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NDE Greyson-skala: 14

#7094

LandUnited States
KönF
ÅlderCollege Age
Upplevt datum1/18/2005
Inskickat datum1/24/2014

Upplevelsen inkluderade

Såg ett ljusstarkt övernaturligt ljusFörstod allt om universumUVE, UturkroppsupplevelseLärde sig om kvantfysikens egenskaperKommer ihåg detaljer om vad de lärde sig om kvantfysikBeskriver GudBestämde sig för att komma tillbaka till livet

Upplevelsebeskrivning

I found myself suddenly 'very high up' in a bright white room. There were several beings there. I can't remember how many now, but at least four. I think there were more though. There was a being on a throne, that I was almost directly in front of, that was the only one sitting down.

The others were standing up, and they were barefoot and in robes. I couldn't see their faces, just their feet, ankles, and the bottom of their robes. The standing ones seemed irritated a bit, and one lifted his ankle a bit as if to hide from me. They wanted to move off to the sides so that I couldn't see them. I was forced on my hands and knees, and couldn't move or look around except with my eyes. First I thought, 'cool, weird' and I thought they were aliens. I thought about the fact that there was one on the throne and changed my mind away from aliens.

I suddenly thought it was the throne room of 'God' and I got scared, I wanted to go back to my body. When I thought about that, I could somehow 'see' my body passed out on the couch. I was concerned that if I didn't go back soon, something was going to happen to my body. I was concerned that my friend would call 911. The beings understood that I was distressed, and they made me understand that they were just going to show me something for a minute, and then I could go back. They didn't talk, but I just understood that.

The throne-being had the 'ministers' roll some colored balls from one side of the room to the other. They were just like colored billiard-type balls. The balls made a sound when they rolled across the floor, which echoed on the walls, even though I couldn't see the walls. That and footsteps were the only sounds during the whole thing. I was supposed to understand the balls as 'atoms'. When I got that, they moved on to the next point quickly, which was, 'that's all your world is'. Then I accepted this and understood that it was the point of the 'lesson'; and as soon as I did, they knew it and sent me back to my body. Apparently, that was the only reason they were keeping me so they could show me. I wonder if they'd have shown me more if I wasn't so scared and worried about my body.

Bakgrundsinformation

Gender:

Female

Date NDE Occurred:

2005

NDE-element

Vid tiden för din upplevelse, fanns det en livshotande händelse?

Uncertain. Other: deliberate drug use I smoked a drug that causes hallucinations. I also have a history of seizures being triggered by drug use, and when the out-of-body experience began, I was concerned that my body was not functioning properly, that possibly my body wasn't exhibiting proper life signs, and I'd be taken to the hospital by my friend.

Hur bedömer du innehållet i din upplevelse?

Both pleasant AND distressing

Upplevelsen inkluderade

Out of body experience

Kände du dig separerad från din kropp?

Yes I was sort of aware, in some type of sense, of my body being very far down below me, and I could 'see it' clearly in some way, passed out on the couch. It seemed both visible and close to me, and extremely, extremely far away, as if I was in another part of the universe, that was 'up'. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

Hur jämförde sig din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet under upplevelsen med din normala vardagliga medvetenhet och vaksamhet?

Normal consciousness and alertness

Vid vilket tillfälle under upplevelsen var du på din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet?

I was of normal consciousness and alertness the whole time.

Var dina tankar påskyndade?

Verkade tiden gå snabbare eller långsammare?

Var dina sinnen mer livliga än vanligt?

More vivid than usual

Jämför din syn under upplevelsen med din vardagliga syn som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen

Moderately sharper and vivid.

Jämför din hörsel under upplevelsen med din vardagliga hörsel som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen

Moderately sharper and vivid. The audio quality of things in the room (footsteps, balls rolling) seemed crisper and highly defined.

Verkade du vara medveten om händelser på andra ställen?

Passerade du genom en tunnel?

Såg du några väsen i din upplevelse?

I actually saw them

Mötte du eller blev medveten om några avlidna (eller levande) varelser?

