Ervaringsbeschrijving
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Achtergrondinformatie
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
NDE-elementen
Was er op het moment van uw ervaring een levensbedreigend voorval?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Hoe beschouwt u de inhoud van uw ervaring?
Entirely distressing
Voelde je je gescheiden van je lichaam?
No
No
Hoe vergeleek uw hoogste niveau van bewustzijn en waakzaamheid tijdens de ervaring met uw normale dagelijkse bewustzijn en waakzaamheid?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
Op welk moment tijdens de ervaring was uw bewustzijns- en waakzaamheidsniveau het hoogst?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Waren uw gedachten versneld?
Incredibly fast
Leek de tijd sneller te gaan of langzamer?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Waren je zintuigen levendiger dan normaal?
Incredibly more vivid
Vergelijk uw zicht tijdens de ervaring met uw dagelijkse zicht onmiddellijk voorafgaand aan de tijd van de ervaring
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Vergelijk uw gehoor tijdens de ervaring met uw dagelijkse gehoor onmiddellijk voorafgaand aan de tijd van de ervaring
I don't know.
Had u de indruk dat u zich bewust was van wat er elders gebeurde?
No
Bent u door een tunnel gegaan?
No
Zag u wezens in uw ervaring?
No
Heeft u overleden (of levende) wezens ontmoet of ervan bewust geworden?
No
Heeft u een schitterend licht gezien of voelde u zich eromheen omringd?
No
Heeft u een onaards licht gezien?
No
Leek u een andere, onaardse wereld te betreden?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Welke andere emoties voelde je tijdens de ervaring?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Had je een gevoel van vrede of aangenaamheid?
No
Had je een gevoel van vreugde?
No
Voelde je een gevoel van harmonie of eenheid met het universum?
No
Leek je plotseling alles te begrijpen?
No
Komen er scènes uit uw verleden naar boven?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Kwamen er scènes uit de toekomst tot je?
No
Kwam je bij een grens of punt van geen terugkeer?
No
God, Spiritualiteit en Religie
Wat was uw religie voor uw ervaring?
Christian- Catholic
Zijn uw religieuze praktijken veranderd sinds uw ervaring?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Wat is nu uw religie?
Buddhist
Bevatte uw ervaring elementen die consistent zijn met uw aardse overtuigingen?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Had u een verandering in uw waarden en overtuigingen vanwege uw ervaring?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Leek u een mystiek wezen of aanwezigheid tegen te komen, of een onidentificeerbare stem te horen?
No
Zag u overleden of religieuze geesten?
No
Bent u wezens tegengekomen die eerder op aarde hebben geleefd en die bij naam genoemd worden in religies (bijvoorbeeld: Jezus, Mohammed, Boeddha, enz.)?
No
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over het bestaan van God?
No
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over universele verbinding of eenheid?
No
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over het bestaan van God?
No
Met betrekking tot ons aardse leven buiten Religie
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring speciale kennis of informatie gekregen over uw doel?
No
Heeft u tijdens uw ervaring informatie gekregen over de betekenis van het leven?
No
Heb je tijdens je ervaring informatie gekregen over een hiernamaals?
No
Heb je informatie gekregen over hoe we ons leven moeten leven?
No
Heb je tijdens je ervaring informatie gekregen over de moeilijkheden, uitdagingen en ontberingen van het leven?
No
Heb je tijdens je ervaring informatie gekregen over liefde?
No
Welke levensveranderingen vonden er plaats in je leven na je ervaring?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Na de NDE
Was de ervaring moeilijk in woorden uit te drukken?
No
Hoe nauwkeurig herinner je je de ervaring in vergelijking met andere levensevenementen die rond de tijd van de ervaring plaatsvonden?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Heeft u na uw ervaring enige paranormale, bijzondere of andere speciale gaven die u voor de ervaring niet had?
No
Zijn er één of meerdere delen van uw ervaring die speciaal betekenisvol of belangrijk voor u zijn? Gelieve uit te leggen.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Heeft u deze ervaring ooit met anderen gedeeld?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Had u enige kennis van bijna-doodervaringen (BDE) voordat u uw ervaring had?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Wat geloofde je over de realiteit van je ervaring kort (dagen tot weken) nadat het gebeurd was?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Wat geloof je nu over de realiteit van je ervaring?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Heeft op enig moment in uw leven iets ooit een deel van de ervaring gereproduceerd?
No
Is er nog iets anders dat u zou willen toevoegen over uw ervaring?
No