Opis iskustva
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Osnovne informacije
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
Elementi NDE-a
Da li je u vreme vašeg iskustva postojala povezena opasnost po život?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Kako smatrate sadržaj svog iskustva?
Entirely pleasant
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Out of body experience
Da li ste se osećali odvojeno od svog tela?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Kako se vaš najviši nivo svesti i budnosti tokom iskustva poredi sa vašom uobičajenom svakodnevnom svešću i budnošću?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
U kom trenutku tokom iskustva ste bili na najvišem nivou svesti i budnosti?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Da li su vam misli bile ubrzane?
Faster than usual
Da li se činilo da vreme ubrzava ili usporava?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Da li su vam čula bila življa nego obično?
Incredibly more vivid
Molimo vas da uporedite vaš vid tokom iskustva sa vašim svakodnevnim vidom koji ste imali neposredno pre vremena iskustva
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Molimo vas da uporedite vaš sluh tokom iskustva sa vašim svakodnevnim sluhom koji ste imali neposredno pre vremena iskustva
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Da li ste imali osećaj da ste svesni stvari koje se dešavaju negde drugde?
No
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Tunnel
Da li ste prošli kroz tunel?
Yes The hallway
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Presence of deceased persons
Da li ste u svom iskustvu videli neka bića?
I actually saw them
Da li ste naišli ili postali svesni bilo kojih pokojnih (ili živih) bića?
Yes No relatives
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Unearthly light
Da li ste videli ili se osećali okruženi sjajnom svetlošću?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Da li ste videli nebesku svetlost?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
A landscape or city
Da li vam se činilo da ste ušli u neki drugi, natprirodni svet?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Strong emotional tone
Koje ste druge emocije osećali tokom iskustva?
Elated
Da li ste imali osećaj mira ili prijatnosti?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Da li ste imali osećaj radosti?
incredible joy
Da li ste osećali osećaj harmonije ili jedinstva sa univerzumom?
I felt united or one with the world
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Special knowledge or purpose
Da li vam se odjednom činilo da razumete sve?
No
Da li su vam se vratili prizori iz prošlosti?
No
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Awareness of the future
Da li su vam dolazile scene iz budućnosti?
Scenes from my personal future
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Boundary
Da li ste došli do granice ili ograničene fizičke strukture?
Yes
Da li ste došli do granice ili tačke sa koje nema povratka?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Bog, duhovnost i religija
Kakav značaj ste pridavali svom religijskom/spiritualnom životu pre vašeg iskustva
Greatly important to me
Koja je bila vaša religija pre vašeg iskustva?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Da li su se vaše verske prakse promenile od vašeg iskustva?
Yes They are more grounded.
Kakav značaj pridajete svom religijskom/spiritualnom životu nakon vašeg iskustva
Greatly important to me
Koja je vaša religija sada?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Da li je vaše iskustvo uključivalo karakteristike u skladu sa vašim zemaljskim verovanjima?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Da li ste doživeli promenu u svojim vrednostima i verovanjima zbog vašeg iskustva?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Presence of unearthly beings
Da li vam se činilo da ste sreli mistično biće ili prisustvo, ili ste čuli neidentifkovan glas?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Da li ste videli preminule ili religiozne duhove?
I actually saw them
Da li ste se susreli ili postali svesni bilo kog bića koje je prethodno živelo na Zemlji i koje se spominje po imenu u religijama (na primer: Isus, Muhammad, Budin, itd.)?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o univerzalnoj povezanosti ili jedinstvu?
Yes
Da li ste verovali u postojanje Boga pre vašeg iskustva?
God definitely exists
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
Yes the love was in everything.
Da li verujete u postojanje Boga posle vašeg iskustva?
God definitely exists
Što se tiče naših zemaljskih života osim religije
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste dobili posebno znanje ili informacije o vašoj svrsi?
Yes
Da li ste verovali da su naši zemaljski životi smiselni i značajni pre vašeg iskustva
Are meaningful and significant
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o smislu života?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Da li ste verovali u život posle smrti pre vašeg iskustva
An afterlife definitely exists
Da li verujete u život posle smrti posle vašeg iskustva
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Da li ste se plašili smrti pre vašeg iskustva
I moderately feared death
Da li se bojite smrti nakon vašeg iskustva
I do not fear death
Da li ste se plašili da živite svoj život pre vašeg iskustva
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Da li ste se plašili da živite svoj život nakon vašeg iskustva
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Da li ste verovali da su naši zemaljski životi smiselni i značajni pre vašeg iskustva
Are meaningful and significant
Da li ste verovali da su naši zemaljski životi smiselni i značajni nakon vašeg iskustva
Are meaningful and significant
Da li ste stekli informacije o tome kako da živimo naše živote?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o teškoćama, izazovima i nedaćama u životu?
No
Da li ste bili saosećajni pre vašeg iskustva
Moderately compassionate toward others
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o ljubavi?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Da li ste bili saosećajni nakon vašeg iskustva
Greatly compassionate toward others
Koje su promene u životu nastale posle vašeg iskustva?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Da li su se vaši odnosi promenili posebno kao rezultat vašeg iskustva?
No No
Posle NDE-a
Da li je iskustvo bilo teško opisati rečima?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Koliko precizno se sećate iskustva u poređenju sa drugim životnim događajima koji su se desili u vreme vašeg iskustva?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Da li imate bilo kakve psihičke, neobične ili druge posebne sposobnosti nakon vašeg iskustva koje niste imali pre iskustva?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Postoje li jedan ili više delova vašeg iskustva koji su vam posebno značajni ili važni? Molimo objasnite.
The love
Da li ste ikada podelili ovo iskustvo sa drugima?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Da li ste imali bilo kakvo znanje o iskustvima bliske smrti (NDE) pre vašeg iskustva?
No
Šta ste verovali o realnosti vašeg iskustva shortly (dana do nedelje) nakon što se desilo?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Šta verujete o realnosti vašeg iskustva sada?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Da li je u bilo kom trenutku u vašem životu nešto ikada reproduciralo bilo koji deo iskustva?
No
Da li postoji još nešto što biste želeli da dodate o svom iskustvu?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.