Upplevelsen inkluderade

Unearthly light

Såg du, eller kände dig omgiven av, ett strålande ljus?

A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Såg du ett övernaturligt ljus?

Yes The place I was in was made of very bright white light. Even the floor was seemingly of light.

Upplevelsen inkluderade

A landscape or city

Verkade du komma in i någon annan, övernaturlig värld?

A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was a very white, very illuminated, beautiful incandescent space. Everything was bright, everything was white, and it was an amazing type of whiteness and bright light 'sensation', without being blinding or painful to my eyes at all. It really had the peacefulness of a dimly lit space even though what I was seeing was very white and full of light in an other-worldly way.

Vilka andra känslor kände du under upplevelsen?

I was extremely nervous and desiring to go back to my body. I thought it was ridiculous that I was in front of, what I guessed at the time, to be 'God'. I was kind of laughing at the ridiculousness and wanting to go back to my body. I wasn't scared of the beings, but I was scared that possibly my body didn't have a pulse and my friend in the room with me might take me to the hospital. I could kind of 'see' my body unconscious on the couch sitting next to my friend. I don't know in what sense I could see it, though. I was more worried about my body than I was about the vision.

Kände du en känsla av frid eller trevlighet?

Kände du en känsla av glädje?

Kände du en känsla av harmoni eller enhet med universum?

Upplevelsen inkluderade

Special knowledge or purpose

Verkade du plötsligt förstå allting?

Everything about the universe Well, sort of yeah. I came back to my body with the exciting impression of a divine simplicity.

Kom scener från ditt förflutna tillbaka till dig?

Kom scener från framtiden till dig?

Kom du till en gräns eller en punkt utan återvändo?

I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I immediately, once I realized I was out of my body, I wanted to go back into it. Even though the beings never talked, it was as if we communicated somehow, and I knew that they knew I was distressed and desired to go back in my body. They were okay with that. They just wanted to keep me a minute to show me something. When I understood the 'lesson', they immediately sent me back down to my body.

Gud, Spiritualitet och Religion

Vilken betydelse gav du ditt religiösa/spirituella liv före din upplevelse

Moderately important to me

Vad var din religion innan din upplevelse?

Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Har dina religösa handlingar förändrats sedan din upplevelse?

Yes It took me years to take it seriously, but now I do; and now I do believe old religious myths probably do contain recordings of 'real experiences', sometimes, interwoven with fantasies and fictions. But now I take the old myths and fairy tales more seriously.

Vilken betydelse ger du ditt religiösa/spirituella liv efter din upplevelse

Moderately important to me

Vad är din religion nu?

Christian- Other Christian

Innehöll din upplevelse funktioner som överensstämmer med dina jordiska tro?

Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I did not believe in any type of human-like gods or a throne god, or any type of human-like otherworld beings. I did already know that atoms and small particles make up our apparently solid-object reality, although it is not solid or consistent at the quantum level. These beings wanted to emphasize that 'scientific' fact of life to me. It was new to me to associate religious beings with promoting science because, at the time of my experience, I associated spiritual and religious beings with fairy tale myths and outdated silly superstitions. I imagined the human species' realm of religious experience as a dichotomy to science and observed reality. I no longer view them as opposed.

Hade du en förändring i dina värderingar och tro på grund av din upplevelse?

Yes At one point, when I later thought about it that 'God' could exist like the storybooks, I did pick up the Christianity of my childhood programming again and became frightened of hell. It was a very brief re-conversion though, only lasting a few months. I don't think there was anything frightening in my experience to have caused that, but I think it was related to the possibility of believing it was the same being from my frightening childhood stories. Otherwise, more directly as a result of the content of the vision, I am more interested now in the theories that what we experience as our universe is something like a holographic projection, or something akin to a video game, or that we are souls operating in this plane, using atomic avatars. I have a lot of questions and interests in these types of things now. I have no idea, but I'm really interested to think what putting together science and human spiritual hallucinations could mean.

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Presence of unearthly beings

Verkade du stöta på en mystisk varelse eller närvaro, eller höra en oidentifierbar röst?

