Descrierea experienței
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Informații de fundal
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
Elemente ENC
În momentul experienței dumneavoastră, a existat un eveniment asociat care vă punea viața în pericol?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Cum considerați conținutul experienței dumneavoastră?
Mixed
V-ați simțit separat(ă) de corpul dumneavoastră?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Cum se compară cel mai înalt nivel de conștiință și alertă din timpul experienței cu nivelul dumneavoastră normal de conștiință și alertă de zi cu zi?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
În ce moment al experienței v-ați aflat la cel mai înalt nivel de conștiință și alertă?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
V-au fost accelerate gândurile?
Neither
Vi s-a părut că timpul s-a accelerat sau a încetinit?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
V-au fost simțurile mai vii decât de obicei?
Neither
Vă rugăm să comparați vederea dumneavoastră în timpul experienței cu vederea dumneavoastră de zi cu zi pe care ați avut-o imediat înainte de momentul experienței
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Vă rugăm să comparați auzul dumneavoastră în timpul experienței cu auzul dumneavoastră de zi cu zi pe care l-ați avut imediat înainte de momentul experienței
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Păreați să fiți conștient de lucruri care se întâmplă în altă parte?
Neither
Ați trecut într-un tunel sau printr-un tunel?
Yes Already described.
Ați văzut vreo ființă în experiența dumneavoastră?
Saw them
Ați întâlnit sau ați devenit conștient de vreo ființă decedată (sau în viață)?
Yes Already described.
Ați văzut sau v-ați simțit înconjurat de o lumină strălucitoare?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Ați văzut o lumină nepământeană?
Yes Already described.
Ați părut să intrați într-o altă lume, nepământeană?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Ce alte emoții ați simțit în timpul experienței?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Ați avut un sentiment de pace sau plăcere?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Ați avut un sentiment de bucurie?
Incredible joy
Ați simțit un sentiment de armonie sau unitate cu universul?
United, one with the world
Vi s-a părut dintr-o dată că înțelegeți totul?
Everything about the universe
V-au revenit scene din trecutul dumneavoastră?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
V-au apărut scene din viitor?
From the world's future
Very private.
Ați ajuns la o graniță sau la un punct fără întoarcere?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Dumnezeu, Spiritualitate și Religie
Care era religia ta înainte de experiență?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
S-au schimbat practicile tale religioase de la experiența ta?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Care este religia ta acum?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Ai avut o schimbare în valorile și credințele tale din cauza experienței?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Ați părut să întâlniți o ființă sau o prezență mistică sau să auziți o voce inidentificabilă?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Ai văzut spirite decedate sau religioase?
Saw them
Cu privire la viețile noastre pământești, altele decât religia
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut cunoștințe speciale sau informații despre scopul tău?
Yes Very private.
S-au schimbat relațiile dumneavoastră în mod specific ca urmare a experienței dumneavoastră?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
După ENC
A fost experiența dificil de exprimat în cuvinte?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Aveți vreun dar psihic, neobișnuit sau alte daruri speciale după experiența dumneavoastră pe care nu le aveați înainte de experiență?
Yes Personal.
Există una sau mai multe părți ale experienței dumneavoastră care sunt deosebit de semnificative sau importante pentru dumneavoastră? Vă rugăm să explicați.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Ați împărtășit vreodată această experiență cu alții?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Aveați cunoștințe despre experiența morții aproape (EMI) înainte de experiența dumneavoastră?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
Ce credeai despre realitatea experienței tale la scurt timp (zile sau săptămâni) după ce s-a întâmplat?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
Ce crezi acum despre realitatea experienței tale?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
În vreun moment al vieții dumneavoastră, ceva a reprodus vreodată vreo parte a experienței?
No