Popis skúsenosti
I was aware that I was coming round from the operation. I began to hear the voices of the surgeon and staff first, and heard them say, 'Breathe Paul! Breathe!' I heard them saying that they would apply air via a tube but I was completely unable and unwilling to even try to breathe. My body was a dead weight, which seemed to have nothing to do with 'me'. What happened next seemed to me to last about an hour, although it was only seconds.
I felt that my mind was about four feet to the right of my head. I knew that I was still in the operating theatre, but I was no longer part of it. Suddenly, I felt as if someone was pushing me gently from behind. 'It's your turn,' said a voice and I was very surprised, as I'd had the impression that I was at the end of a long, long line of people (who I couldn't see but only sensed). The feeling was just like being sent to the front of the queue at a supermarket check in, I remember - pleasant surprise.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
Základné informácie
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/10/02
Prvky NDE
Bol v čase vášho zážitku prítomný život ohrozujúci stav?
Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death My throat closed up and I couldn't breathe.
Ako hodnotíte obsah vášho zážitku?
Mixed
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Out of body experience
Cítili ste sa oddelení od svojho tela?
Yes I was aware of my body lying there but didn't see it as I was looking elsewhere.
V ktorom čase počas zážitku ste boli na svojej najvyššej úrovni vedomia a bdelosti?
Explained above.
Zdalo sa, že sa čas zrýchlil alebo spomalil?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything was different, but the same. The 'here' and 'now' are one place. The same with time. It's all the same. There's no linear time. No space as we know it.
Líšil sa váš sluch nejakým spôsobom od normálu?
The voices of the staff faded away, but there was no sound. I seemed to 'mind read' the words I heard and spoke.
Prešli ste do alebo cez tunel?
No
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Presence of deceased persons
Stretli ste sa alebo ste si uvedomili nejaké zosnulé (alebo živé) bytosti?
Yes Someone was behind me, guiding me, but I never saw them. They were neither male or female, it was just 'someone'. I cannot describe the voice, as it was not audible. I 'mind read' their words.
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Darkness
Videli ste nadpozemské svetlo?
No The opposite. I saw a blackness, but it was welcoming and not frightening. The way you like the dark if you have a migraine.
Zdalo sa vám, že ste vstúpili do nejakého iného, nadpozemského sveta?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Strong emotional tone
Aké ďalšie emócie ste cítili počas zážitku?
Surprise then utter bliss. Complete indifference to what was happening to my body. Confusion and disappointment at coming back.
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Special Knowledge
Zdalo sa, že ste zrazu všetkému porozumeli?
Everything about the universe There's a time for everything. A role for everyone. A reason for everything. The purpose of life is not just our own happiness.
Vrátili sa vám scény z vašej minulosti?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I felt no power. Others had the power; I felt as if I was 'following orders' and was very happy to do so.
Objavili sa vám scény z budúcnosti?
No
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Boundary
Dosiahli ste hranicu alebo obmedzujúcu fyzickú štruktúru?
Uncertain Big open doorway, comforting soothing blackness beyond. No fear. I was going towards it, but came back.
Prišli ste k hranici alebo bodu, odkiaľ niet návratu?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I didn't want to return to my body, but was forced.
Boh, spiritualita a náboženstvo
Aké bolo vaše náboženstvo pred vašou skúsenosťou?
Liberal
Aké je vaše náboženstvo teraz?
Liberal
Došlo u vás k zmene hodnôt a presvedčení v dôsledku vašej skúsenosti?
No
Po NDE
Bolo ťažké vyjadriť túto skúsenosť slovami?
Yes The sudden change of feelings and the sense that time was dislocated. I was not dead but I was out of my body.
Máte po svojej skúsenosti nejaké psychické, neobyčajné alebo iné špeciálne dary, ktoré ste predtým nemali?
No
Sú nejaké časti vašej skúsenosti, ktoré sú pre vás obzvlášť zmysluplné alebo významné? Prosím, vysvetlite.
Best - bliss of being out of the body. Worst - being dragged back.
Podelili ste sa už o túto skúsenosť s ostatnými?
Yes The doctors said it's just a symptom of the anesthesia. Some friends were obviously nervous about it, didn't like to talk about death etc.! My daughter was scared too. No one seems to feel like I do about it all.
Reprodukovalo niekedy v priebehu vášho života niečo nejakú časť tejto skúsenosti?
No Not since but BEFORE, when I was seven. During a tonsils operation, I could see the doctors and nurses working on my body as I hovered near the ceiling. I recalled that they wore green clothes (which they only wore in the theatre and which of course I'd never seen before).
Existujú ďalšie otázky, ktoré by sme sa mohli opýtať, aby sme vám pomohli komunikovať vašu skúsenosť?
If the person had had any similar experiences BEFORE the one they're relating.