Opis doświadczenia
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Informacje ogólne
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
Elementy NDE
Czy w czasie twojego doświadczenia zdarzyło się związane z tym zdarzenie zagrażające życiu?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Jak oceniasz treść swojego doświadczenia?
Entirely pleasant
Doświadczenie obejmowało
Out of body experience
Czy czułeś się oddzielony od swojego ciała?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Jak twój najwyższy poziom świadomości i czujności podczas doświadczenia porównał się do twojej normalnej, codziennej świadomości i czujności?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Kiedy podczas doświadczenia osiągnąłeś najwyższy poziom świadomości i czujności?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Czy twoje myśli przyspieszyły?
Faster than usual
Czy czas wydawał się przyspieszać lub zwalniać?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Czy twoje zmysły były bardziej wyostrzone niż zwykle?
Incredibly more vivid
Proszę porównać swoje widzenie podczas doświadczenia do codziennego widzenia, które miałeś bezpośrednio przed czasem doświadczenia
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Proszę porównać swoje słyszenie podczas doświadczenia do codziennego słyszenia, które miałeś bezpośrednio przed czasem doświadczenia
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Czy wydawało się, że jesteś świadomy wydarzeń gdzie indziej?
No
Doświadczenie obejmowało
Tunnel
Czy przeszedłeś przez tunel?
Yes The hallway
Doświadczenie obejmowało
Presence of deceased persons
Czy w swoim doświadczeniu widziałeś jakieś istoty?
I actually saw them
Czy napotkałeś lub stałeś się świadomy jakichkolwiek zmarłych (lub żywych) istot?
Yes No relatives
Doświadczenie obejmowało
Unearthly light
Czy widziałeś lub czułeś się otoczony przez jaskrawe światło?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Czy widziałeś nieziemskie światło?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Doświadczenie obejmowało
A landscape or city
Czy wydawało ci się, że wkroczyłeś do innego, nieziemskiego świata?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Doświadczenie obejmowało
Strong emotional tone
Jakie inne emocje odczuwałeś podczas doświadczenia?
Elated
Czy odczuwałeś spokój lub przyjemność?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Czy odczuwałeś radość?
incredible joy
Czy czułeś poczucie harmonii lub jedności z wszechświatem?
I felt united or one with the world
Doświadczenie obejmowało
Special knowledge or purpose
Czy nagle wydawało się, że rozumiesz wszystko?
No
Czy sceny z przeszłości wróciły do ciebie?
No
Doświadczenie obejmowało
Awareness of the future
Czy przychodziły ci obrazy z przyszłości?
Scenes from my personal future
Doświadczenie obejmowało
Boundary
Czy dotarłeś do granicy lub ograniczającej struktury fizycznej?
Yes
Czy dotarłeś do granicy lub punktu bez powrotu?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Bóg, duchowość i religia
Jakie znaczenie miało dla ciebie życie religijne/spiritualne przed twoim doświadczeniem
Greatly important to me
Jaka była twoja religia przed twoim doświadczeniem?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Czy twoje praktyki religijne zmieniły się od czasu twojego doświadczenia?
Yes They are more grounded.
Jakie znaczenie ma dla ciebie życie religijne/spiritualne po twoim doświadczeniu
Greatly important to me
Jaka jest twoja religia teraz?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Czy twoje doświadczenie zawierało cechy zgodne z twoimi ziemskimi przekonaniami?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Czy doświadczyłeś zmiany wartości i przekonań z powodu swojego doświadczenia?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Doświadczenie obejmowało
Presence of unearthly beings
Czy wydawało ci się, że napotkałeś mistyczne istnienie lub obecność, albo słyszałeś nierozpoznawalny głos?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Czy widziałeś zmarłych lub duchy religijne?
I actually saw them
Czy napotkałeś lub stałeś się świadomy istot, które wcześniej żyły na ziemi i są opisane w religiach (na przykład: Jezus, Mahomet, Budda, itp.)?
No
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś informacje na temat istnienia Boga?
No
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś informacje na temat uniwersalnego połączenia lub jedności?
Yes
Czy wierzyłeś w istnienie Boga przed swoim doświadczeniem?
God definitely exists
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś informacje na temat istnienia Boga?
Yes the love was in everything.
Czy wierzysz w istnienie Boga po swoim doświadczeniu?
God definitely exists
W odniesieniu do naszego ziemskiego życia poza religią
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś specjalną wiedzę lub informacje na temat swojego celu?
Yes
Czy wierzyłeś, że nasze ziemskie życie jest znaczące i pełne sensu przed twoim doświadczeniem
Are meaningful and significant
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś informacje na temat sensu życia?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Czy wierzyłeś w życie po śmierci przed swoim doświadczeniem
An afterlife definitely exists
Czy wierzysz w życie po śmierci po swoim doświadczeniu
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Czy bałeś się śmierci przed swoim doświadczeniem
I moderately feared death
Czy boisz się śmierci po swoim doświadczeniu
I do not fear death
Czy bałeś się żyć swoim życiem przed swoim doświadczeniem
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Czy bałeś się żyć swoim życiem po swoim doświadczeniu
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Czy wierzyłeś, że nasze ziemskie życie jest znaczące i pełne sensu przed twoim doświadczeniem
Are meaningful and significant
Czy wierzyłeś, że nasze ziemskie życie jest znaczące i pełne sensu po twoim doświadczeniu
Are meaningful and significant
Czy uzyskałeś informacje na temat tego, jak żyć nasze życie?
No
Czy podczas swojego doświadczenia uzyskałeś informacje na temat trudności, wyzwań i cierpień w życiu?
No
Czy byłeś współczujący przed swoim doświadczeniem
Moderately compassionate toward others
Czy podczas swojego doświadczenia uzyskałeś informacje na temat miłości?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Czy byłeś współczujący po swoim doświadczeniu
Greatly compassionate toward others
Jakie zmiany w życiu nastąpiły po twoim doświadczeniu?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Czy twoje relacje zmieniły się konkretnie w wyniku twojego doświadczenia?
No No
Po NDE
Czy doświadczenie było trudne do wyrażenia słowami?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Jak dokładnie pamiętasz to doświadczenie w porównaniu do innych wydarzeń życiowych, które miały miejsce w czasie doświadczenia?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Czy po przeżyciu posiadasz jakiekolwiek zdolności psychiczne, niezwykłe lub inne specjalne dary, których nie miałeś przed doświadczeniem?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Czy są jakieś jedno lub kilka części Twojego doświadczenia, które są dla Ciebie szczególnie znaczące lub ważne? Proszę wyjaśnić.
The love
Czy kiedykolwiek dzieliłeś się tym doświadczeniem z innymi?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Czy przed swoim doświadczeniem miałeś jakąkolwiek wiedzę na temat doświadczeń bliskich śmierci (NDE)?
No
W co wierzyłeś na temat rzeczywistości swojego doświadczenia krótko (dni do tygodni) po jego zaistnieniu?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Co sądzisz na temat rzeczywistości swojego doświadczenia teraz?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Czy kiedykolwiek w twoim życiu coś odtworzyło jakąkolwiek część tego doświadczenia?
No
Czy jest jeszcze coś, co chciałbyś/aś dodać o swoim doświadczeniu?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.