Upplevelsebeskrivning
I was aware that I was coming round from the operation. I began to hear the voices of the surgeon and staff first, and heard them say, 'Breathe Paul! Breathe!' I heard them saying that they would apply air via a tube but I was completely unable and unwilling to even try to breathe. My body was a dead weight, which seemed to have nothing to do with 'me'. What happened next seemed to me to last about an hour, although it was only seconds.
I felt that my mind was about four feet to the right of my head. I knew that I was still in the operating theatre, but I was no longer part of it. Suddenly, I felt as if someone was pushing me gently from behind. 'It's your turn,' said a voice and I was very surprised, as I'd had the impression that I was at the end of a long, long line of people (who I couldn't see but only sensed). The feeling was just like being sent to the front of the queue at a supermarket check in, I remember - pleasant surprise.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
Bakgrundsinformation
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/10/02
NDE-element
Vid tiden för din upplevelse, fanns det en livshotande händelse?
Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death My throat closed up and I couldn't breathe.
Hur bedömer du innehållet i din upplevelse?
Mixed
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Out of body experience
Kände du dig separerad från din kropp?
Yes I was aware of my body lying there but didn't see it as I was looking elsewhere.
Vid vilket tillfälle under upplevelsen var du på din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet?
Explained above.
Verkade tiden gå snabbare eller långsammare?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything was different, but the same. The 'here' and 'now' are one place. The same with time. It's all the same. There's no linear time. No space as we know it.
Skilde sig din hörsel på något sätt från det vanliga?
The voices of the staff faded away, but there was no sound. I seemed to 'mind read' the words I heard and spoke.
Passerade du genom en tunnel?
No
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Presence of deceased persons
Mötte du eller blev medveten om några avlidna (eller levande) varelser?
Yes Someone was behind me, guiding me, but I never saw them. They were neither male or female, it was just 'someone'. I cannot describe the voice, as it was not audible. I 'mind read' their words.
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Darkness
Såg du ett övernaturligt ljus?
No The opposite. I saw a blackness, but it was welcoming and not frightening. The way you like the dark if you have a migraine.
Verkade du komma in i någon annan, övernaturlig värld?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
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Strong emotional tone
Vilka andra känslor kände du under upplevelsen?
Surprise then utter bliss. Complete indifference to what was happening to my body. Confusion and disappointment at coming back.
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Special Knowledge
Verkade du plötsligt förstå allting?
Everything about the universe There's a time for everything. A role for everyone. A reason for everything. The purpose of life is not just our own happiness.
Kom scener från ditt förflutna tillbaka till dig?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I felt no power. Others had the power; I felt as if I was 'following orders' and was very happy to do so.
Kom scener från framtiden till dig?
No
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Boundary
Nådde du en gräns eller begränsande fysisk struktur?
Uncertain Big open doorway, comforting soothing blackness beyond. No fear. I was going towards it, but came back.
Kom du till en gräns eller en punkt utan återvändo?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I didn't want to return to my body, but was forced.
Gud, Spiritualitet och Religion
Vad var din religion innan din upplevelse?
Liberal
Vad är din religion nu?
Liberal
Hade du en förändring i dina värderingar och tro på grund av din upplevelse?
No
Efter NDE
Var det svårt att uttrycka upplevelsen i ord?
Yes The sudden change of feelings and the sense that time was dislocated. I was not dead but I was out of my body.
Har du några psykiska, ovanliga eller andra speciella gåvor efter din upplevelse som du inte hade före upplevelsen?
No
Finns det en eller flera delar av din upplevelse som är särskilt meningsfulla eller betydelsefulla för dig? Vänligen förklara.
Best - bliss of being out of the body. Worst - being dragged back.
Har du någonsin delat denna upplevelse med andra?
Yes The doctors said it's just a symptom of the anesthesia. Some friends were obviously nervous about it, didn't like to talk about death etc.! My daughter was scared too. No one seems to feel like I do about it all.
Vid något tillfälle i ditt liv, har något någonsin återgett någon del av upplevelsen?
No Not since but BEFORE, when I was seven. During a tonsils operation, I could see the doctors and nurses working on my body as I hovered near the ceiling. I recalled that they wore green clothes (which they only wore in the theatre and which of course I'd never seen before).
Finns det några andra frågor som vi kan ställa för att hjälpa dig att kommunicera din upplevelse?
If the person had had any similar experiences BEFORE the one they're relating.