Опис досвіду
The experience began within a white space and with a telepathic voice, the gender I could not tell. The voice said ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ I instinctively knew what the voice was asking and excitedly I chose forward. It was then that I noticed the dog that stood beside me and I felt others close behind. It puzzled me, but not entirely.
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Suddenly before me was an arch-shaped gate with smaller arches/gates on either side. All was white and there were three steps that curved up on either side of the gates. Again, I ‘heard’ the voice ‘Do you want to go forward or do you want to go back?’ This time the dog and I ran toward the left stairs and up to the first gate. I knew again, what the voice was asking and again I wanted to go on. At the smaller first gate, two dogs awaited the dog with me. The gate was iridescent and I could not see through it. Interestingly, I tried to walk through with the dog and the other dogs telepathically told me that I needed to go in the larger gate and that I could see my new friend if I wanted, later. (Yes, I now find this quite amusing.)
I then went to the larger main gate. It was moving, iridescent, and colorful. I walked through into blackness. Somewhere in my thoughts I called it the ‘hallway’ and as I traveled further down the hallway something started to happen. I began to float and an overwhelming sense of love swarmed my being. I still cannot describe what this felt like. There is no earthly comparison: and I say that being a devoted and loving wife and mother. I started to feel so excited that I began to spin while still floating and moving. Then I did something interesting, I tried to gasp for breath as if the awareness of my physical body was still trying to pull me back. I heard the voice once more and this time it said ‘There is no need to breathe air. There is only love.’
I still, stubbornly, tried to catch my breath, but now I noticed that I had no feet, no body, but I still felt like me. I at once ‘looked’ and at the end of the black hallway was a light. Moving closer to the light, I saw someone waiting for me. I could not tell if this was a man or a woman, but knew that he or she was a guide or important to my life, and had always been. I walked with the being, into the light, as others were streaming in behind me. There were individuals in lines and I could mentally talk to them all at once, and they me. I knew they were moving on to the light. This felt like a way station.
The being took me over to ‘sit’. I still don't know how. He or she said to me without words, ‘You have to go back’. I responded defiantly, ‘No I'm staying home!’ The Being, again, made the same statement and I, again, refused until he or she just bore something in me: The knowledge that I did indeed have more to do and needed to return. I was to have children and I needed to know about the availability of this great unspeakable love, which I referred to as God. I traveled with others who were also going back. The handful of us left the light and walked up a small grassy hill. There was a lake there and a sun setting that never completely set. I looked at the sunset and was slammed into my body.
My whole chest and head flew up to a sitting position and as I grasped for air, I noticed that my entire face was covered in tears. I could not stop crying. I wanted nothing more than to go back home, but I was back in my bed where I needed to be. Days later, I went to work and a friend walked who was quite sad. I asked what was wrong and she said that a couple of days ago she hit a dog with her car and the dog died. I stopped her and described the dog in my experience. She was in shock, the dog that was with me was the exact description of the dog she hit and killed on the same exact night.
Today, I have two beautiful boys. What I didn't mention was, at the time of my NDE, I was told by many doctors that I would never have children. I had five miscarriages/In Vitro Fertilizations/and various other treatments, all of which were a failure. During this specific time in my life, I had already had three miscarriages and later, I went on to have two more. I did eventually have two beautiful boys without any medical intervention. My oldest had told me that he was sent from a world with colors in the sky and I needed to have him because he is a healer. He said this at two years old and followed his confession with a statement: ‘Mommy and Daddy, There are doctors and there are healers, but not all doctors are healers.’
Фонову інформацію
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
6/2001
Елементи НДЕ
Чи був під час вашого досвіду пов'язаний з ним небезпечний для життя випадок?
Uncertain. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.
Episode of apnea during sleep.
Як ви вважаєте, що містить ваш досвід?
Entirely pleasant
Досвід включав
Out of body experience
Чи відчували ви відділеність від свого тіла?
Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Як ваш найвищий рівень свідомості та настороженості під час досвіду співвідносився з нормальним повсякденним рівнем свідомості та настороженості?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
В який момент під час досвіду ви були на найвищому рівні свідомості та настороженості?
When I realized I had no body. I felt more and understood more.
Ваші думки прискорилися?
Faster than usual
Чи здавалося вам, що час прискорюється або сповільнюється?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Чи були ваші відчуття більш яскравими, ніж зазвичай?
Incredibly more vivid
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш зір під час переживання з вашим повсякденним зором, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
There was a difference. I knew I wasn't looking in the traditional sense of ‘looking’.
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш слух під час переживання з вашим повсякденним слухом, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
Nor was I hearing with ears.
Чи відчували ви, що знаєте про те, що відбувається десь ще?
No
Досвід включав
Tunnel
Ви проходили через тунель?
Yes The hallway
Досвід включав
Presence of deceased persons
Чи бачили ви якісь істоти у своєму досвіді?
I actually saw them
Чи стикалися ви або усвідомлювали присутність померлих (або живих) істот?
Yes No relatives
Досвід включав
Unearthly light
Ви бачили або відчували себе оточеними яскравим світлом?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Ви бачили неземне світло?
Yes White light that was encompassing, but not difficult to take.
Досвід включав
A landscape or city
Вам здавалося, що ви входили в якийсь інший, неземний світ?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See story
Досвід включав
Strong emotional tone
Які ще емоції ви відчували під час переживання?
Elated
Чи мали ви відчуття миру чи приємності?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Чи мали ви відчуття радості?
incredible joy
Чи відчували ви гармонію або єдність з всесвітом?
I felt united or one with the world
Досвід включав
Special knowledge or purpose
Чи здавалося вам, що ви раптом зрозуміли все?
