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This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
Informații de fundal
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
03/29/2001 4:20 pm Pacific time
Elemente ENC
În momentul experienței dumneavoastră, a existat un eveniment asociat care vă punea viața în pericol?
No. Other: Healthy, Stayed conscious.
Cum considerați conținutul experienței dumneavoastră?
Entirely pleasant
Experiența a inclus
Out of body experience
V-ați simțit separat(ă) de corpul dumneavoastră?
Yes My physical body stayed conscious while operating my vehicle. I have subsequently had veridical OBEs.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Cum se compară cel mai înalt nivel de conștiință și alertă din timpul experienței cu nivelul dumneavoastră normal de conștiință și alertă de zi cu zi?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
În ce moment al experienței v-ați aflat la cel mai înalt nivel de conștiință și alertă?
When I was the vast void, let’s say: normal is 11 or so lines of coded information. The vast void had a millions lines of coded information.
V-au fost accelerate gândurile?
Incredibly fast
Vi s-a părut că timpul s-a accelerat sau a încetinit?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Slowed, stopped and went outside of time.
V-au fost simțurile mai vii decât de obicei?
Incredibly more vivid
Vă rugăm să comparați vederea dumneavoastră în timpul experienței cu vederea dumneavoastră de zi cu zi pe care ați avut-o imediat înainte de momentul experienței
I could see 720 degrees and through time and space. I was outside of time and space. Layers and layers of visual information like Photoshop by seeing the image the information of all the layers is self-evident. Also, emotional and other types of information were available.
Vă rugăm să comparați auzul dumneavoastră în timpul experienței cu auzul dumneavoastră de zi cu zi pe care l-ați avut imediat înainte de momentul experienței
The sound also contained layers of additional information and emotion and intensity: it still does.
Păreați să fiți conștient de lucruri care se întâmplă în altă parte?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Experiența a inclus
Tunnel
Ați trecut într-un tunel sau printr-un tunel?
Uncertain I saw a beam of white. It came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder. I felt the tangible touch. I became one with the beam. This beam transitioned me from my body. This was an experience that seems to be functionally equivalent to ‘the tunnel’.
Experiența a inclus
Presence of deceased persons
Ați văzut vreo ființă în experiența dumneavoastră?
I sensed their presence
Ați întâlnit sau ați devenit conștient de vreo ființă decedată (sau în viață)?
No Not in this particular experience, but in many others.
Experiența a inclus
Void
Experiența a inclus
Darkness
Experiența a inclus
Unearthly light
Ați văzut sau v-ați simțit înconjurat de o lumină strălucitoare?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Ați văzut o lumină nepământeană?
Yes The Beam was diffused at the top and sharp on the edges and came to a point at my shoulder. Then my body glowed in a bluish white from inside. The field of particles was also sort of light.
Experiența a inclus
A landscape or city
Ați părut să intrați într-o altă lume, nepământeană?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field of particles and the vast void.
Experiența a inclus
Hellish imagery
Experiența a inclus
Strong emotional tone
Ce alte emoții ați simțit în timpul experienței?
Immense Love
Ați avut un sentiment de pace sau plăcere?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Ați avut un sentiment de bucurie?
incredible joy
Ați simțit un sentiment de armonie sau unitate cu universul?
I felt united or one with the world
Experiența a inclus
Special knowledge or purpose
Vi s-a părut dintr-o dată că înțelegeți totul?
Everything about the universe
Experiența a inclus
Life review
V-au revenit scene din trecutul dumneavoastră?
I remembered many past events
Experiența a inclus
Awareness of the future
V-au apărut scene din viitor?
Scenes from the world's future Why is this an either or question? I received much information about the future.
Experiența a inclus
Boundary
Ați ajuns la o limită sau o structură fizică restrictivă?
Yes There was an event horizon between the fields of particle, and then I went beyond to the vast void.
Ați ajuns la o graniță sau la un punct fără întoarcere?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will This is a little vague but I did feel like the topic came up and was decided.
Dumnezeu, Spiritualitate și Religie
Ce importanță acordai vieții tale religioase/spirituale înainte de experiența ta?
Not important to me
Care era religia ta înainte de experiență?
Unaffiliated- Atheist Formerly Catholic but never really believed it during the time I was going through a period of atheism then agnosticism and I was conducting an experiment to experience God.
S-au schimbat practicile tale religioase de la experiența ta?
Yes From doubt to certainty.
Ce importanță acorzi vieții tale religioase/spirituale după experiența ta?
Greatly important to me
Care este religia ta acum?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My knowledge now is beyond all religious limitations. I understand the value of them for others.
A inclus experiența ta elemente concordante cu credințele tale pământești?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The name "God of Abraham" is obviously from my culture and the beam does show up in the bible several places, but the whole experience is so far beyond anything that is taught in Catholicism it is inconsistent.
Ai avut o schimbare în valorile și credințele tale din cauza experienței?
Yes God does exist and loves me. My actions matter. I am more aware of my actions and feelings.
