Popis skúsenosti
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Základné informácie
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
Prvky NDE
Bol v čase vášho zážitku prítomný život ohrozujúci stav?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Ako hodnotíte obsah vášho zážitku?
Entirely pleasant
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Out of body experience
Cítili ste sa oddelení od svojho tela?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Ako sa vaša najvyššia úroveň vedomia a bdelosti počas zážitku porovnáva s vaším bežným každodenným vedomím a bdelosťou?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
V ktorom čase počas zážitku ste boli na svojej najvyššej úrovni vedomia a bdelosti?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Zrýchlili sa vaše myšlienky?
Faster than usual
Zdalo sa, že sa čas zrýchlil alebo spomalil?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Boli vaše zmysly živšie ako zvyčajne?
Incredibly more vivid
Prosím, porovnajte svoje videnie počas zážitku s vašim bežným videním, ktoré ste mali bezprostredne pred zážitkom
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Prosím, porovnajte svoj sluch počas zážitku s vašim bežným sluchom, ktorý ste mali bezprostredne pred zážitkom
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Zdalo sa vám, že si uvedomujete dianie inde?
No
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Tunnel
Prešli ste do alebo cez tunel?
Yes The hallway
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Presence of deceased persons
Videli ste počas vášho zážitku nejaké bytosti?
I actually saw them
Stretli ste sa alebo ste si uvedomili nejaké zosnulé (alebo živé) bytosti?
Yes No relatives
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Unearthly light
Videli ste, alebo ste sa cítili obklopení, jasným svetlom?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Videli ste nadpozemské svetlo?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
A landscape or city
Zdalo sa vám, že ste vstúpili do nejakého iného, nadpozemského sveta?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Strong emotional tone
Aké ďalšie emócie ste cítili počas zážitku?
Elated
Mali ste pocit pokoja alebo príjemnosti?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Mali ste pocit radosti?
incredible joy
Cítili ste pocit harmónie alebo jednoty s vesmírom?
I felt united or one with the world
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Special knowledge or purpose
Zdalo sa, že ste zrazu všetkému porozumeli?
No
Vrátili sa vám scény z vašej minulosti?
No
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Awareness of the future
Objavili sa vám scény z budúcnosti?
Scenes from my personal future
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Boundary
Dosiahli ste hranicu alebo obmedzujúcu fyzickú štruktúru?
Yes
Prišli ste k hranici alebo bodu, odkiaľ niet návratu?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Boh, spiritualita a náboženstvo
Aký význam ste prikladali svojmu náboženskému/duchovnému životu pred vašou skúsenosťou?
Greatly important to me
Aké bolo vaše náboženstvo pred vašou skúsenosťou?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Zmenili sa vaše náboženské praktiky od vašej skúsenosti?
Yes They are more grounded.
Aký význam prikladáte svojmu náboženskému/duchovnému životu po vašej skúsenosti?
Greatly important to me
Aké je vaše náboženstvo teraz?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Zahŕňala vaša skúsenosť prvky zhodné s vaším pozemským presvedčením?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Došlo u vás k zmene hodnôt a presvedčení v dôsledku vašej skúsenosti?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Skúsenosť zahŕňala
Presence of unearthly beings
Zdalo sa vám, že ste sa stretli s mystickou bytosťou alebo prítomnosťou, alebo ste počuli neidentifikovateľný hlas?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Videli ste zosnulých alebo náboženských duchov?
I actually saw them
Stretli ste sa alebo ste si boli vedomí nejakých bytostí, ktoré predtým žili na zemi a ktoré sú menovite opísané v náboženstvách (napríklad: Ježiš, Mohamed, Budha atď.)?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o existencii Boha?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o univerzálnom prepojení alebo jednote?
Yes
Verili ste v existenciu Boha pred vašou skúsenosťou?
God definitely exists
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o existencii Boha?
Yes the love was in everything.
Veríte v existenciu Boha po vašej skúsenosti?
God definitely exists
Čo sa týka našich pozemských životov mimo náboženstva
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali špeciálne poznatky alebo informácie o svojom účele?
Yes
Verili ste, že naše pozemské životy sú zmysluplné a významné pred vašou skúsenosťou?
Are meaningful and significant
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o zmysle života?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Verili ste v posmrtný život pred vašou skúsenosťou?
An afterlife definitely exists
Veríte v posmrtný život po vašej skúsenosti?
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Báli ste sa smrti pred vašou skúsenosťou?
I moderately feared death
Bojíte sa smrti po vašej skúsenosti?
I do not fear death
Báli ste sa žiť svoj život pred vašou skúsenosťou?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Báli ste sa žiť svoj život po vašej skúsenosti?
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Verili ste, že naše pozemské životy sú zmysluplné a významné pred vašou skúsenosťou?
Are meaningful and significant
Verili ste, že naše pozemské životy sú zmysluplné a významné po vašej skúsenosti?
Are meaningful and significant
Získali ste informácie o tom, ako žiť naše životy?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o životných ťažkostiach, výzvach a útrapách?
No
Boli ste súcitní pred vašou skúsenosťou?
Moderately compassionate toward others
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o láske?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Boli ste súcitní po vašej skúsenosti?
Greatly compassionate toward others
Aké životné zmeny nastali vo vašom živote po vašej skúsenosti?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Zmenili sa vaše vzťahy konkrétne v dôsledku vašej skúsenosti?
No No
Po NDE
Bolo ťažké vyjadriť túto skúsenosť slovami?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Ako presne si pamätáte skúsenosť v porovnaní s inými životnými udalosťami, ktoré sa stali v tom čase?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Máte po svojej skúsenosti nejaké psychické, neobyčajné alebo iné špeciálne dary, ktoré ste predtým nemali?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Sú nejaké časti vašej skúsenosti, ktoré sú pre vás obzvlášť zmysluplné alebo významné? Prosím, vysvetlite.
The love
Podelili ste sa už o túto skúsenosť s ostatnými?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Mali ste pred svojou skúsenosťou nejaké vedomosti o zážitkoch blízkych smrti (NDE)?
No
Čo ste si mysleli o realite vašej skúsenosti krátko (dni až týždne) po tom, čo sa stala?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Čo si teraz myslíte o realite vašej skúsenosti?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Reprodukovalo niekedy v priebehu vášho života niečo nejakú časť tejto skúsenosti?
No
Chceli by ste ešte niečo dodať o svojej skúsenosti?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.