අත්දැකීම් විස්තරය
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
පසුබිම් තොරතුරු
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE අංග
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ජීවිතයට තර්ජනයක් වන සිදුවීමක් තිබුණාද?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේ අන්තර්ගතය ඔබ සලකන්නේ කෙසේද?
Entirely pleasant
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
Out of body experience
ඔබට ඔබේ ශරීරයෙන් වෙන් වූ බවක් දැනුනේද?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබේ උපරිම සවිඥානක මට්ටම සහ අවදියෙන් සිටීම ඔබේ සාමාන්ය එදිනෙදා සවිඥානක මට්ටමට සහ අවදියෙන් සිටීමට සාපේක්ෂව කෙසේද?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබ ඔබේ උපරිම සවිඥානක මට්ටමේ සහ අවදියෙන් සිටියේ කුමන වේලාවකද?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
ඔබේ සිතුවිලි වේගවත් වූවාද?
Faster than usual
කාලය වේගවත් වූ හෝ මන්දගාමී වූ බවක් ඔබට දැනුනේද?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
ඔබේ සංවේදනයන් සාමාන්ය ප්රමාණයට වඩා පැහැදිලි වූවාද?
Incredibly more vivid
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබේ පෙනීම, අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබට තිබූ එදිනෙදා පෙනීම හා සසඳන්න
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබේ ඇසීම, අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබට තිබූ එදිනෙදා ඇසීම හා සසඳන්න
Nor was I hearing with ears.
වෙනත් තැනක සිදුවන දේවල් ගැන ඔබ දැනුවත්ව සිටින බවක් පෙනෙන්නට තිබේද?
No
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
Tunnel
ඔබ උමගක් තුළට හෝ හරහා ගියාද?
Yes The hallway
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
Presence of deceased persons
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී ඔබ කිසියම් සත්වයින් දුටුවාද?
I actually saw them
ඔබ මියගිය (හෝ ජීවත්ව සිටින) කිසිදු පුද්ගලයෙකු හමුවූවාද නැතහොත් ඒ පිළිබඳව දැනුවත් වූවාද?
Yes No relatives
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
Unearthly light
ඔබ දීප්තිමත් ආලෝකයක් දුටුවාද, නැතහොත් වට වී සිටින බවක් දැනුනාද?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
ඔබ අද්භූත ආලෝකයක් දුටුවාද?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
A landscape or city
ඔබ වෙනත් අද්භූත ලෝකයකට ඇතුළු වූවාද?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
Strong emotional tone
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබට වෙනත් හැඟීම් මොනවාද දැනුනේ?
Elated
ඔබට සාමයක් හෝ සතුටක් දැනුනේද?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
ඔබට සතුටක් දැනුනාද?
incredible joy
ඔබට විශ්වය සමඟ එකඟතාවයක් හෝ එකමුතුවක් දැනුනේද?
I felt united or one with the world
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
Special knowledge or purpose
ඔබට හදිසියේම සියල්ල තේරුම් ගත්තාක් මෙන් පෙනුනේද?
No
ඔබේ අතීතයේ දර්ශන ඔබට නැවත සිහිපත් වුනාද?
No
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
Awareness of the future
අනාගතයේ දර්ශන ඔබට පැමිණ තිබේද?
Scenes from my personal future
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
Boundary
ඔබ සීමාවකට හෝ සීමාකාරී භෞතික ව්යුහයකට ළඟා වූවාද?
Yes
ඔබ ආපසු හැරවිය නොහැකි සීමාවකට හෝ ස්ථානයකට පැමිණ තිබේද?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
දෙවියන්, අධ්යාත්මික සහ ආගම
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබේ ආගමික/ආධ්යාත්මික ජීවිතයට ඔබ කොතරම් වැදගත්කමක් දුන්නාද?
Greatly important to me
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබගේ ආගම කුමක්ද?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබගේ ආගමික පිළිවෙත් වෙනස් වී තිබේද?
Yes They are more grounded.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබේ ආගමික/ආධ්යාත්මික ජීවිතයට ඔබ කොතරම් වැදගත්කමක් දෙනවාද?
Greatly important to me
දැන් ඔබගේ ආගම කුමක්ද?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට ඔබගේ ලෞකික විශ්වාසයන්ට අනුකූල ලක්ෂණ ඇතුළත් වී තිබේද?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
ඔබේ අත්දැකීම නිසා ඔබගේ වටිනාකම් සහ විශ්වාසයන්හි වෙනසක් සිදුවී තිබේද?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
අත්දැකීමට ඇතුළත් වූයේ
Presence of unearthly beings
ඔබට අද්භූත පුද්ගලයෙකු හෝ පැවැත්මක් හමු වූවාද, නැතහොත් හඳුනාගත නොහැකි හඬක් ඇසුනාද?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
ඔබ මියගිය හෝ ආගමික ආත්මයන් දුටුවාද?
