Upplevelsebeskrivning
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Bakgrundsinformation
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
NDE-element
Vid tiden för din upplevelse, fanns det en livshotande händelse?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Hur bedömer du innehållet i din upplevelse?
Entirely distressing
Kände du dig separerad från din kropp?
No
No
Hur jämförde sig din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet under upplevelsen med din normala vardagliga medvetenhet och vaksamhet?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
Vid vilket tillfälle under upplevelsen var du på din högsta nivå av medvetenhet och vaksamhet?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Var dina tankar påskyndade?
Incredibly fast
Verkade tiden gå snabbare eller långsammare?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Var dina sinnen mer livliga än vanligt?
Incredibly more vivid
Jämför din syn under upplevelsen med din vardagliga syn som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Jämför din hörsel under upplevelsen med din vardagliga hörsel som du hade omedelbart före upplevelsen
I don't know.
Verkade du vara medveten om händelser på andra ställen?
No
Passerade du genom en tunnel?
No
Såg du några väsen i din upplevelse?
No
Mötte du eller blev medveten om några avlidna (eller levande) varelser?
No
Såg du, eller kände dig omgiven av, ett strålande ljus?
No
Såg du ett övernaturligt ljus?
No
Verkade du komma in i någon annan, övernaturlig värld?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Vilka andra känslor kände du under upplevelsen?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Kände du en känsla av frid eller trevlighet?
No
Kände du en känsla av glädje?
No
Kände du en känsla av harmoni eller enhet med universum?
No
Verkade du plötsligt förstå allting?
No
Kom scener från ditt förflutna tillbaka till dig?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Kom scener från framtiden till dig?
No
Kom du till en gräns eller en punkt utan återvändo?
No
Gud, Spiritualitet och Religion
Vad var din religion innan din upplevelse?
Christian- Catholic
Har dina religösa handlingar förändrats sedan din upplevelse?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Vad är din religion nu?
Buddhist
Innehöll din upplevelse funktioner som överensstämmer med dina jordiska tro?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Hade du en förändring i dina värderingar och tro på grund av din upplevelse?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Verkade du stöta på en mystisk varelse eller närvaro, eller höra en oidentifierbar röst?
No
Såg du avlidna eller religiösa andar?
No
Stötte du på eller blev medveten om några varelser som tidigare levt på jorden och som beskrivs vid namn i religioner (till exempel: Jesus, Muhammed, Buddha, etc?)
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om Guds existens?
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om universell koppling eller enhet?
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om Guds existens?
No
Angående våra jordiska liv bortom religion
Under din upplevelse, fick du särskild kunskap eller information om ditt syfte?
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om livets mening?
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om en efterlevnad?
No
Fick du information om hur vi ska leva våra liv?
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om livets svårigheter, utmaningar och motgångar?
No
Under din upplevelse, fick du information om kärlek?
No
Vilka livsförändringar inträffade i ditt liv efter din upplevelse?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Efter NDE
Var det svårt att uttrycka upplevelsen i ord?
No
Hur noggrant minns du upplevelsen i jämförelse med andra livshändelser som inträffade runt tiden för upplevelsen?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Har du några psykiska, ovanliga eller andra speciella gåvor efter din upplevelse som du inte hade före upplevelsen?
No
Finns det en eller flera delar av din upplevelse som är särskilt meningsfulla eller betydelsefulla för dig? Vänligen förklara.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Har du någonsin delat denna upplevelse med andra?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Hade du någon kunskap om nära döden-upplevelse (NDU) före din upplevelse?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
Vad trodde du om verkligheten av din upplevelse kort efter (dagar till veckor) det hände?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
Vad tror du om verkligheten av din upplevelse nu?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Vid något tillfälle i ditt liv, har något någonsin återgett någon del av upplevelsen?
No
Är det något annat du skulle vilja lägga till om din upplevelse?
No