Опис досвіду
This incident occurred at the end of a long period of abuse - about three years. My abuser isolated me while I was swimming in a pond behind his house. After a brief argument with the man, as I was trying to swim away from him, he pushed me underwater by my shoulders and held me there. I struggled against his hands on my shoulders, but was not able to come to the surface. When I was almost out of air, I looked up through the water at the face of my attacker. His expression was very frightening to me because he was smiling, but also appeared to be very angry.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
Фонову інформацію
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1981
Елементи НДЕ
Чи був під час вашого досвіду пов'язаний з ним небезпечний для життя випадок?
Yes Criminal attack Other near drowning
I was being held underwater by someone who intended to either scare me or kill me.
Як ви вважаєте, що містить ваш досвід?
Wonderful
Досвід включав
Out of body experience
Чи відчували ви відділеність від свого тіла?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Як ваш найвищий рівень свідомості та настороженості під час досвіду співвідносився з нормальним повсякденним рівнем свідомості та настороженості?
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
В який момент під час досвіду ви були на найвищому рівні свідомості та настороженості?
When I had decided to, but before I had re-entered my body.
Ваші думки прискорилися?
Incredibly fast
Чи здавалося вам, що час прискорюється або сповільнюється?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time stopped and I felt like I was floating with no gravity.
Чи були ваші відчуття більш яскравими, ніж зазвичай?
Incredibly more vivid
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш зір під час переживання з вашим повсякденним зором, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
The surface of the water glinted in the sun in a starburst effect and the appearance of my body was in a haze of the pond water. It was surreal.
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш слух під час переживання з вашим повсякденним слухом, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
I don't remember any sounds except for my attacker breathing heavily and the water slapping against his body.
Чи відчували ви, що знаєте про те, що відбувається десь ще?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Ви проходили через тунель?
No
Чи бачили ви якісь істоти у своєму досвіді?
I actually saw them
Чи стикалися ви або усвідомлювали присутність померлих (або живих) істот?
No
Досвід включав
Darkness
Досвід включав
Light
Ви бачили або відчували себе оточеними яскравим світлом?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Ви бачили неземне світло?
Yes
Вам здавалося, що ви входили в якийсь інший, неземний світ?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place surrounding the light was very comfortable and is not comparable to anything I have felt or seen since.
Які ще емоції ви відчували під час переживання?
Peace, absolute clarity and an absence of pain.
Чи мали ви відчуття миру чи приємності?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Чи мали ви відчуття радості?
Happiness
Чи відчували ви гармонію або єдність з всесвітом?
I felt united or one with the world
Досвід включав
Special Knowledge
Чи здавалося вам, що ви раптом зрозуміли все?
Everything about the universe
Чи приходили до вас сцени з вашого минулого?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I understood a much broader picture while I was not in my body. It didn't flood back to me in a visual life passing before my eyes. I went from ignorance instantly to wide awareness - not just of my life circumstances, but also of emotions, my family circumstances, a sense of purpose that I didn't have before. There was no sense of time, just calm sense of knowing what was and also what I needed to do.
Чи приходили до вас сцени з майбутнього?
Scenes from the world's future I knew my mom was not going to die from her illness.
Чи підійшли ви до кордону або точки неповернення?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Бог, Духовність і Релігія
Яка була ваша релігія до вашого досвіду?
Liberal None
Чи змінилися ваші релігійні практики після вашого досвіду?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Яка ваша релігія зараз?
Liberal None/Open minded
Чи відбулися зміни у ваших цінностях та переконаннях через ваш досвід?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Ви здавалося стикалися з містичним істотою або присутністю, або чули невпізнаний голос?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Чи бачили ви померлих або релігійних духів?
I actually saw them
Щодо нашого земного життя, крім релігії
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви спеціальні знання або інформацію про своє призначення?
Yes I understood my purpose on a different level. The string theory was a no-brainer for me. Somehow, I realized that we are all energy and that solid mass was an illusion.
Чи змінилися ваші стосунки конкретно через ваш досвід?
Yes My sister and I have a special connection now.
Після НДЕ
Чи було важко висловити досвід словами?
No
Чи є у вас психічні, незвичайні або інші особливі дари після вашого досвіду, яких у вас не було до досвіду?
Yes I can pass easily into this area by choice and sometimes wake up after sleeping with memories of being there, flying effortlessly.
Чи є одна або кілька частин вашого досвіду, які є особливо значущими або важливими для вас? Будь ласка, поясніть.
The experience changed my life. It ended the abuse and gave me a huge amount of empathy.
Чи ділилися ви коли-небудь цим досвідом з іншими?
Yes I started sharing the near drowning experience with my psychologist at age twenty-one. In the last few months, I have been processing the experience with an emergency doctor and have been able to describe the experience in more detail.
Чи мали ви якісь знання про досвід близької смерті (NDE) до вашого досвіду?
No
У що ви вірили стосовно реальності вашого досвіду незабаром (протягом кількох днів до тижнів) після того, як це сталося?
Experience was definitely real I knew the experience was real. Soon after that experience, I began researching near death, out of body experiences, channeling and other forms of spirituality. I even did a report in high school where I interviewed a couple of psychics.
У що ви вірите зараз щодо реальності вашого досвіду?
Experience was definitely real I view this experience as my life energy moving between planes of consciousness under duress. I view it along the lines of the law of conservation of energy. It states that the total amount of energy in an isolated system remains constant. A consequence of this law is that energy cannot be created or destroyed. The only thing that can happen with energy in an isolated system is that it can change form, that is to say for instance kinetic energy can become thermal energy. Because energy is associated with mass in the Einstein's theory of relativity, the conservation of energy also implies the conservation of mass in isolated systems (that is, the mass of a system cannot change, so long as energy is not permitted to enter or leave the system). Our psychic energy, soul, what have you, is just another form of energy.
Чи було щось у вашому житті, що коли-небудь відтворювало частину цього досвіду?
No