I actually saw them
ආගම්වල නමින් විස්තර කර ඇති (උදාහරණයක් ලෙස: යේසුස්, මුහම්මද්, බුදුන්, ආදිය) මීට පෙර පෘථිවියේ ජීවත් වූ කිසිදු ජීවියෙකු ඔබට හමු වූවාද, නැතහොත් ඒ පිළිබඳව දැනුවත් වූවාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ දෙවියන්ගේ පැවැත්ම පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ විශ්ව සම්බන්ධතාවය හෝ ඒකීයභාවය පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
Yes
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබ දෙවියන්ගේ පැවැත්ම විශ්වාස කළාද?
God definitely exists
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ දෙවියන්ගේ පැවැත්ම පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
Yes the love was in everything.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබ දෙවියන්ගේ පැවැත්ම විශ්වාස කරනවාද?
God definitely exists
ආගම හැර අපගේ ලෞකික ජීවිත ගැන
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ ඔබේ අරමුණ පිළිබඳ විශේෂ දැනුමක් හෝ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
Yes
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර අපගේ භූමික ජීවිත අර්ථවත් හා වැදගත් බව ඔබ විශ්වාස කළාද?
Are meaningful and significant
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ ජීවිතයේ අරුත පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබ මරණින් මතු ජීවිතයක් විශ්වාස කළාද?
An afterlife definitely exists
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබ මරණින් මතු ජීවිතයක් විශ්වාස කරනවාද?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබ මරණයට බිය වූවාද?
I moderately feared death
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබ මරණයට බිය වනවාද?
I do not fear death
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබ ඔබේ ජීවිතය ගත කිරීමට බිය වූවාද?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබ ඔබේ ජීවිතය ගත කිරීමට බිය වනවාද?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර අපගේ භූමික ජීවිත අර්ථවත් හා වැදගත් බව ඔබ විශ්වාස කළාද?
Are meaningful and significant
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු අපගේ භූමික ජීවිත අර්ථවත් හා වැදගත් බව ඔබ විශ්වාස කරනවාද?
Are meaningful and significant
අපේ ජීවිත ගත කරන්නේ කෙසේද යන්න ගැන ඔබ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ ජීවිතයේ දුෂ්කරතා, අභියෝග සහ දුක් වේදනා පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබ දයානුකම්පිත වූවාද?
Moderately compassionate toward others
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ ආදරය පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබ දයානුකම්පිත වනවාද?
Greatly compassionate toward others
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබේ ජීවිතයේ සිදු වූ වෙනස්කම් මොනවාද?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේ ප්රතිඵලයක් ලෙස ඔබේ සම්බන්ධතා විශේෂයෙන් වෙනස් වී තිබේද?
No No
NDE යෙන් පසු
අත්දැකීම වචන වලින් ප්රකාශ කිරීමට අපහසු වූවාද?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
අත්දැකීම සිදු වූ අවස්ථාවේ සිදුවූ අනෙකුත් ජීවිත සිදුවීම් හා සසඳන විට ඔබට අත්දැකීම කෙතරම් නිවැරදිව මතකද?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
ඔබට පෙර අත්දැකීම්වල නොතිබූ මානසික, සාමාන්ය නොවන හෝ වෙනත් විශේෂිත හැකියාවන් ඔබගේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු තිබේද?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේ විශේෂයෙන් අර්ථවත් හෝ වැදගත් වන කොටස් එකක් හෝ කිහිපයක් තිබේද? කරුණාකර පැහැදිලි කරන්න.
The love
ඔබ කවදා හෝ මෙම අත්දැකීම අන් අය සමඟ බෙදාගෙන තිබේද?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර මරණය අසන්නට දැනීම (NDE) පිළිබඳව ඔබට යම් දැනුමක් තිබුණාද?
No
එය සිදුවී ටික කලකට පසු (දින කිහිපයක සිට සති කිහිපයක් දක්වා) ඔබ ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේ යථාර්ථය ගැන විශ්වාස කළේ මොනවාද?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේ යථාර්ථය ගැන ඔබ දැන් විශ්වාස කරන්නේ කුමක්ද?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
ඔබේ ජීවිතයේ ඕනෑම වේලාවක, කිසියම් දෙයක් අත්දැකීමේ කිසිදු කොටසක් ප්රතිනිෂ්පාදනය කර තිබේද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීම ගැන ඔබට එකතු කිරීමට කැමති වෙනත් යමක් තිබේද?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.