Opis doświadczenia
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Informacje ogólne
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
Elementy NDE
Czy w czasie twojego doświadczenia zdarzyło się związane z tym zdarzenie zagrażające życiu?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Jak oceniasz treść swojego doświadczenia?
Entirely distressing
Czy czułeś się oddzielony od swojego ciała?
No
No
Jak twój najwyższy poziom świadomości i czujności podczas doświadczenia porównał się do twojej normalnej, codziennej świadomości i czujności?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
Kiedy podczas doświadczenia osiągnąłeś najwyższy poziom świadomości i czujności?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Czy twoje myśli przyspieszyły?
Incredibly fast
Czy czas wydawał się przyspieszać lub zwalniać?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Czy twoje zmysły były bardziej wyostrzone niż zwykle?
Incredibly more vivid
Proszę porównać swoje widzenie podczas doświadczenia do codziennego widzenia, które miałeś bezpośrednio przed czasem doświadczenia
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Proszę porównać swoje słyszenie podczas doświadczenia do codziennego słyszenia, które miałeś bezpośrednio przed czasem doświadczenia
I don't know.
Czy wydawało się, że jesteś świadomy wydarzeń gdzie indziej?
No
Czy przeszedłeś przez tunel?
No
Czy w swoim doświadczeniu widziałeś jakieś istoty?
No
Czy napotkałeś lub stałeś się świadomy jakichkolwiek zmarłych (lub żywych) istot?
No
Czy widziałeś lub czułeś się otoczony przez jaskrawe światło?
No
Czy widziałeś nieziemskie światło?
No
Czy wydawało ci się, że wkroczyłeś do innego, nieziemskiego świata?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Jakie inne emocje odczuwałeś podczas doświadczenia?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Czy odczuwałeś spokój lub przyjemność?
No
Czy odczuwałeś radość?
No
Czy czułeś poczucie harmonii lub jedności z wszechświatem?
No
Czy nagle wydawało się, że rozumiesz wszystko?
No
Czy sceny z przeszłości wróciły do ciebie?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Czy przychodziły ci obrazy z przyszłości?
No
Czy dotarłeś do granicy lub punktu bez powrotu?
No
Bóg, duchowość i religia
Jaka była twoja religia przed twoim doświadczeniem?
Christian- Catholic
Czy twoje praktyki religijne zmieniły się od czasu twojego doświadczenia?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Jaka jest twoja religia teraz?
Buddhist
Czy twoje doświadczenie zawierało cechy zgodne z twoimi ziemskimi przekonaniami?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Czy doświadczyłeś zmiany wartości i przekonań z powodu swojego doświadczenia?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Czy wydawało ci się, że napotkałeś mistyczne istnienie lub obecność, albo słyszałeś nierozpoznawalny głos?
No
Czy widziałeś zmarłych lub duchy religijne?
No
Czy napotkałeś lub stałeś się świadomy istot, które wcześniej żyły na ziemi i są opisane w religiach (na przykład: Jezus, Mahomet, Budda, itp.)?
No
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś informacje na temat istnienia Boga?
No
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś informacje na temat uniwersalnego połączenia lub jedności?
No
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś informacje na temat istnienia Boga?
No
W odniesieniu do naszego ziemskiego życia poza religią
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś specjalną wiedzę lub informacje na temat swojego celu?
No
Czy w czasie swojego doświadczenia zdobyłeś informacje na temat sensu życia?
No
Czy podczas swojego doświadczenia uzyskałeś informacje na temat życia po śmierci?
No
Czy uzyskałeś informacje na temat tego, jak żyć nasze życie?
No
Czy podczas swojego doświadczenia uzyskałeś informacje na temat trudności, wyzwań i cierpień w życiu?
No
Czy podczas swojego doświadczenia uzyskałeś informacje na temat miłości?
No
Jakie zmiany w życiu nastąpiły po twoim doświadczeniu?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Po NDE
Czy doświadczenie było trudne do wyrażenia słowami?
No
Jak dokładnie pamiętasz to doświadczenie w porównaniu do innych wydarzeń życiowych, które miały miejsce w czasie doświadczenia?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Czy po przeżyciu posiadasz jakiekolwiek zdolności psychiczne, niezwykłe lub inne specjalne dary, których nie miałeś przed doświadczeniem?
No
Czy są jakieś jedno lub kilka części Twojego doświadczenia, które są dla Ciebie szczególnie znaczące lub ważne? Proszę wyjaśnić.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Czy kiedykolwiek dzieliłeś się tym doświadczeniem z innymi?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Czy przed swoim doświadczeniem miałeś jakąkolwiek wiedzę na temat doświadczeń bliskich śmierci (NDE)?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
W co wierzyłeś na temat rzeczywistości swojego doświadczenia krótko (dni do tygodni) po jego zaistnieniu?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Co sądzisz na temat rzeczywistości swojego doświadczenia teraz?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Czy kiedykolwiek w twoim życiu coś odtworzyło jakąkolwiek część tego doświadczenia?
No
Czy jest jeszcze coś, co chciałbyś/aś dodać o swoim doświadczeniu?
No