Upplevelsebeskrivning
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Bakgrundsinformation
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
NDE-element
Vid tiden för din upplevelse, fanns det en livshotande händelse?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Hur bedömer du innehållet i din upplevelse?
Entirely pleasant
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Out of body experience
Kände du dig separerad från din kropp?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Hur jämförde sig din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet under upplevelsen med din normala vardagliga medvetenhet och vaksamhet?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
Vid vilket tillfälle under upplevelsen var du på din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Var dina tankar påskyndade?
Faster than usual
Verkade tiden gå snabbare eller långsammare?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Var dina sinnen mer livliga än vanligt?
Incredibly more vivid
Jämför din syn under upplevelsen med din vardagliga syn som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Jämför din hörsel under upplevelsen med din vardagliga hörsel som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Verkade du vara medveten om händelser på andra ställen?
No
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Tunnel
Passerade du genom en tunnel?
Yes The hallway
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Presence of deceased persons
Såg du några väsen i din upplevelse?
I actually saw them
Mötte du eller blev medveten om några avlidna (eller levande) varelser?
Yes No relatives
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Unearthly light
Såg du, eller kände dig omgiven av, ett strålande ljus?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Såg du ett övernaturligt ljus?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
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A landscape or city
Verkade du komma in i någon annan, övernaturlig värld?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
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Strong emotional tone
Vilka andra känslor kände du under upplevelsen?
Elated
Kände du en känsla av frid eller trevlighet?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Kände du en känsla av glädje?
incredible joy
Kände du en känsla av harmoni eller enhet med universum?
I felt united or one with the world
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Special knowledge or purpose
Verkade du plötsligt förstå allting?
No
Kom scener från ditt förflutna tillbaka till dig?
No
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Awareness of the future
Kom scener från framtiden till dig?
Scenes from my personal future
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Boundary
Nådde du en gräns eller begränsande fysisk struktur?
Yes
Kom du till en gräns eller en punkt utan återvändo?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Gud, Spiritualitet och Religion
Vilken betydelse gav du ditt religiösa/spirituella liv före din upplevelse
Greatly important to me
Vad var din religion innan din upplevelse?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Har dina religösa handlingar förändrats sedan din upplevelse?
Yes They are more grounded.
Vilken betydelse ger du ditt religiösa/spirituella liv efter din upplevelse
Greatly important to me
Vad är din religion nu?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Innehöll din upplevelse funktioner som överensstämmer med dina jordiska tro?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Hade du en förändring i dina värderingar och tro på grund av din upplevelse?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
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Presence of unearthly beings
Verkade du stöta på en mystisk varelse eller närvaro, eller höra en oidentifierbar röst?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Såg du avlidna eller religiösa andar?
I actually saw them
Stötte du på eller blev medveten om några varelser som tidigare levt på jorden och som beskrivs vid namn i religioner (till exempel: Jesus, Muhammed, Buddha, etc?)
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om Guds existens?
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om universell koppling eller enhet?
Yes
Trodde du på Guds existens före din upplevelse?
God definitely exists
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om Guds existens?
Yes the love was in everything.
Tror du på Guds existens efter din upplevelse?
God definitely exists
Angående våra jordiska liv bortom religion
Under din upplevelse, fick du särskild kunskap eller information om ditt syfte?
Yes
Trode du att våra jordiska liv är meningsfulla och betydelsefulla före din upplevelse
Are meaningful and significant
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om livets mening?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Trodde du på en efterlevnad före din upplevelse
An afterlife definitely exists
Tror du på en efterlevnad efter din upplevelse
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Fruktade du döden före din upplevelse
I moderately feared death
Fruktar du döden efter din upplevelse
I do not fear death
Var du rädd för att leva ditt liv före din upplevelse
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Var du rädd för att leva ditt liv efter din upplevelse
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Trode du att våra jordiska liv är meningsfulla och betydelsefulla före din upplevelse
Are meaningful and significant
Trode du att våra jordiska liv är meningsfulla och betydelsefulla efter din upplevelse
Are meaningful and significant
Fick du information om hur vi ska leva våra liv?
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om livets svårigheter, utmaningar och motgångar?
No
Var du medkännande före din upplevelse
Moderately compassionate toward others
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om kärlek?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Var du medkännande efter din upplevelse
Greatly compassionate toward others
Vilka livsförändringar inträffade i ditt liv efter din upplevelse?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Har dina relationer förändrats specifikt som ett resultat av din upplevelse?
No No
Efter NDE
Var det svårt att uttrycka upplevelsen i ord?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Hur noggrant minns du upplevelsen i jämförelse med andra livshändelser som inträffade runt tiden för upplevelsen?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Har du några psykiska, ovanliga eller andra speciella gåvor efter din upplevelse som du inte hade före upplevelsen?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Finns det en eller flera delar av din upplevelse som är särskilt meningsfulla eller betydelsefulla för dig? Vänligen förklara.
The love
Har du någonsin delat denna upplevelse med andra?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Hade du någon kunskap om nära döden-upplevelse (NDU) före din upplevelse?
No
Vad trodde du om verkligheten av din upplevelse kort efter (dagar till veckor) det hände?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
Vad tror du om verkligheten av din upplevelse nu?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Vid något tillfälle i ditt liv, har något någonsin återgett någon del av upplevelsen?
No
Är det något annat du skulle vilja lägga till om din upplevelse?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.