
- Datum ingediend7/29/2014
De ervaring omvatte
Tijd verloor alle betekenisHet zien van hun verleden (Levensoverzicht)Het zien van hun toekomstEen helder onaards licht zienPsychische vermogens ontwikkelenAlles begrijpen over het universumHet zien van vorige levens (Reïncarnatie)OBE, Buitenlichamelijke ervaringZich één voelen met het universumOBE, Observed concurrent events away from bodyGaf aan dat ze één waren/zijn met GodDe spirituele wereld is echters dan de fysieke realiteitLegt het doel van individuele levens uitLegt het doel van al het leven uitBewustzijn in dieren, planten of objectenHeeft geleerd over eigenschappen van de kwantumfysicaHerinnert zich details van wat ze hebben geleerd over kwantumfysicaTijd is een illusie en bestaat niet in de spirituele wereldUniversum bestaat alleen uit liefde en lichtBeschrijft God
Ervaringsbeschrijving
Loved: A Transcendent Journey Check it out at: Click Here
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
Achtergrondinformatie
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
03/29/2001 4:20 pm Pacific time
NDE-elementen
Was er op het moment van uw ervaring een levensbedreigend voorval?
No. Other: Healthy, Stayed conscious.
Hoe beschouwt u de inhoud van uw ervaring?
Entirely pleasant
De ervaring omvatte
Out of body experience
Voelde je je gescheiden van je lichaam?
Yes My physical body stayed conscious while operating my vehicle. I have subsequently had veridical OBEs.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hoe vergeleek uw hoogste niveau van bewustzijn en waakzaamheid tijdens de ervaring met uw normale dagelijkse bewustzijn en waakzaamheid?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Op welk moment tijdens de ervaring was uw bewustzijns- en waakzaamheidsniveau het hoogst?
When I was the vast void, let’s say: normal is 11 or so lines of coded information. The vast void had a millions lines of coded information.
Waren uw gedachten versneld?
Incredibly fast
Leek de tijd sneller te gaan of langzamer?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Slowed, stopped and went outside of time.
Waren je zintuigen levendiger dan normaal?
Incredibly more vivid
Vergelijk uw zicht tijdens de ervaring met uw dagelijkse zicht onmiddellijk voorafgaand aan de tijd van de ervaring
I could see 720 degrees and through time and space. I was outside of time and space. Layers and layers of visual information like Photoshop by seeing the image the information of all the layers is self-evident. Also, emotional and other types of information were available.
Vergelijk uw gehoor tijdens de ervaring met uw dagelijkse gehoor onmiddellijk voorafgaand aan de tijd van de ervaring
The sound also contained layers of additional information and emotion and intensity: it still does.
Had u de indruk dat u zich bewust was van wat er elders gebeurde?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
De ervaring omvatte
Tunnel
Bent u door een tunnel gegaan?
Uncertain I saw a beam of white. It came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder. I felt the tangible touch. I became one with the beam. This beam transitioned me from my body. This was an experience that seems to be functionally equivalent to ‘the tunnel’.
De ervaring omvatte
Presence of deceased persons
Zag u wezens in uw ervaring?
I sensed their presence
Heeft u overleden (of levende) wezens ontmoet of ervan bewust geworden?
No Not in this particular experience, but in many others.
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Void
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Darkness
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Unearthly light
Heeft u een schitterend licht gezien of voelde u zich eromheen omringd?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Heeft u een onaards licht gezien?
Yes The Beam was diffused at the top and sharp on the edges and came to a point at my shoulder. Then my body glowed in a bluish white from inside. The field of particles was also sort of light.
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A landscape or city
Leek u een andere, onaardse wereld te betreden?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field of particles and the vast void.
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Hellish imagery
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Strong emotional tone
Welke andere emoties voelde je tijdens de ervaring?
Immense Love
Had je een gevoel van vrede of aangenaamheid?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Had je een gevoel van vreugde?
incredible joy
Voelde je een gevoel van harmonie of eenheid met het universum?
I felt united or one with the world
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Special knowledge or purpose
Leek je plotseling alles te begrijpen?
Everything about the universe
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Life review
Komen er scènes uit uw verleden naar boven?
I remembered many past events
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Awareness of the future
Kwamen er scènes uit de toekomst tot je?
Scenes from the world's future Why is this an either or question? I received much information about the future.
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Boundary
Bereikte u een grens of beperkende fysieke structuur?
Yes There was an event horizon between the fields of particle, and then I went beyond to the vast void.
Kwam je bij een grens of punt van geen terugkeer?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will This is a little vague but I did feel like the topic came up and was decided.
God, Spiritualiteit en Religie
Welke betekenis hechtte je aan je religieuze/spirituele leven vóór je ervaring
Not important to me
Wat was uw religie voor uw ervaring?
Unaffiliated- Atheist Formerly Catholic but never really believed it during the time I was going through a period of atheism then agnosticism and I was conducting an experiment to experience God.
Zijn uw religieuze praktijken veranderd sinds uw ervaring?
Yes From doubt to certainty.
Welke betekenis hecht je aan je religieuze/spirituele leven na je ervaring
Greatly important to me
Wat is nu uw religie?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My knowledge now is beyond all religious limitations. I understand the value of them for others.
Bevatte uw ervaring elementen die consistent zijn met uw aardse overtuigingen?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The name "God of Abraham" is obviously from my culture and the beam does show up in the bible several places, but the whole experience is so far beyond anything that is taught in Catholicism it is inconsistent.
