Upplevelsebeskrivning
This incident occurred at the end of a long period of abuse - about three years. My abuser isolated me while I was swimming in a pond behind his house. After a brief argument with the man, as I was trying to swim away from him, he pushed me underwater by my shoulders and held me there. I struggled against his hands on my shoulders, but was not able to come to the surface. When I was almost out of air, I looked up through the water at the face of my attacker. His expression was very frightening to me because he was smiling, but also appeared to be very angry.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
Bakgrundsinformation
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1981
NDE-element
Vid tiden för din upplevelse, fanns det en livshotande händelse?
Yes Criminal attack Other near drowning
I was being held underwater by someone who intended to either scare me or kill me.
Hur bedömer du innehållet i din upplevelse?
Wonderful
Upplevelsen inkluderade
Out of body experience
Kände du dig separerad från din kropp?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hur jämförde sig din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet under upplevelsen med din normala vardagliga medvetenhet och vaksamhet?
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
Vid vilket tillfälle under upplevelsen var du på din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet?
When I had decided to, but before I had re-entered my body.
Var dina tankar påskyndade?
Incredibly fast
Verkade tiden gå snabbare eller långsammare?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time stopped and I felt like I was floating with no gravity.
Var dina sinnen mer livliga än vanligt?
Incredibly more vivid
Jämför din syn under upplevelsen med din vardagliga syn som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen
The surface of the water glinted in the sun in a starburst effect and the appearance of my body was in a haze of the pond water. It was surreal.
Jämför din hörsel under upplevelsen med din vardagliga hörsel som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen
I don't remember any sounds except for my attacker breathing heavily and the water slapping against his body.
Verkade du vara medveten om händelser på andra ställen?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Passerade du genom en tunnel?
No
Såg du några väsen i din upplevelse?
I actually saw them
Mötte du eller blev medveten om några avlidna (eller levande) varelser?
No
Upplevelsen inkluderade
Darkness
Upplevelsen inkluderade
Light
Såg du, eller kände dig omgiven av, ett strålande ljus?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Såg du ett övernaturligt ljus?
Yes
Verkade du komma in i någon annan, övernaturlig värld?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place surrounding the light was very comfortable and is not comparable to anything I have felt or seen since.
Vilka andra känslor kände du under upplevelsen?
Peace, absolute clarity and an absence of pain.
Kände du en känsla av frid eller trevlighet?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Kände du en känsla av glädje?
Happiness
Kände du en känsla av harmoni eller enhet med universum?
I felt united or one with the world
Upplevelsen inkluderade
Special Knowledge
Verkade du plötsligt förstå allting?
Everything about the universe
Kom scener från ditt förflutna tillbaka till dig?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I understood a much broader picture while I was not in my body. It didn't flood back to me in a visual life passing before my eyes. I went from ignorance instantly to wide awareness - not just of my life circumstances, but also of emotions, my family circumstances, a sense of purpose that I didn't have before. There was no sense of time, just calm sense of knowing what was and also what I needed to do.
Kom scener från framtiden till dig?
Scenes from the world's future I knew my mom was not going to die from her illness.
Kom du till en gräns eller en punkt utan återvändo?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Gud, Spiritualitet och Religion
Vad var din religion innan din upplevelse?
Liberal None
Har dina religösa handlingar förändrats sedan din upplevelse?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Vad är din religion nu?
Liberal None/Open minded
Hade du en förändring i dina värderingar och tro på grund av din upplevelse?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Verkade du stöta på en mystisk varelse eller närvaro, eller höra en oidentifierbar röst?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Såg du avlidna eller religiösa andar?
I actually saw them
Angående våra jordiska liv bortom religion
Under din upplevelse, fick du särskild kunskap eller information om ditt syfte?
Yes I understood my purpose on a different level. The string theory was a no-brainer for me. Somehow, I realized that we are all energy and that solid mass was an illusion.
Har dina relationer förändrats specifikt som ett resultat av din upplevelse?
Yes My sister and I have a special connection now.
Efter NDE
Var det svårt att uttrycka upplevelsen i ord?
No
Har du några psykiska, ovanliga eller andra speciella gåvor efter din upplevelse som du inte hade före upplevelsen?
Yes I can pass easily into this area by choice and sometimes wake up after sleeping with memories of being there, flying effortlessly.
Finns det en eller flera delar av din upplevelse som är särskilt meningsfulla eller betydelsefulla för dig? Vänligen förklara.
The experience changed my life. It ended the abuse and gave me a huge amount of empathy.
Har du någonsin delat denna upplevelse med andra?
Yes I started sharing the near drowning experience with my psychologist at age twenty-one. In the last few months, I have been processing the experience with an emergency doctor and have been able to describe the experience in more detail.
Hade du någon kunskap om nära döden-upplevelse (NDU) före din upplevelse?
No
Vad trodde du om verkligheten av din upplevelse kort efter (dagar till veckor) det hände?
Experience was definitely real I knew the experience was real. Soon after that experience, I began researching near death, out of body experiences, channeling and other forms of spirituality. I even did a report in high school where I interviewed a couple of psychics.
Vad tror du om verkligheten av din upplevelse nu?
Experience was definitely real I view this experience as my life energy moving between planes of consciousness under duress. I view it along the lines of the law of conservation of energy. It states that the total amount of energy in an isolated system remains constant. A consequence of this law is that energy cannot be created or destroyed. The only thing that can happen with energy in an isolated system is that it can change form, that is to say for instance kinetic energy can become thermal energy. Because energy is associated with mass in the Einstein's theory of relativity, the conservation of energy also implies the conservation of mass in isolated systems (that is, the mass of a system cannot change, so long as energy is not permitted to enter or leave the system). Our psychic energy, soul, what have you, is just another form of energy.
Vid något tillfälle i ditt liv, har något någonsin återgett någon del av upplevelsen?
No