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This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
Bakgrundsinformation
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
03/29/2001 4:20 pm Pacific time
NDE-element
Vid tiden för din upplevelse, fanns det en livshotande händelse?
No. Other: Healthy, Stayed conscious.
Hur bedömer du innehållet i din upplevelse?
Entirely pleasant
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Out of body experience
Kände du dig separerad från din kropp?
Yes My physical body stayed conscious while operating my vehicle. I have subsequently had veridical OBEs.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hur jämförde sig din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet under upplevelsen med din normala vardagliga medvetenhet och vaksamhet?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Vid vilket tillfälle under upplevelsen var du på din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet?
When I was the vast void, let’s say: normal is 11 or so lines of coded information. The vast void had a millions lines of coded information.
Var dina tankar påskyndade?
Incredibly fast
Verkade tiden gå snabbare eller långsammare?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Slowed, stopped and went outside of time.
Var dina sinnen mer livliga än vanligt?
Incredibly more vivid
Jämför din syn under upplevelsen med din vardagliga syn som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen
I could see 720 degrees and through time and space. I was outside of time and space. Layers and layers of visual information like Photoshop by seeing the image the information of all the layers is self-evident. Also, emotional and other types of information were available.
Jämför din hörsel under upplevelsen med din vardagliga hörsel som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen
The sound also contained layers of additional information and emotion and intensity: it still does.
Verkade du vara medveten om händelser på andra ställen?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
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Tunnel
Passerade du genom en tunnel?
Uncertain I saw a beam of white. It came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder. I felt the tangible touch. I became one with the beam. This beam transitioned me from my body. This was an experience that seems to be functionally equivalent to ‘the tunnel’.
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Presence of deceased persons
Såg du några väsen i din upplevelse?
I sensed their presence
Mötte du eller blev medveten om några avlidna (eller levande) varelser?
No Not in this particular experience, but in many others.
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Void
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Darkness
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Unearthly light
Såg du, eller kände dig omgiven av, ett strålande ljus?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Såg du ett övernaturligt ljus?
Yes The Beam was diffused at the top and sharp on the edges and came to a point at my shoulder. Then my body glowed in a bluish white from inside. The field of particles was also sort of light.
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A landscape or city
Verkade du komma in i någon annan, övernaturlig värld?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field of particles and the vast void.
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Hellish imagery
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Strong emotional tone
Vilka andra känslor kände du under upplevelsen?
Immense Love
Kände du en känsla av frid eller trevlighet?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Kände du en känsla av glädje?
incredible joy
Kände du en känsla av harmoni eller enhet med universum?
I felt united or one with the world
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Special knowledge or purpose
Verkade du plötsligt förstå allting?
Everything about the universe
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Life review
Kom scener från ditt förflutna tillbaka till dig?
I remembered many past events
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Awareness of the future
Kom scener från framtiden till dig?
Scenes from the world's future Why is this an either or question? I received much information about the future.
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Boundary
Nådde du en gräns eller begränsande fysisk struktur?
Yes There was an event horizon between the fields of particle, and then I went beyond to the vast void.
Kom du till en gräns eller en punkt utan återvändo?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will This is a little vague but I did feel like the topic came up and was decided.
Gud, Spiritualitet och Religion
Vilken betydelse gav du ditt religiösa/spirituella liv före din upplevelse
Not important to me
Vad var din religion innan din upplevelse?
Unaffiliated- Atheist Formerly Catholic but never really believed it during the time I was going through a period of atheism then agnosticism and I was conducting an experiment to experience God.
Har dina religösa handlingar förändrats sedan din upplevelse?
Yes From doubt to certainty.
Vilken betydelse ger du ditt religiösa/spirituella liv efter din upplevelse
Greatly important to me
Vad är din religion nu?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My knowledge now is beyond all religious limitations. I understand the value of them for others.
Innehöll din upplevelse funktioner som överensstämmer med dina jordiska tro?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The name "God of Abraham" is obviously from my culture and the beam does show up in the bible several places, but the whole experience is so far beyond anything that is taught in Catholicism it is inconsistent.
Hade du en förändring i dina värderingar och tro på grund av din upplevelse?
Yes God does exist and loves me. My actions matter. I am more aware of my actions and feelings.
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Presence of unearthly beings
Verkade du stöta på en mystisk varelse eller närvaro, eller höra en oidentifierbar röst?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard several voices from different locations around me and within me. One said ‘everything will be alright.’ One responding to my unasked question ‘who are you?’ The response: ‘God of Abraham.’
Såg du avlidna eller religiösa andar?
