Mary D
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- КраїнаUnited States
- СтатьF
- ВікAdult
- Дата досвіду1/1/2001
- Дата подання7/29/2014
Досвід включав
Час втратив будь-яке значенняБачення свого минулого (Огляд життя)Бачення свого майбутньогоБачити яскраве неземне світлоРозвиток психічних здібностейРозуміння всього про всесвітБачення минулих життів (Реінкарнація)Позатілесний досвідВідчуття єдності з усесвітомOBE, Observed concurrent events away from bodyПовідомляли, що були/є єдиними з БогомДуховний світ більш реальний, ніж фізична реальністьПояснює мету окремих життівПояснює мету всього життяСвідомість у тваринах, рослинах або предметахДізнався про властивості квантової фізикиПам'ятає деталі того, що дізнався про квантову фізикуЧас є ілюзією і не існує в духовному світіВсесвіт складається лише з любові та світлаОписує Бога
Опис досвіду
Loved: A Transcendent Journey Check it out at: Click Here
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
This is an excerpt from my experience of oneness that is fully described in my book:
When I focused my attention on the grass, the love was like I am reveling in the life, in the detail. I am love revealing and expressing myself as grass, it was glorious!
In the experience of being one of the trees, I felt the love resonating like a sense of strength and glorious power, sturdiness, powerfulness, and longevity. When I felt the love when the beam first reached me, it was first like I am precious, I am cherished. I felt cherished, I felt me specifically, I am loved by God and I want you to feel that, that truth, that knowing in your cells: that you are cherished, you are loved, you are precious, you are God's precious baby, delicate precious infant, God's own creation. God loves you as if you were the only thing in existence. God loves all things like that. God loves all of existence preciously and specifically. God glories in the detail of the magnificence of the life you are co-creating with God. I love God.
When my focus shifted to the rocks, I lost my focus from the love, I was so surprised, I still felt the love but my focus was on ‘really? I am the rock? Really?’ When my focus shifted to become the universe, the love re-established and multiplied with such immense, immense love. I love remembering it. I love trying to get back to the place, the immensity of the whole universe. I love it. So full, so incredibly awesome, immense love, I want that love for you. I want you to know the immensity of the love that God has for everything in the universe and the universe itself. It's so immense; I love that.
I want to try to take you there with me, so imagine how big the earth is. Wait, no, back it up, and imagine how small a grain of sand is. So you make the earth a grain of sand, and then the sun is as big as the earth. Then you make the sun a grain of sand and the solar system as big as the sun. Then you make the solar system a grain of sand and the galaxy as big as the solar system. Then you make the galaxy a grain of sand and a tiny little piece of the universe as big as the galaxy. Then you make all the quadrants of the Universe as a grain of sand and the Void is bigger than the universe, if the universe is a grain of sand. Then stretch it all back, which is the immensity of love.
When my focus went to the field of particles, I had the thought, ‘What is this?’ that was immediately answered with, ‘This is the tiniest particle. This is from what matter comes. This is love expressed as material. This is what everything is constructed from. This love, this love expressed as matter, is what the universe is made. This is love; this is God's love. Each physical piece of it is love and consciousness, and the space between is love, consciousness and infinite knowledge, infinite information. This is what you did not know yet. This thing, this is it, this is the bridge between my love unexpressed and you. This is the bridge between all that energy unexpressed in the void and you, this field’.
I drifted through the field, not in any particular spot, and I observed how the particles were organized in this matrix; and in the matrix, the particles were not touching each other, not a single one was touching any of the other ones. They emitted a light, the rays of light from one reached the rays of light from the other, they entangled, and those lines of energy kept the distance stabilized. The energy pushing out, the rays coming out kept the next particle separate; there was a tiny membrane around each particle and inside the particle was illuminated, too. It is not that there's something more, this is IT, this is the tiniest thing: this radiating particle.
If I was going to draw it, it really just looks white but I was seeing or experiencing the information of the particles-ness of the substance, that it’s actually matter, the way we understand, the way common people understand matter. Just let me be clear on that, since taking a bunch of physics classes there are some people who would say there's no matter in the universe, it is all energy. Matter is energy and expressed as matter, it is different resonance. It's stable energy and is different. It's not just energy, it is energy expressed as matter. It's love actually. It has equilibrium, a push and a pull, or radiance and a grab.
Within each little buffered field, each particle did have some wiggle room to move around. It didn't spin. I shared this story with my astronomy professor and he asked me if they were spinning but they were not spinning. They were just moving slightly in their positions and sometimes there would be several moving in sequence, thus, there would be like a wave effect; mostly they were, individually, just little nudges moving around slightly so I can now extrapolate in what that could result. Any tiny fluctuation could result in the fabulous detail of the reality in which we exist. Just like that fractal math, the tiniest little fluctuation creates detail and that's what I saw. The love there was really immense and phenomenal, as well. I don't want to lose that. Each particle was conscious and loved specifically.