No
Чи приходили до вас сцени з вашого минулого?
No
Досвід включав
Awareness of the future
Чи приходили до вас сцени з майбутнього?
Scenes from my personal future
Досвід включав
Boundary
Чи стикалися ви з кордоном або обмежуючою фізичною структурою?
Yes
Чи підійшли ви до кордону або точки неповернення?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Бог, Духовність і Релігія
Яке значення ви надавали своєму релігійному/духовному життю до вашого досвіду
Greatly important to me
Яка була ваша релігія до вашого досвіду?
Buddhist At the time I had a full meditative practice and ventured to silent retreats many times throughout the year. My spiritual practice concentrated on loving-kindness.
Чи змінилися ваші релігійні практики після вашого досвіду?
Yes They are more grounded.
Яке значення ви надаєте своєму релігійному/духовному життю після вашого досвіду
Greatly important to me
Яка ваша релігія зараз?
Other or several faiths After my experience I no longer felt as though "religion" in the everyday sense was a valuable path for me. I instead looked toward making my actions in alignment with what I valued in all religions. I had the direct experience that the love I felt was meant to be realized. In other words, that the world was intended at this time to move from a place of knowledge to a place of love.
Чи містив ваш досвід ознаки, які відповідають вашим земним переконанням?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Чи відбулися зміни у ваших цінностях та переконаннях через ваш досвід?
Yes A vast openness. I no longer have an aversion to other faiths.
Досвід включав
Presence of unearthly beings
Ви здавалося стикалися з містичним істотою або присутністю, або чули невпізнаний голос?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin See story
Чи бачили ви померлих або релігійних духів?
I actually saw them
Ви зустрічалися або усвідомлювали будь-яких істот, які раніше жили на землі і описані в релігіях по імені (наприклад: Ісус, Мухаммад, Будда і т.д.)?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про існування Бога?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про універсальне зв'язок чи єдність?
Yes
Чи вірили ви в існування Бога до вашого досвіду?
God definitely exists
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про існування Бога?
Yes the love was in everything.
Чи вірите ви в існування Бога після вашого досвіду?
God definitely exists
Щодо нашого земного життя, крім релігії
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви спеціальні знання або інформацію про своє призначення?
Yes
Чи вірили ви, що наше земне життя має значення і важливість до вашого досвіду
Are meaningful and significant
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про сенс життя?
Yes moving from a place of knowledge to love
Чи вірите ви в потойбічне життя до вашого досвіду
An afterlife definitely exists
Чи вірите ви в потойбічне життя після вашого досвіду
An afterlife definitely exists Yes
Чи боялися ви смерті до вашого досвіду
I moderately feared death
Чи ви боїтеся смерті після свого досвіду
I do not fear death
Чи боялися ви жити своїм життям до вашого досвіду
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Чи боялися ви жити своїм життям після вашого досвіду
Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Чи вірили ви, що наше земне життя має значення і важливість до вашого досвіду
Are meaningful and significant
Чи вірили ви, що наше земне життя має значення і важливість після вашого досвіду
Are meaningful and significant
Чи отримали ви інформацію про те, як жити наше життя?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про труднощі, виклики та труднощі життя?
No
Чи були ви співчутливі до вашого досвіду
Moderately compassionate toward others
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про любов?
Yes God is love and is in everything and there is no real distance between that realm and earth
Чи були ви співчутливі після вашого досвіду
Greatly compassionate toward others
Які зміни в житті відбулися після вашого досвіду?
Moderate changes in my life Moderate changes in my life. The experience has changed me forever. To feel that love for one moment is like being given a gift that blesses you to such a degree that you want and need to give it to others. I would take one minute of that than all the riches in the world.
Чи змінилися ваші стосунки конкретно через ваш досвід?
No No
Після НДЕ
Чи було важко висловити досвід словами?
Yes The love is still difficult to explain.
Наскільки точно ви пам'ятаєте досвід у порівнянні з іншими життєвими подіями, що сталися приблизно в той же час, коли стався досвід?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Чи є у вас психічні, незвичайні або інші особливі дари після вашого досвіду, яких у вас не було до досвіду?
Yes I’ve had dreams, all of my life that were ‘telling,’ so to speak. Since my experience, I have never had anyone close to me or those I love die: without me knowing first. I also dream of those that have passed and get information from them.
Чи є одна або кілька частин вашого досвіду, які є особливо значущими або важливими для вас? Будь ласка, поясніть.
The love
Чи ділилися ви коли-небудь цим досвідом з іншими?
Yes From the first day until now. The responses vary. I was working in the hospital Emergency Room, some years back, when a woman came in who tried to commit suicide because her teenage son died. Days later, I went to see her in the psych unit and told her my story. She cried and was so happy. She said that was all she wanted, just to know that he's okay and that someone was waiting for him.
Чи мали ви якісь знання про досвід близької смерті (NDE) до вашого досвіду?
No
У що ви вірили стосовно реальності вашого досвіду незабаром (протягом кількох днів до тижнів) після того, як це сталося?
Experience was definitely real Nothing was ever as real.
У що ви вірите зараз щодо реальності вашого досвіду?
Experience was definitely real Even years later, the experience is part of me.
Чи було щось у вашому житті, що коли-небудь відтворювало частину цього досвіду?
No
Чи є ще щось, що ви хотіли б додати про свій досвід?
My experience was one that was experienced by me, a normal, down-to-earth woman who never did drugs or drank; who at the time was just trying to love the world a little more every day. Now I am a mom/wife/and simple member and worker in my community who still feels the same and still remembers every single moment of that night.