Опис досвіду
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Фонову інформацію
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
Елементи НДЕ
Чи був під час вашого досвіду пов'язаний з ним небезпечний для життя випадок?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Як ви вважаєте, що містить ваш досвід?
Mixed
Чи відчували ви відділеність від свого тіла?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Як ваш найвищий рівень свідомості та настороженості під час досвіду співвідносився з нормальним повсякденним рівнем свідомості та настороженості?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
В який момент під час досвіду ви були на найвищому рівні свідомості та настороженості?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
Ваші думки прискорилися?
Neither
Чи здавалося вам, що час прискорюється або сповільнюється?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
Чи були ваші відчуття більш яскравими, ніж зазвичай?
Neither
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш зір під час переживання з вашим повсякденним зором, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш слух під час переживання з вашим повсякденним слухом, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Чи відчували ви, що знаєте про те, що відбувається десь ще?
Neither
Ви проходили через тунель?
Yes Already described.
Чи бачили ви якісь істоти у своєму досвіді?
Saw them
Чи стикалися ви або усвідомлювали присутність померлих (або живих) істот?
Yes Already described.
Ви бачили або відчували себе оточеними яскравим світлом?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Ви бачили неземне світло?
Yes Already described.
Вам здавалося, що ви входили в якийсь інший, неземний світ?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Які ще емоції ви відчували під час переживання?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Чи мали ви відчуття миру чи приємності?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Чи мали ви відчуття радості?
Incredible joy
Чи відчували ви гармонію або єдність з всесвітом?
United, one with the world
Чи здавалося вам, що ви раптом зрозуміли все?
Everything about the universe
Чи приходили до вас сцени з вашого минулого?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
Чи приходили до вас сцени з майбутнього?
From the world's future
Very private.
Чи підійшли ви до кордону або точки неповернення?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Бог, Духовність і Релігія
Яка була ваша релігія до вашого досвіду?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
Чи змінилися ваші релігійні практики після вашого досвіду?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Яка ваша релігія зараз?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Чи відбулися зміни у ваших цінностях та переконаннях через ваш досвід?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Ви здавалося стикалися з містичним істотою або присутністю, або чули невпізнаний голос?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Чи бачили ви померлих або релігійних духів?
Saw them
Щодо нашого земного життя, крім релігії
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви спеціальні знання або інформацію про своє призначення?
Yes Very private.
Чи змінилися ваші стосунки конкретно через ваш досвід?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
Після НДЕ
Чи було важко висловити досвід словами?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Чи є у вас психічні, незвичайні або інші особливі дари після вашого досвіду, яких у вас не було до досвіду?
Yes Personal.
Чи є одна або кілька частин вашого досвіду, які є особливо значущими або важливими для вас? Будь ласка, поясніть.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Чи ділилися ви коли-небудь цим досвідом з іншими?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Чи мали ви якісь знання про досвід близької смерті (NDE) до вашого досвіду?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
У що ви вірили стосовно реальності вашого досвіду незабаром (протягом кількох днів до тижнів) після того, як це сталося?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
У що ви вірите зараз щодо реальності вашого досвіду?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
Чи було щось у вашому житті, що коли-небудь відтворювало частину цього досвіду?
No