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When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Informații de fundal
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
Elemente ENC
În momentul experienței dumneavoastră, a existat un eveniment asociat care vă punea viața în pericol?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Cum considerați conținutul experienței dumneavoastră?
Entirely distressing
V-ați simțit separat(ă) de corpul dumneavoastră?
No
No
Cum se compară cel mai înalt nivel de conștiință și alertă din timpul experienței cu nivelul dumneavoastră normal de conștiință și alertă de zi cu zi?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
În ce moment al experienței v-ați aflat la cel mai înalt nivel de conștiință și alertă?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
V-au fost accelerate gândurile?
Incredibly fast
Vi s-a părut că timpul s-a accelerat sau a încetinit?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
V-au fost simțurile mai vii decât de obicei?
Incredibly more vivid
Vă rugăm să comparați vederea dumneavoastră în timpul experienței cu vederea dumneavoastră de zi cu zi pe care ați avut-o imediat înainte de momentul experienței
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Vă rugăm să comparați auzul dumneavoastră în timpul experienței cu auzul dumneavoastră de zi cu zi pe care l-ați avut imediat înainte de momentul experienței
I don't know.
Păreați să fiți conștient de lucruri care se întâmplă în altă parte?
No
Ați trecut într-un tunel sau printr-un tunel?
No
Ați văzut vreo ființă în experiența dumneavoastră?
No
Ați întâlnit sau ați devenit conștient de vreo ființă decedată (sau în viață)?
No
Ați văzut sau v-ați simțit înconjurat de o lumină strălucitoare?
No
Ați văzut o lumină nepământeană?
No
Ați părut să intrați într-o altă lume, nepământeană?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Ce alte emoții ați simțit în timpul experienței?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Ați avut un sentiment de pace sau plăcere?
No
Ați avut un sentiment de bucurie?
No
Ați simțit un sentiment de armonie sau unitate cu universul?
No
Vi s-a părut dintr-o dată că înțelegeți totul?
No
V-au revenit scene din trecutul dumneavoastră?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
V-au apărut scene din viitor?
No
Ați ajuns la o graniță sau la un punct fără întoarcere?
No
Dumnezeu, Spiritualitate și Religie
Care era religia ta înainte de experiență?
Christian- Catholic
S-au schimbat practicile tale religioase de la experiența ta?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Care este religia ta acum?
Buddhist
A inclus experiența ta elemente concordante cu credințele tale pământești?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Ai avut o schimbare în valorile și credințele tale din cauza experienței?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Ați părut să întâlniți o ființă sau o prezență mistică sau să auziți o voce inidentificabilă?
No
Ai văzut spirite decedate sau religioase?
No
Ați întâlnit sau ați devenit conștient de vreo ființă care a trăit anterior pe pământ și care este descrisă după nume în religii (de exemplu: Iisus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc?)
No
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre existența lui Dumnezeu?
No
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre conexiunea universală sau unitate?
No
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre existența lui Dumnezeu?
No
Cu privire la viețile noastre pământești, altele decât religia
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut cunoștințe speciale sau informații despre scopul tău?
No
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre sensul vieții?
No
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre o viață de apoi?
No
Ai obținut informații despre cum să ne trăim viețile?
No
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre dificultățile, provocările și greutățile vieții?
No
În timpul experienței tale, ai obținut informații despre iubire?
No
Ce schimbări de viață au avut loc în viața ta după experiența ta?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
După ENC
A fost experiența dificil de exprimat în cuvinte?
No
Cât de exact îți amintești experiența în comparație cu alte evenimente din viață care au avut loc în acea perioadă?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Aveți vreun dar psihic, neobișnuit sau alte daruri speciale după experiența dumneavoastră pe care nu le aveați înainte de experiență?
No
Există una sau mai multe părți ale experienței dumneavoastră care sunt deosebit de semnificative sau importante pentru dumneavoastră? Vă rugăm să explicați.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Ați împărtășit vreodată această experiență cu alții?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Aveați cunoștințe despre experiența morții aproape (EMI) înainte de experiența dumneavoastră?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Ce credeai despre realitatea experienței tale la scurt timp (zile sau săptămâni) după ce s-a întâmplat?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Ce crezi acum despre realitatea experienței tale?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
În vreun moment al vieții dumneavoastră, ceva a reprodus vreodată vreo parte a experienței?
No
Mai este ceva ce ați dori să adăugați despre experiența dumneavoastră?
No