Descrierea experienței
I was aware that I was coming round from the operation. I began to hear the voices of the surgeon and staff first, and heard them say, 'Breathe Paul! Breathe!' I heard them saying that they would apply air via a tube but I was completely unable and unwilling to even try to breathe. My body was a dead weight, which seemed to have nothing to do with 'me'. What happened next seemed to me to last about an hour, although it was only seconds.
I felt that my mind was about four feet to the right of my head. I knew that I was still in the operating theatre, but I was no longer part of it. Suddenly, I felt as if someone was pushing me gently from behind. 'It's your turn,' said a voice and I was very surprised, as I'd had the impression that I was at the end of a long, long line of people (who I couldn't see but only sensed). The feeling was just like being sent to the front of the queue at a supermarket check in, I remember - pleasant surprise.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
Informații de fundal
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/10/02
Elemente ENC
În momentul experienței dumneavoastră, a existat un eveniment asociat care vă punea viața în pericol?
Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death My throat closed up and I couldn't breathe.
Cum considerați conținutul experienței dumneavoastră?
Mixed
Experiența a inclus
Out of body experience
V-ați simțit separat(ă) de corpul dumneavoastră?
Yes I was aware of my body lying there but didn't see it as I was looking elsewhere.
În ce moment al experienței v-ați aflat la cel mai înalt nivel de conștiință și alertă?
Explained above.
Vi s-a părut că timpul s-a accelerat sau a încetinit?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything was different, but the same. The 'here' and 'now' are one place. The same with time. It's all the same. There's no linear time. No space as we know it.
A fost auzul tău diferit în vreun fel față de normal?
The voices of the staff faded away, but there was no sound. I seemed to 'mind read' the words I heard and spoke.
Ați trecut într-un tunel sau printr-un tunel?
No
Experiența a inclus
Presence of deceased persons
Ați întâlnit sau ați devenit conștient de vreo ființă decedată (sau în viață)?
Yes Someone was behind me, guiding me, but I never saw them. They were neither male or female, it was just 'someone'. I cannot describe the voice, as it was not audible. I 'mind read' their words.
Experiența a inclus
Darkness
Ați văzut o lumină nepământeană?
No The opposite. I saw a blackness, but it was welcoming and not frightening. The way you like the dark if you have a migraine.
Ați părut să intrați într-o altă lume, nepământeană?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
Experiența a inclus
Strong emotional tone
Ce alte emoții ați simțit în timpul experienței?
Surprise then utter bliss. Complete indifference to what was happening to my body. Confusion and disappointment at coming back.
Experiența a inclus
Special Knowledge
Vi s-a părut dintr-o dată că înțelegeți totul?
Everything about the universe There's a time for everything. A role for everyone. A reason for everything. The purpose of life is not just our own happiness.
V-au revenit scene din trecutul dumneavoastră?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I felt no power. Others had the power; I felt as if I was 'following orders' and was very happy to do so.
V-au apărut scene din viitor?
No
Experiența a inclus
Boundary
Ați ajuns la o limită sau o structură fizică restrictivă?
Uncertain Big open doorway, comforting soothing blackness beyond. No fear. I was going towards it, but came back.
Ați ajuns la o graniță sau la un punct fără întoarcere?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I didn't want to return to my body, but was forced.
Dumnezeu, Spiritualitate și Religie
Care era religia ta înainte de experiență?
Liberal
Care este religia ta acum?
Liberal
Ai avut o schimbare în valorile și credințele tale din cauza experienței?
No
După ENC
A fost experiența dificil de exprimat în cuvinte?
Yes The sudden change of feelings and the sense that time was dislocated. I was not dead but I was out of my body.
Aveți vreun dar psihic, neobișnuit sau alte daruri speciale după experiența dumneavoastră pe care nu le aveați înainte de experiență?
No
Există una sau mai multe părți ale experienței dumneavoastră care sunt deosebit de semnificative sau importante pentru dumneavoastră? Vă rugăm să explicați.
Best - bliss of being out of the body. Worst - being dragged back.
Ați împărtășit vreodată această experiență cu alții?
Yes The doctors said it's just a symptom of the anesthesia. Some friends were obviously nervous about it, didn't like to talk about death etc.! My daughter was scared too. No one seems to feel like I do about it all.
În vreun moment al vieții dumneavoastră, ceva a reprodus vreodată vreo parte a experienței?
No Not since but BEFORE, when I was seven. During a tonsils operation, I could see the doctors and nurses working on my body as I hovered near the ceiling. I recalled that they wore green clothes (which they only wore in the theatre and which of course I'd never seen before).
Există alte întrebări pe care le-am putea pune pentru a te ajuta să-ți comunici experiența?
If the person had had any similar experiences BEFORE the one they're relating.