I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I saw several beings of human-like appearance in their legs and ankles, which was all I could see of them. They were very white or 'chalky' looking (i.e., not the white of humans). At first, I believed, from their color, that they were possibly the 'gray aliens'. But then I believed they were gods or religious-type beings, because of the set-up of there being a throne in the room. The room was very bright white, and they were wearing robes. They minimally communicated with me in some type of wordless telepathy; it was just understandings. I don't know how they were communicating with each other. Maybe in the same way, but also I suspected they could have been talking out-loud before I came in, but I felt that I wasn't allowed to hear them. I certainly wasn't allowed to see them, as they had somehow caused me to be on my hands and knees so that I couldn't look around except in a limited way from the floor. I felt this was so I couldn't see them.

Såg du avlidna eller religiösa andar?

I actually saw them

Stötte du på eller blev medveten om några varelser som tidigare levt på jorden och som beskrivs vid namn i religioner (till exempel: Jesus, Muhammed, Buddha, etc?)

Under din upplevelse, fick du information om Guds existens?

Under din upplevelse, fick du information om universell koppling eller enhet?

Uncertain I am not sure. They showed me 'atoms'. More specifically, they showed me colored balls that I was meant to metaphorically understand as atoms. Then I was meant to understand that 'that's all life on earth is'. Then I was sent back to my body.

Trodde du på Guds existens före din upplevelse?

God probably existsÂ

Under din upplevelse, fick du information om Guds existens?

Yes I felt that I was in the presence of some of the beings that humans have identified as gods. There were several there, they were standing up and barefoot, and wearing robes. There was one seated on a throne. I was forced down on my hands and knees and couldn't get up--they were controlling this on purpose. I wasn't allowed to look at their faces, and only saw them from the legs down. All I could see was that I was on my hands and knees, and there were several beings that looked like the legs and feet of people, but it was otherworldly, and there was one sitting down on a throne. I feel like other people throughout history must have hallucinated similar things and this type of hallucination is where our stories of heaven and god come from.

Tror du på Guds existens efter din upplevelse?

God definitely exists

Angående våra jordiska liv bortom religion

Under din upplevelse, fick du särskild kunskap eller information om ditt syfte?

Yes They wanted me to understand something about life in our realm consisting of atoms, like a living picture or a hologram.

Trode du att våra jordiska liv är meningsfulla och betydelsefulla före din upplevelse

Are meaningful and significant

Under din upplevelse, fick du information om livets mening?

Uncertain Same answer as above. (They showed me 'atoms'. More specifically, they showed me colored balls that I was meant to metaphorically understand as atoms. Then I was meant to understand that 'that's all life on earth is'. Then I was sent back to my body.)

Trodde du på en efterlevnad före din upplevelse

I was uncertain if an afterlife exists

Tror du på en efterlevnad efter din upplevelse

An afterlife probably exists No

Fruktade du döden före din upplevelse

I slightly feared death

Fruktar du döden efter din upplevelse

I slightly fear death

Var du rädd för att leva ditt liv före din upplevelse

Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Var du rädd för att leva ditt liv efter din upplevelse

Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Trode du att våra jordiska liv är meningsfulla och betydelsefulla före din upplevelse

Are meaningful and significant

Trode du att våra jordiska liv är meningsfulla och betydelsefulla efter din upplevelse

Are probably meaningful and significant

Fick du information om hur vi ska leva våra liv?

Under din upplevelse, fick du information om livets svårigheter, utmaningar och motgångar?

Var du medkännande före din upplevelse

Unknown

Under din upplevelse, fick du information om kärlek?

Var du medkännande efter din upplevelse

Greatly compassionate toward others

Vilka livsförändringar inträffade i ditt liv efter din upplevelse?

Unknown Unknown

Har dina relationer förändrats specifikt som ett resultat av din upplevelse?

No No

Efter NDE

Var det svårt att uttrycka upplevelsen i ord?

