අත්දැකීම් විස්තරය
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
පසුබිම් තොරතුරු
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
NDE අංග
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ජීවිතයට තර්ජනයක් වන සිදුවීමක් තිබුණාද?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේ අන්තර්ගතය ඔබ සලකන්නේ කෙසේද?
Entirely distressing
ඔබට ඔබේ ශරීරයෙන් වෙන් වූ බවක් දැනුනේද?
No
No
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබේ උපරිම සවිඥානක මට්ටම සහ අවදියෙන් සිටීම ඔබේ සාමාන්ය එදිනෙදා සවිඥානක මට්ටමට සහ අවදියෙන් සිටීමට සාපේක්ෂව කෙසේද?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබ ඔබේ උපරිම සවිඥානක මට්ටමේ සහ අවදියෙන් සිටියේ කුමන වේලාවකද?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
ඔබේ සිතුවිලි වේගවත් වූවාද?
Incredibly fast
කාලය වේගවත් වූ හෝ මන්දගාමී වූ බවක් ඔබට දැනුනේද?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
ඔබේ සංවේදනයන් සාමාන්ය ප්රමාණයට වඩා පැහැදිලි වූවාද?
Incredibly more vivid
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබේ පෙනීම, අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබට තිබූ එදිනෙදා පෙනීම හා සසඳන්න
I don't remember any change in my vision.
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබේ ඇසීම, අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබට තිබූ එදිනෙදා ඇසීම හා සසඳන්න
I don't know.
වෙනත් තැනක සිදුවන දේවල් ගැන ඔබ දැනුවත්ව සිටින බවක් පෙනෙන්නට තිබේද?
No
ඔබ උමගක් තුළට හෝ හරහා ගියාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී ඔබ කිසියම් සත්වයින් දුටුවාද?
No
ඔබ මියගිය (හෝ ජීවත්ව සිටින) කිසිදු පුද්ගලයෙකු හමුවූවාද නැතහොත් ඒ පිළිබඳව දැනුවත් වූවාද?
No
ඔබ දීප්තිමත් ආලෝකයක් දුටුවාද, නැතහොත් වට වී සිටින බවක් දැනුනාද?
No
ඔබ අද්භූත ආලෝකයක් දුටුවාද?
No
ඔබ වෙනත් අද්භූත ලෝකයකට ඇතුළු වූවාද?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
අත්දැකීම අතරතුර ඔබට වෙනත් හැඟීම් මොනවාද දැනුනේ?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
ඔබට සාමයක් හෝ සතුටක් දැනුනේද?
No
ඔබට සතුටක් දැනුනාද?
No
ඔබට විශ්වය සමඟ එකඟතාවයක් හෝ එකමුතුවක් දැනුනේද?
No
ඔබට හදිසියේම සියල්ල තේරුම් ගත්තාක් මෙන් පෙනුනේද?
No
ඔබේ අතීතයේ දර්ශන ඔබට නැවත සිහිපත් වුනාද?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
අනාගතයේ දර්ශන ඔබට පැමිණ තිබේද?
No
ඔබ ආපසු හැරවිය නොහැකි සීමාවකට හෝ ස්ථානයකට පැමිණ තිබේද?
No
දෙවියන්, අධ්යාත්මික සහ ආගම
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර ඔබගේ ආගම කුමක්ද?
Christian- Catholic
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබගේ ආගමික පිළිවෙත් වෙනස් වී තිබේද?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
දැන් ඔබගේ ආගම කුමක්ද?
Buddhist
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට ඔබගේ ලෞකික විශ්වාසයන්ට අනුකූල ලක්ෂණ ඇතුළත් වී තිබේද?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීම නිසා ඔබගේ වටිනාකම් සහ විශ්වාසයන්හි වෙනසක් සිදුවී තිබේද?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
ඔබට අද්භූත පුද්ගලයෙකු හෝ පැවැත්මක් හමු වූවාද, නැතහොත් හඳුනාගත නොහැකි හඬක් ඇසුනාද?
No
ඔබ මියගිය හෝ ආගමික ආත්මයන් දුටුවාද?
No
ආගම්වල නමින් විස්තර කර ඇති (උදාහරණයක් ලෙස: යේසුස්, මුහම්මද්, බුදුන්, ආදිය) මීට පෙර පෘථිවියේ ජීවත් වූ කිසිදු ජීවියෙකු ඔබට හමු වූවාද, නැතහොත් ඒ පිළිබඳව දැනුවත් වූවාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ දෙවියන්ගේ පැවැත්ම පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ විශ්ව සම්බන්ධතාවය හෝ ඒකීයභාවය පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ දෙවියන්ගේ පැවැත්ම පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ආගම හැර අපගේ ලෞකික ජීවිත ගැන
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ ඔබේ අරමුණ පිළිබඳ විශේෂ දැනුමක් හෝ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ ජීවිතයේ අරුත පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ මරණින් මතු ජීවිතයක් පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
අපේ ජීවිත ගත කරන්නේ කෙසේද යන්න ගැන ඔබ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ ජීවිතයේ දුෂ්කරතා, අභියෝග සහ දුක් වේදනා පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේදී, ඔබ ආදරය පිළිබඳ තොරතුරු ලබා ගත්තාද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු ඔබේ ජීවිතයේ සිදු වූ වෙනස්කම් මොනවාද?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
NDE යෙන් පසු
අත්දැකීම වචන වලින් ප්රකාශ කිරීමට අපහසු වූවාද?
No
අත්දැකීම සිදු වූ අවස්ථාවේ සිදුවූ අනෙකුත් ජීවිත සිදුවීම් හා සසඳන විට ඔබට අත්දැකීම කෙතරම් නිවැරදිව මතකද?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
ඔබට පෙර අත්දැකීම්වල නොතිබූ මානසික, සාමාන්ය නොවන හෝ වෙනත් විශේෂිත හැකියාවන් ඔබගේ අත්දැකීමෙන් පසු තිබේද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේ විශේෂයෙන් අර්ථවත් හෝ වැදගත් වන කොටස් එකක් හෝ කිහිපයක් තිබේද? කරුණාකර පැහැදිලි කරන්න.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
ඔබ කවදා හෝ මෙම අත්දැකීම අන් අය සමඟ බෙදාගෙන තිබේද?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමට පෙර මරණය අසන්නට දැනීම (NDE) පිළිබඳව ඔබට යම් දැනුමක් තිබුණාද?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
එය සිදුවී ටික කලකට පසු (දින කිහිපයක සිට සති කිහිපයක් දක්වා) ඔබ ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේ යථාර්ථය ගැන විශ්වාස කළේ මොනවාද?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
ඔබේ අත්දැකීමේ යථාර්ථය ගැන ඔබ දැන් විශ්වාස කරන්නේ කුමක්ද?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
ඔබේ ජීවිතයේ ඕනෑම වේලාවක, කිසියම් දෙයක් අත්දැකීමේ කිසිදු කොටසක් ප්රතිනිෂ්පාදනය කර තිබේද?
No
ඔබේ අත්දැකීම ගැන ඔබට එකතු කිරීමට කැමති වෙනත් යමක් තිබේද?
No