Had u een verandering in uw waarden en overtuigingen vanwege uw ervaring?
Yes God does exist and loves me. My actions matter. I am more aware of my actions and feelings.
De ervaring omvatte
Presence of unearthly beings
Leek u een mystiek wezen of aanwezigheid tegen te komen, of een onidentificeerbare stem te horen?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard several voices from different locations around me and within me. One said ‘everything will be alright.’ One responding to my unasked question ‘who are you?’ The response: ‘God of Abraham.’
Zag u overleden of religieuze geesten?
I sensed their presence
Bent u wezens tegengekomen die eerder op aarde hebben geleefd en die bij naam genoemd worden in religies (bijvoorbeeld: Jezus, Mohammed, Boeddha, enz.)?
No Not in this particular experience but in many other expereinces.
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over het bestaan van God?
Yes I, as God am uncreated, eternal, have been before this and will remain after.
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over universele verbinding of eenheid?
Yes We are one!
Geloofde je in het bestaan van God vóór je ervaring?
God probably does not exist
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over het bestaan van God?
Yes God Exists. We are in fact God but we chose to forget ourselves.
Geloof je in het bestaan van God na je ervaring?
God definitely exists
Met betrekking tot ons aardse leven buiten Religie
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring speciale kennis of informatie gekregen over uw doel?
Yes Omniscient!
Geloofde je dat ons aards leven betekenisvol en belangrijk is vóór je ervaring
Are meaningful and significant
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over de betekenis van het leven?
Yes We exist to experience. All of creation exists to experience.
Geloofde je in een hiernamaals vóór je ervaring?
An afterlife probably does not exist
Geloof je in een hiernamaals na je ervaring?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are so much more that this fluff of biomatter.
Had je angst voor de dood vóór je ervaring?
I greatly feared death
Vrees je de dood na je ervaring
I do not fear death
Was je bang om je leven te leven vóór je ervaring
Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Was je bang om je leven te leven na je ervaring
Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Geloofde je dat ons aards leven betekenisvol en belangrijk is vóór je ervaring
Are meaningful and significant
Geloofde je dat ons aards leven betekenisvol en belangrijk is na je ervaring
Are meaningful and significant
Heb je informatie gekregen over hoe we ons leven moeten leven?
Yes From the higher perspective it all makes sense, frustrating as it is that we don't remember. It does help to know that.
Heb je tijdens je ervaring informatie gekregen over de moeilijkheden, uitdagingen en ontberingen van het leven?
Yes Suffering is a mechanism for spiritual evolution which is one of the most valuable experiences to have the experience of learning growing and evolving and we remember who we really are and return home.
Was je meelevend vóór je ervaring
Slightly compassionate toward others
Heb je tijdens je ervaring informatie gekregen over liefde?
Yes Love is the basis of all creation. Love is God. God is Love.
Was je meelevend na je ervaring
Greatly compassionate toward others
Welke levensveranderingen vonden er plaats in je leven na je ervaring?
Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I felt horrible working for corrupt corporations and challenged their behavior. That did not go over very well. I have a difficult time receiving money now. It is a work in progress.
Zijn uw relaties specifiek veranderd als gevolg van uw ervaring?
Uncertain Uncertain I am still a hot mess when it comes to relationships. But I hope there is a much stronger connection with some.
Na de NDE
Was de ervaring moeilijk in woorden uit te drukken?
Yes There is creation beyond anything in the physical universe.
Hoe nauwkeurig herinner je je de ervaring in vergelijking met andere levensevenementen die rond de tijd van de ervaring plaatsvonden?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It's more clear and more intense as a memory than reality is as reality.
Heeft u na uw ervaring enige paranormale, bijzondere of andere speciale gaven die u voor de ervaring niet had?
Yes I can talk to the sun and the sun answers. I can feel solar flares and other fluctuations in the magnetic field. I have prophetic dreams and visions. I’m hugely empathic.
Zijn er één of meerdere delen van uw ervaring die speciaal betekenisvol of belangrijk voor u zijn? Gelieve uit te leggen.
The field of particles that is the substructure of the universe has not yet been validated by science, but it will. In 2013, UCLA imaged the atoms of platinum and it looks the same as the field I saw. I feel that is because atomic structure is built on the framework of the field.
Heeft u deze ervaring ooit met anderen gedeeld?
Yes A couple of days after, I told my friend who believed me because she had already had an OBE.
Had u enige kennis van bijna-doodervaringen (BDE) voordat u uw ervaring had?
Yes I had seen this awesome site; and read a few of the stories. I had also seen TV show about it.
Wat geloofde je over de realiteit van je ervaring kort (dagen tot weken) nadat het gebeurd was?
Experience was definitely real It was absolutely real but I still wanted to meet someone else who had experienced it.
Wat geloof je nu over de realiteit van je ervaring?
Experience was definitely real Validation, Validation, Validation. Other people have experienced similar and almost identical experiences.
Heeft op enig moment in uw leven iets ooit een deel van de ervaring gereproduceerd?
Yes I have since had many OBEs: Fully through layers of heaven, hell and the vast void.
Is er nog iets anders dat u zou willen toevoegen over uw ervaring?
I never was close to death but it is still an NDE because of the spiritual elements. Also it is not enlightenment because I did not have spiritual guides and community. It is not just an OBE from sleeping because I was fully conscious. It does not really fit any category. I also felt most at home with NDE, as opposed to any other group.