Фонову інформацію
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
03/29/2001 4:20 pm Pacific time
Елементи НДЕ
Чи був під час вашого досвіду пов'язаний з ним небезпечний для життя випадок?
No. Other: Healthy, Stayed conscious.
Як ви вважаєте, що містить ваш досвід?
Entirely pleasant
Досвід включав
Out of body experience
Чи відчували ви відділеність від свого тіла?
Yes My physical body stayed conscious while operating my vehicle. I have subsequently had veridical OBEs.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Як ваш найвищий рівень свідомості та настороженості під час досвіду співвідносився з нормальним повсякденним рівнем свідомості та настороженості?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
В який момент під час досвіду ви були на найвищому рівні свідомості та настороженості?
When I was the vast void, let’s say: normal is 11 or so lines of coded information. The vast void had a millions lines of coded information.
Ваші думки прискорилися?
Incredibly fast
Чи здавалося вам, що час прискорюється або сповільнюється?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Slowed, stopped and went outside of time.
Чи були ваші відчуття більш яскравими, ніж зазвичай?
Incredibly more vivid
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш зір під час переживання з вашим повсякденним зором, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
I could see 720 degrees and through time and space. I was outside of time and space. Layers and layers of visual information like Photoshop by seeing the image the information of all the layers is self-evident. Also, emotional and other types of information were available.
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш слух під час переживання з вашим повсякденним слухом, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
The sound also contained layers of additional information and emotion and intensity: it still does.
Чи відчували ви, що знаєте про те, що відбувається десь ще?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Досвід включав
Tunnel
Ви проходили через тунель?
Uncertain I saw a beam of white. It came out of the sky and touched me on the shoulder. I felt the tangible touch. I became one with the beam. This beam transitioned me from my body. This was an experience that seems to be functionally equivalent to ‘the tunnel’.
Досвід включав
Presence of deceased persons
Чи бачили ви якісь істоти у своєму досвіді?
I sensed their presence
Чи стикалися ви або усвідомлювали присутність померлих (або живих) істот?
No Not in this particular experience, but in many others.
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Void
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Darkness
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Unearthly light
Ви бачили або відчували себе оточеними яскравим світлом?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Ви бачили неземне світло?
Yes The Beam was diffused at the top and sharp on the edges and came to a point at my shoulder. Then my body glowed in a bluish white from inside. The field of particles was also sort of light.
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A landscape or city
Вам здавалося, що ви входили в якийсь інший, неземний світ?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The field of particles and the vast void.
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Hellish imagery
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Strong emotional tone
Які ще емоції ви відчували під час переживання?
Immense Love
Чи мали ви відчуття миру чи приємності?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Чи мали ви відчуття радості?
incredible joy
Чи відчували ви гармонію або єдність з всесвітом?
I felt united or one with the world
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Special knowledge or purpose
Чи здавалося вам, що ви раптом зрозуміли все?
Everything about the universe
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Life review
Чи приходили до вас сцени з вашого минулого?
I remembered many past events
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Awareness of the future
Чи приходили до вас сцени з майбутнього?
Scenes from the world's future Why is this an either or question? I received much information about the future.
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Boundary
Чи стикалися ви з кордоном або обмежуючою фізичною структурою?
Yes There was an event horizon between the fields of particle, and then I went beyond to the vast void.
Чи підійшли ви до кордону або точки неповернення?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will This is a little vague but I did feel like the topic came up and was decided.
Бог, Духовність і Релігія
Яке значення ви надавали своєму релігійному/духовному життю до вашого досвіду
Not important to me
Яка була ваша релігія до вашого досвіду?
Unaffiliated- Atheist Formerly Catholic but never really believed it during the time I was going through a period of atheism then agnosticism and I was conducting an experiment to experience God.
Чи змінилися ваші релігійні практики після вашого досвіду?
Yes From doubt to certainty.
Яке значення ви надаєте своєму релігійному/духовному життю після вашого досвіду
Greatly important to me
Яка ваша релігія зараз?
Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My knowledge now is beyond all religious limitations. I understand the value of them for others.
Чи містив ваш досвід ознаки, які відповідають вашим земним переконанням?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The name "God of Abraham" is obviously from my culture and the beam does show up in the bible several places, but the whole experience is so far beyond anything that is taught in Catholicism it is inconsistent.
Чи відбулися зміни у ваших цінностях та переконаннях через ваш досвід?
Yes God does exist and loves me. My actions matter. I am more aware of my actions and feelings.
Досвід включав
Presence of unearthly beings
Ви здавалося стикалися з містичним істотою або присутністю, або чули невпізнаний голос?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I heard several voices from different locations around me and within me. One said ‘everything will be alright.’ One responding to my unasked question ‘who are you?’ The response: ‘God of Abraham.’