Yes

Hur noggrant minns du upplevelsen i jämförelse med andra livshändelser som inträffade runt tiden för upplevelsen?

I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I am sure that some of the details of it, like other memories, have faded over time. I think that I remember it as accurately as anything else though.

Har du några psykiska, ovanliga eller andra speciella gåvor efter din upplevelse som du inte hade före upplevelsen?

Uncertain After this event, I have experienced several things that I've felt may have been 'psychic'. I don't know if they were connected or not.

Finns det en eller flera delar av din upplevelse som är särskilt meningsfulla eller betydelsefulla för dig? Vänligen förklara.

I do not think I was supposed to be there in that room. I immediately wanted to leave and return to my body. However, the throne-being allowed it and made me stay for a few moments; and also instructed the others, who I viewed as being administrative persons, to give me a 'gift' before leaving. The gift was having me look at the colored balls, and understand them as atoms. I feel that this was chosen to give to me, because I was/am very often stressed-out about life. I felt that what they were trying to give me was the gift of calming down, and not taking things so seriously. It was a very humane and non-official experience. It has altered my 'fear' of 'the gods' or magical entities.

I do not necessarily view this being on the throne as the Big G: god, which/who I feel is probably a different sort of abstract and a more universal, non-human consciousness. However, I did feel the beings I was seeing, have historically been called gods by other humans. But even though they caused me to be on my hands and knees, and kept me at an official distance, and hid their faces from me, I still felt toward the throne-being like a kid that had stumbled into his father's office while he was at work.

The 'administrative' beings that were standing up, I felt were more annoyed than the one on the throne. I felt like the one on the throne, acted like a good father, who took some time out of his business to teach his kid something quickly before sending him off, even though it was rude that the kid had interrupted. My impression of these beings was really softened, as they were very humane and gentle toward me; and more intimate and approachable than some of the mythology around them being so intimidating, suggests.

After this, I feel like human beings are very intimately related to them, much like royal children are to kings and queens. Even if they're powerful and frightening in their official 'jobs', still actually we can go up to them for attention when we need to, because we are like the royal kids. Thus, they will respond to us with patience and affection because they are related to us and they want to help us grow.

Har du någonsin delat denna upplevelse med andra?

Yes I shared it right away; I couldn't stop talking about it. No one was influenced by my experience, but I was influenced to not believe it.

Hade du någon kunskap om nära döden-upplevelse (NDU) före din upplevelse?

Yes I think of my experience more as astral projection or something like that. I grew up with an interest in mystical things and I'm sure I encountered the idea of that in books or something. Yes, it did affect my experience, because I wanted to leave right away. I was worried about leaving my body 'unattended' on the couch sitting next to my friend. I was worried that he'd call an ambulance and I'd re-enter my body in the hospital and have to deal with a big fuss about it. I was too embarrassed and anxious about not being inside my body to purely enjoy or desire my experience. I was more worried about my life on earth than about the possibility of really being in front of these 'gods'.

Vad trodde du om verkligheten av din upplevelse kort efter (dagar till veckor) det hände?

Experience was definately not real I thought it was amazing and at first I was excited by it, and felt it was real. A few days later, I'd decided it was definitely not real. It was too stereotypical, and I viewed it as a product of my growing up in the west, in a Christian community, with my religious expectations being informed by paintings and mythos of white men on thrones. It didn't surprise me that my brain would hallucinate some version of that. I thought it was actually too predictable as a fantasy product. Then, talking it over with friends about the possibility of believing it, basically I was intellectually shamed out of believing it.

Vad tror du om verkligheten av din upplevelse nu?

Experience was probably real I don't know for sure if it was real, but on the other hand, I really don't know what 'real' is in terms of perception. It was as real as anything else I witness in my waking life. Other people have had uncannily similar hallucinations throughout the history of our species. At a certain point, I view it as scientifically negligent, and stubbornly adherent to a certain modern belief system, that systematically excludes such things as possible, to deny that it could have been something as real and relevant as anything else is.

Vid något tillfälle i ditt liv, har något någonsin återgett någon del av upplevelsen?

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