I sensed their presence
Stötte du på eller blev medveten om några varelser som tidigare levt på jorden och som beskrivs vid namn i religioner (till exempel: Jesus, Muhammed, Buddha, etc?)
No Not in this particular experience but in many other expereinces.
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om Guds existens?
Yes I, as God am uncreated, eternal, have been before this and will remain after.
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om universell koppling eller enhet?
Yes We are one!
Trodde du på Guds existens före din upplevelse?
God probably does not exist
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om Guds existens?
Yes God Exists. We are in fact God but we chose to forget ourselves.
Tror du på Guds existens efter din upplevelse?
God definitely exists
Angående våra jordiska liv bortom religion
Under din upplevelse, fick du särskild kunskap eller information om ditt syfte?
Yes Omniscient!
Trode du att våra jordiska liv är meningsfulla och betydelsefulla före din upplevelse
Are meaningful and significant
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om livets mening?
Yes We exist to experience. All of creation exists to experience.
Trodde du på en efterlevnad före din upplevelse
An afterlife probably does not exist
Tror du på en efterlevnad efter din upplevelse
An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are so much more that this fluff of biomatter.
Fruktade du döden före din upplevelse
I greatly feared death
Fruktar du döden efter din upplevelse
I do not fear death
Var du rädd för att leva ditt liv före din upplevelse
Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Var du rädd för att leva ditt liv efter din upplevelse
Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Trode du att våra jordiska liv är meningsfulla och betydelsefulla före din upplevelse
Are meaningful and significant
Trode du att våra jordiska liv är meningsfulla och betydelsefulla efter din upplevelse
Are meaningful and significant
Fick du information om hur vi ska leva våra liv?
Yes From the higher perspective it all makes sense, frustrating as it is that we don't remember. It does help to know that.
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om livets svårigheter, utmaningar och motgångar?
Yes Suffering is a mechanism for spiritual evolution which is one of the most valuable experiences to have the experience of learning growing and evolving and we remember who we really are and return home.
Var du medkännande före din upplevelse
Slightly compassionate toward others
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om kärlek?
Yes Love is the basis of all creation. Love is God. God is Love.
Var du medkännande efter din upplevelse
Greatly compassionate toward others
Vilka livsförändringar inträffade i ditt liv efter din upplevelse?
Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I felt horrible working for corrupt corporations and challenged their behavior. That did not go over very well. I have a difficult time receiving money now. It is a work in progress.
Har dina relationer förändrats specifikt som ett resultat av din upplevelse?
Uncertain Uncertain I am still a hot mess when it comes to relationships. But I hope there is a much stronger connection with some.
Efter NDE
Var det svårt att uttrycka upplevelsen i ord?
Yes There is creation beyond anything in the physical universe.
Hur noggrant minns du upplevelsen i jämförelse med andra livshändelser som inträffade runt tiden för upplevelsen?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It's more clear and more intense as a memory than reality is as reality.
Har du några psykiska, ovanliga eller andra speciella gåvor efter din upplevelse som du inte hade före upplevelsen?
Yes I can talk to the sun and the sun answers. I can feel solar flares and other fluctuations in the magnetic field. I have prophetic dreams and visions. I’m hugely empathic.
Finns det en eller flera delar av din upplevelse som är särskilt meningsfulla eller betydelsefulla för dig? Vänligen förklara.
The field of particles that is the substructure of the universe has not yet been validated by science, but it will. In 2013, UCLA imaged the atoms of platinum and it looks the same as the field I saw. I feel that is because atomic structure is built on the framework of the field.
Har du någonsin delat denna upplevelse med andra?
Yes A couple of days after, I told my friend who believed me because she had already had an OBE.
Hade du någon kunskap om nära döden-upplevelse (NDU) före din upplevelse?
Yes I had seen this awesome site; and read a few of the stories. I had also seen TV show about it.
Vad trodde du om verkligheten av din upplevelse kort efter (dagar till veckor) det hände?
Experience was definitely real It was absolutely real but I still wanted to meet someone else who had experienced it.
Vad tror du om verkligheten av din upplevelse nu?
Experience was definitely real Validation, Validation, Validation. Other people have experienced similar and almost identical experiences.
Vid något tillfälle i ditt liv, har något någonsin återgett någon del av upplevelsen?
Yes I have since had many OBEs: Fully through layers of heaven, hell and the vast void.
Är det något annat du skulle vilja lägga till om din upplevelse?
I never was close to death but it is still an NDE because of the spiritual elements. Also it is not enlightenment because I did not have spiritual guides and community. It is not just an OBE from sleeping because I was fully conscious. It does not really fit any category. I also felt most at home with NDE, as opposed to any other group.