Experiența a inclus
Presence of unearthly beings
Ați părut să întâlniți o ființă sau o prezență mistică sau să auziți o voce inidentificabilă?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard several voices from different locations around me and within me. One said ‘everything will be alright.’ One responding to my unasked question ‘who are you?’ The response: ‘God of Abraham.’
Ai văzut spirite decedate sau religioase?
I sensed their presence
Ați întâlnit sau ați devenit conștient de vreo ființă care a trăit anterior pe pământ și care este descrisă după nume în religii (de exemplu: Iisus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc?)
No Not in this particular experience but in many other expereinces.
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre existența lui Dumnezeu?
Yes I, as God am uncreated, eternal, have been before this and will remain after.
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre conexiunea universală sau unitate?
Yes We are one!
Credeai în existența lui Dumnezeu înainte de experiența ta?
God probably does not exist
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre existența lui Dumnezeu?
Yes God Exists. We are in fact God but we chose to forget ourselves.
Crezi în existența lui Dumnezeu după experiența ta?
God definitely exists
Cu privire la viețile noastre pământești, altele decât religia
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut cunoștințe speciale sau informații despre scopul tău?
Yes Omniscient!
Credeai că viețile noastre pământești sunt semnificative și importante înainte de experiența ta?
Are meaningful and significant
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre sensul vieții?
Yes We exist to experience. All of creation exists to experience.
Credeai într-o viață de apoi înainte de experiența ta?
An afterlife probably does not exist
Crezi într-o viață de apoi după experiența ta?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are so much more that this fluff of biomatter.
Te temeai de moarte înainte de experiența ta?
I greatly feared death
Te temi de moarte după experiența ta?
I do not fear death
Îți era teamă să-ți trăiești viața înainte de experiența ta?
Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Îți era teamă să-ți trăiești viața după experiența ta?
Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Credeai că viețile noastre pământești sunt semnificative și importante înainte de experiența ta?
Are meaningful and significant
Credeai că viețile noastre pământești sunt semnificative și importante după experiența ta?
Are meaningful and significant
Ai obținut informații despre cum să ne trăim viețile?
Yes From the higher perspective it all makes sense, frustrating as it is that we don't remember. It does help to know that.
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre dificultățile, provocările și greutățile vieții?
Yes Suffering is a mechanism for spiritual evolution which is one of the most valuable experiences to have the experience of learning growing and evolving and we remember who we really are and return home.
Erai plin de compasiune înainte de experiența ta?
Slightly compassionate toward others
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre iubire?
Yes Love is the basis of all creation. Love is God. God is Love.
Ești plin de compasiune după experiența ta?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Ce schimbări de viață au avut loc în viața ta după experiența ta?
Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I felt horrible working for corrupt corporations and challenged their behavior. That did not go over very well. I have a difficult time receiving money now. It is a work in progress.
S-au schimbat relațiile dumneavoastră în mod specific ca urmare a experienței dumneavoastră?
Uncertain Uncertain I am still a hot mess when it comes to relationships. But I hope there is a much stronger connection with some.
După ENC
A fost experiența dificil de exprimat în cuvinte?
Yes There is creation beyond anything in the physical universe.
Cât de exact îți amintești experiența în comparație cu alte evenimente din viață care au avut loc în acea perioadă?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It's more clear and more intense as a memory than reality is as reality.
Aveți vreun dar psihic, neobișnuit sau alte daruri speciale după experiența dumneavoastră pe care nu le aveați înainte de experiență?
Yes I can talk to the sun and the sun answers. I can feel solar flares and other fluctuations in the magnetic field. I have prophetic dreams and visions. I’m hugely empathic.
Există una sau mai multe părți ale experienței dumneavoastră care sunt deosebit de semnificative sau importante pentru dumneavoastră? Vă rugăm să explicați.
The field of particles that is the substructure of the universe has not yet been validated by science, but it will. In 2013, UCLA imaged the atoms of platinum and it looks the same as the field I saw. I feel that is because atomic structure is built on the framework of the field.
Ați împărtășit vreodată această experiență cu alții?
Yes A couple of days after, I told my friend who believed me because she had already had an OBE.
Aveați cunoștințe despre experiența morții aproape (EMI) înainte de experiența dumneavoastră?
Yes I had seen this awesome site; and read a few of the stories. I had also seen TV show about it.
Ce credeai despre realitatea experienței tale la scurt timp (zile sau săptămâni) după ce s-a întâmplat?
Experience was definitely real It was absolutely real but I still wanted to meet someone else who had experienced it.
Ce crezi acum despre realitatea experienței tale?
Experience was definitely real Validation, Validation, Validation. Other people have experienced similar and almost identical experiences.
În vreun moment al vieții dumneavoastră, ceva a reprodus vreodată vreo parte a experienței?
Yes I have since had many OBEs: Fully through layers of heaven, hell and the vast void.
Mai este ceva ce ați dori să adăugați despre experiența dumneavoastră?
I never was close to death but it is still an NDE because of the spiritual elements. Also it is not enlightenment because I did not have spiritual guides and community. It is not just an OBE from sleeping because I was fully conscious. It does not really fit any category. I also felt most at home with NDE, as opposed to any other group.