Чи бачили ви померлих або релігійних духів?
I sensed their presence
Ви зустрічалися або усвідомлювали будь-яких істот, які раніше жили на землі і описані в релігіях по імені (наприклад: Ісус, Мухаммад, Будда і т.д.)?
No Not in this particular experience but in many other expereinces.
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про існування Бога?
Yes I, as God am uncreated, eternal, have been before this and will remain after.
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про універсальне зв'язок чи єдність?
Yes We are one!
Чи вірили ви в існування Бога до вашого досвіду?
God probably does not exist
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про існування Бога?
Yes God Exists. We are in fact God but we chose to forget ourselves.
Чи вірите ви в існування Бога після вашого досвіду?
God definitely exists
Щодо нашого земного життя, крім релігії
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви спеціальні знання або інформацію про своє призначення?
Yes Omniscient!
Чи вірили ви, що наше земне життя має значення і важливість до вашого досвіду
Are meaningful and significant
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про сенс життя?
Yes We exist to experience. All of creation exists to experience.
Чи вірите ви в потойбічне життя до вашого досвіду
An afterlife probably does not exist
Чи вірите ви в потойбічне життя після вашого досвіду
An afterlife definitely exists Yes We are so much more that this fluff of biomatter.
Чи боялися ви смерті до вашого досвіду
I greatly feared death
Чи ви боїтеся смерті після свого досвіду
I do not fear death
Чи боялися ви жити своїм життям до вашого досвіду
Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Чи боялися ви жити своїм життям після вашого досвіду
Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Чи вірили ви, що наше земне життя має значення і важливість до вашого досвіду
Are meaningful and significant
Чи вірили ви, що наше земне життя має значення і важливість після вашого досвіду
Are meaningful and significant
Чи отримали ви інформацію про те, як жити наше життя?
Yes From the higher perspective it all makes sense, frustrating as it is that we don't remember. It does help to know that.
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про труднощі, виклики та труднощі життя?
Yes Suffering is a mechanism for spiritual evolution which is one of the most valuable experiences to have the experience of learning growing and evolving and we remember who we really are and return home.
Чи були ви співчутливі до вашого досвіду
Slightly compassionate toward others
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про любов?
Yes Love is the basis of all creation. Love is God. God is Love.
Чи були ви співчутливі після вашого досвіду
Greatly compassionate toward others
Які зміни в житті відбулися після вашого досвіду?
Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. I felt horrible working for corrupt corporations and challenged their behavior. That did not go over very well. I have a difficult time receiving money now. It is a work in progress.
Чи змінилися ваші стосунки конкретно через ваш досвід?
Uncertain Uncertain I am still a hot mess when it comes to relationships. But I hope there is a much stronger connection with some.
Після НДЕ
Чи було важко висловити досвід словами?
Yes There is creation beyond anything in the physical universe.
Наскільки точно ви пам'ятаєте досвід у порівнянні з іншими життєвими подіями, що сталися приблизно в той же час, коли стався досвід?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It's more clear and more intense as a memory than reality is as reality.
Чи є у вас психічні, незвичайні або інші особливі дари після вашого досвіду, яких у вас не було до досвіду?
Yes I can talk to the sun and the sun answers. I can feel solar flares and other fluctuations in the magnetic field. I have prophetic dreams and visions. I’m hugely empathic.
Чи є одна або кілька частин вашого досвіду, які є особливо значущими або важливими для вас? Будь ласка, поясніть.
The field of particles that is the substructure of the universe has not yet been validated by science, but it will. In 2013, UCLA imaged the atoms of platinum and it looks the same as the field I saw. I feel that is because atomic structure is built on the framework of the field.
Чи ділилися ви коли-небудь цим досвідом з іншими?
Yes A couple of days after, I told my friend who believed me because she had already had an OBE.
Чи мали ви якісь знання про досвід близької смерті (NDE) до вашого досвіду?
Yes I had seen this awesome site; and read a few of the stories. I had also seen TV show about it.
У що ви вірили стосовно реальності вашого досвіду незабаром (протягом кількох днів до тижнів) після того, як це сталося?
Experience was definitely real It was absolutely real but I still wanted to meet someone else who had experienced it.
У що ви вірите зараз щодо реальності вашого досвіду?
Experience was definitely real Validation, Validation, Validation. Other people have experienced similar and almost identical experiences.
Чи було щось у вашому житті, що коли-небудь відтворювало частину цього досвіду?
Yes I have since had many OBEs: Fully through layers of heaven, hell and the vast void.
Чи є ще щось, що ви хотіли б додати про свій досвід?
I never was close to death but it is still an NDE because of the spiritual elements. Also it is not enlightenment because I did not have spiritual guides and community. It is not just an OBE from sleeping because I was fully conscious. It does not really fit any category. I also felt most at home with NDE, as opposed to any other group.