Opis iskustva
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Osnovne informacije
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
Elementi NDE-a
Da li je u vreme vašeg iskustva postojala povezena opasnost po život?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Kako smatrate sadržaj svog iskustva?
Entirely distressing
Da li ste se osećali odvojeno od svog tela?
No
No
Kako se vaš najviši nivo svesti i budnosti tokom iskustva poredi sa vašom uobičajenom svakodnevnom svešću i budnošću?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
U kom trenutku tokom iskustva ste bili na najvišem nivou svesti i budnosti?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Da li su vam misli bile ubrzane?
Incredibly fast
Da li se činilo da vreme ubrzava ili usporava?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Da li su vam čula bila življa nego obično?
Incredibly more vivid
Molimo vas da uporedite vaš vid tokom iskustva sa vašim svakodnevnim vidom koji ste imali neposredno pre vremena iskustva
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Molimo vas da uporedite vaš sluh tokom iskustva sa vašim svakodnevnim sluhom koji ste imali neposredno pre vremena iskustva
I don't know.
Da li ste imali osećaj da ste svesni stvari koje se dešavaju negde drugde?
No
Da li ste prošli kroz tunel?
No
Da li ste u svom iskustvu videli neka bića?
No
Da li ste naišli ili postali svesni bilo kojih pokojnih (ili živih) bića?
No
Da li ste videli ili se osećali okruženi sjajnom svetlošću?
No
Da li ste videli nebesku svetlost?
No
Da li vam se činilo da ste ušli u neki drugi, natprirodni svet?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Koje ste druge emocije osećali tokom iskustva?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Da li ste imali osećaj mira ili prijatnosti?
No
Da li ste imali osećaj radosti?
No
Da li ste osećali osećaj harmonije ili jedinstva sa univerzumom?
No
Da li vam se odjednom činilo da razumete sve?
No
Da li su vam se vratili prizori iz prošlosti?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Da li su vam dolazile scene iz budućnosti?
No
Da li ste došli do granice ili tačke sa koje nema povratka?
No
Bog, duhovnost i religija
Koja je bila vaša religija pre vašeg iskustva?
Christian- Catholic
Da li su se vaše verske prakse promenile od vašeg iskustva?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Koja je vaša religija sada?
Buddhist
Da li je vaše iskustvo uključivalo karakteristike u skladu sa vašim zemaljskim verovanjima?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Da li ste doživeli promenu u svojim vrednostima i verovanjima zbog vašeg iskustva?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Da li vam se činilo da ste sreli mistično biće ili prisustvo, ili ste čuli neidentifkovan glas?
No
Da li ste videli preminule ili religiozne duhove?
No
Da li ste se susreli ili postali svesni bilo kog bića koje je prethodno živelo na Zemlji i koje se spominje po imenu u religijama (na primer: Isus, Muhammad, Budin, itd.)?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o univerzalnoj povezanosti ili jedinstvu?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o postojanju Boga?
No
Što se tiče naših zemaljskih života osim religije
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste dobili posebno znanje ili informacije o vašoj svrsi?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o smislu života?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o životu posle smrti?
No
Da li ste stekli informacije o tome kako da živimo naše živote?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o teškoćama, izazovima i nedaćama u životu?
No
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste stekli informacije o ljubavi?
No
Koje su promene u životu nastale posle vašeg iskustva?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Posle NDE-a
Da li je iskustvo bilo teško opisati rečima?
No
Koliko precizno se sećate iskustva u poređenju sa drugim životnim događajima koji su se desili u vreme vašeg iskustva?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Da li imate bilo kakve psihičke, neobične ili druge posebne sposobnosti nakon vašeg iskustva koje niste imali pre iskustva?
No
Postoje li jedan ili više delova vašeg iskustva koji su vam posebno značajni ili važni? Molimo objasnite.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Da li ste ikada podelili ovo iskustvo sa drugima?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Da li ste imali bilo kakvo znanje o iskustvima bliske smrti (NDE) pre vašeg iskustva?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Šta ste verovali o realnosti vašeg iskustva shortly (dana do nedelje) nakon što se desilo?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Šta verujete o realnosti vašeg iskustva sada?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Da li je u bilo kom trenutku u vašem životu nešto ikada reproduciralo bilo koji deo iskustva?
No
Da li postoji još nešto što biste želeli da dodate o svom iskustvu?
No