Popis skúsenosti
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Základné informácie
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
Prvky NDE
Bol v čase vášho zážitku prítomný život ohrozujúci stav?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Ako hodnotíte obsah vášho zážitku?
Entirely distressing
Cítili ste sa oddelení od svojho tela?
No
No
Ako sa vaša najvyššia úroveň vedomia a bdelosti počas zážitku porovnáva s vaším bežným každodenným vedomím a bdelosťou?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
V ktorom čase počas zážitku ste boli na svojej najvyššej úrovni vedomia a bdelosti?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Zrýchlili sa vaše myšlienky?
Incredibly fast
Zdalo sa, že sa čas zrýchlil alebo spomalil?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Boli vaše zmysly živšie ako zvyčajne?
Incredibly more vivid
Prosím, porovnajte svoje videnie počas zážitku s vašim bežným videním, ktoré ste mali bezprostredne pred zážitkom
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Prosím, porovnajte svoj sluch počas zážitku s vašim bežným sluchom, ktorý ste mali bezprostredne pred zážitkom
I don't know.
Zdalo sa vám, že si uvedomujete dianie inde?
No
Prešli ste do alebo cez tunel?
No
Videli ste počas vášho zážitku nejaké bytosti?
No
Stretli ste sa alebo ste si uvedomili nejaké zosnulé (alebo živé) bytosti?
No
Videli ste, alebo ste sa cítili obklopení, jasným svetlom?
No
Videli ste nadpozemské svetlo?
No
Zdalo sa vám, že ste vstúpili do nejakého iného, nadpozemského sveta?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Aké ďalšie emócie ste cítili počas zážitku?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Mali ste pocit pokoja alebo príjemnosti?
No
Mali ste pocit radosti?
No
Cítili ste pocit harmónie alebo jednoty s vesmírom?
No
Zdalo sa, že ste zrazu všetkému porozumeli?
No
Vrátili sa vám scény z vašej minulosti?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Objavili sa vám scény z budúcnosti?
No
Prišli ste k hranici alebo bodu, odkiaľ niet návratu?
No
Boh, spiritualita a náboženstvo
Aké bolo vaše náboženstvo pred vašou skúsenosťou?
Christian- Catholic
Zmenili sa vaše náboženské praktiky od vašej skúsenosti?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Aké je vaše náboženstvo teraz?
Buddhist
Zahŕňala vaša skúsenosť prvky zhodné s vaším pozemským presvedčením?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Došlo u vás k zmene hodnôt a presvedčení v dôsledku vašej skúsenosti?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Zdalo sa vám, že ste sa stretli s mystickou bytosťou alebo prítomnosťou, alebo ste počuli neidentifikovateľný hlas?
No
Videli ste zosnulých alebo náboženských duchov?
No
Stretli ste sa alebo ste si boli vedomí nejakých bytostí, ktoré predtým žili na zemi a ktoré sú menovite opísané v náboženstvách (napríklad: Ježiš, Mohamed, Budha atď.)?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o existencii Boha?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o univerzálnom prepojení alebo jednote?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o existencii Boha?
No
Čo sa týka našich pozemských životov mimo náboženstva
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali špeciálne poznatky alebo informácie o svojom účele?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o zmysle života?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o posmrtnom živote?
No
Získali ste informácie o tom, ako žiť naše životy?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o životných ťažkostiach, výzvach a útrapách?
No
Počas vašej skúsenosti ste získali informácie o láske?
No
Aké životné zmeny nastali vo vašom živote po vašej skúsenosti?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Po NDE
Bolo ťažké vyjadriť túto skúsenosť slovami?
No
Ako presne si pamätáte skúsenosť v porovnaní s inými životnými udalosťami, ktoré sa stali v tom čase?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Máte po svojej skúsenosti nejaké psychické, neobyčajné alebo iné špeciálne dary, ktoré ste predtým nemali?
No
Sú nejaké časti vašej skúsenosti, ktoré sú pre vás obzvlášť zmysluplné alebo významné? Prosím, vysvetlite.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Podelili ste sa už o túto skúsenosť s ostatnými?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Mali ste pred svojou skúsenosťou nejaké vedomosti o zážitkoch blízkych smrti (NDE)?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Čo ste si mysleli o realite vašej skúsenosti krátko (dni až týždne) po tom, čo sa stala?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Čo si teraz myslíte o realite vašej skúsenosti?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Reprodukovalo niekedy v priebehu vášho života niečo nejakú časť tejto skúsenosti?
No
Chceli by ste ešte niečo dodať o svojej skúsenosti?
No