Опис досвіду
When I was 25 years old, I was driving home from work one night. I lived in Los Angeles at the time. I was driving on Sunset Boulevard heading west towards my apartment in Brentwood. For those who are not familiar with the area, there is an expanse of Sunset Blvd, near UCLA, that is very curvy. It is 2 lanes on either side with no shoulder.
It was 8:30 on a Saturday night, so there was some traffic. I was driving along and all of a sudden about 50 feet in front of me I saw a car but I was looking at the passenger door. A car had spun out of control and was perpendicular in my lane. I didn't have time to stop. I looked to my right and saw there was a car next to me so I had nowhere to go. I instinctively turned my car all the way to the right anyway. Once I had cleared the first car, I spun it all the way to the left, still trying to avoid the second car.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
While all of this was happening, I remembered a time with my mom at Disneyworld when I was 3. This is not a memory I have ever had. I vaguely remember parts of that trip but this memory was not one of them. I realized then that my life was flashing before me and I was going to die. I had never been so sure of anything. Every part of me knew I was about to die. I started screaming, to this day I don't know if I vocalized anything or it was all in my head. I yelled 'No, no this isn't fair. I'm not done yet!', all the while swerving all over Sunset Blvd. I suddenly stopped my car and I was now perpendicular in the opposing lane of traffic.
I looked around and there was not a single car anywhere. It was like everything had been wiped clean. I put my car in reverse and proceeded home. I did not see a single car the rest of the way. I was only 5 minutes away from home at that point but Sunset Blvd on a Saturday night was completely empty. I got to my apartment and parked on the street. I didn't see one person. While walking to my apartment I came to the conclusion that I had died and because I said 'No,' I was stuck in some limbo.
I had never wanted my roommate to be home so badly, unfortunately she wasn't. I called one of my best friends and said, 'I need to ask you some questions. Please just answer me and I will explain after'. I asked her my name, my age, what city we lived in and the date. Obviously she was very alarmed. I explained that I thought I was dead and I wasn't sure I was really on the phone with her. She tried to convince me that I was alive and that everything was okay.
There was no way mathematically to escape it. There was nowhere for the car on the right to go.
This moment has haunted me my whole life. There have been times when I have questioned my existence. I've wondered if my 'life' since has been a very detailed death trip and I'm actually lying on Sunset Blvd bleeding out in 2004.
Фонову інформацію
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/2004
Елементи НДЕ
Чи був під час вашого досвіду пов'язаний з ним небезпечний для життя випадок?
Yes Accident Other I was fine. I completely escaped it.
I was almost in a terrible accident that there seemed to be no way to escape.
Як ви вважаєте, що містить ваш досвід?
Entirely distressing
Чи відчували ви відділеність від свого тіла?
No
No
Як ваш найвищий рівень свідомості та настороженості під час досвіду співвідносився з нормальним повсякденним рівнем свідомості та настороженості?
More consciousness and alertness than normal I was very aware of how slowly time was moving. I had absolute certainty I was going to die. Everything in my body, mind and soul knew I was going to die. I had never been so certain of anything.
В який момент під час досвіду ви були на найвищому рівні свідомості та настороженості?
After my life flashed before my eyes.
Ваші думки прискорилися?
Incredibly fast
Чи здавалося вам, що час прискорюється або сповільнюється?
Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Every millisecond felt like an hour.
Чи були ваші відчуття більш яскравими, ніж зазвичай?
Incredibly more vivid
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш зір під час переживання з вашим повсякденним зором, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
I don't remember any change in my vision.
Будь ласка, порівняйте ваш слух під час переживання з вашим повсякденним слухом, який ви мали безпосередньо перед переживанням
I don't know.
Чи відчували ви, що знаєте про те, що відбувається десь ще?
No
Ви проходили через тунель?
No
Чи бачили ви якісь істоти у своєму досвіді?
No
Чи стикалися ви або усвідомлювали присутність померлих (або живих) істот?
No
Ви бачили або відчували себе оточеними яскравим світлом?
No
Ви бачили неземне світло?
No
Вам здавалося, що ви входили в якийсь інший, неземний світ?
Some unfamiliar and strange place I was in the same place but it was strange. It felt different. All other people disappeared, I felt completely alone in the universe.
Які ще емоції ви відчували під час переживання?
Terror, anger, sadness I wasn't ready to go
Чи мали ви відчуття миру чи приємності?
No
Чи мали ви відчуття радості?
No
Чи відчували ви гармонію або єдність з всесвітом?
No
Чи здавалося вам, що ви раптом зрозуміли все?
No
Чи приходили до вас сцени з вашого минулого?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I had a memory of a trip to Disneyworld with my mother when I was 3. This is not a memory I had ever had. It was brand new.
Чи приходили до вас сцени з майбутнього?
No
Чи підійшли ви до кордону або точки неповернення?
No
Бог, Духовність і Релігія
Яка була ваша релігія до вашого досвіду?
Christian- Catholic
Чи змінилися ваші релігійні практики після вашого досвіду?
Yes Now I am more Buddhist than any other religion. Meditation has become a daily practice for me. Being a kind person has become my number 1 priority in this life.
Яка ваша релігія зараз?
Buddhist
Чи містив ваш досвід ознаки, які відповідають вашим земним переконанням?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was brought up Catholic so what happened did not fit into that box. I was just starting studying metaphysics so my mind was opening up to new ideas. Though I was raised Catholic I have always believed in reincarnation, for as long as I can remember. It was never a choice. I've always thought that is how it works, even as a child.
Чи відбулися зміни у ваших цінностях та переконаннях через ваш досвід?
Yes As I said earlier it changed how I saw everything. My place in the world was turned upside down.
Ви здавалося стикалися з містичним істотою або присутністю, або чули невпізнаний голос?
No
Чи бачили ви померлих або релігійних духів?
No
Ви зустрічалися або усвідомлювали будь-яких істот, які раніше жили на землі і описані в релігіях по імені (наприклад: Ісус, Мухаммад, Будда і т.д.)?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про існування Бога?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про універсальне зв'язок чи єдність?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про існування Бога?
No
Щодо нашого земного життя, крім релігії
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви спеціальні знання або інформацію про своє призначення?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про сенс життя?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про потойбічне життя?
No
Чи отримали ви інформацію про те, як жити наше життя?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про труднощі, виклики та труднощі життя?
No
Під час вашого досвіду, чи отримали ви інформацію про любов?
No
Які зміни в житті відбулися після вашого досвіду?
Moderate changes in my life I realized nothing worked the way I thought it did. It changed my perception of everything.
Після НДЕ
Чи було важко висловити досвід словами?
No
Наскільки точно ви пам'ятаєте досвід у порівнянні з іншими життєвими подіями, що сталися приблизно в той же час, коли стався досвід?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember every detail of that experience so well, it's like it happened yesterday. Besides my job and roommate at the time, I don't remember the daily details of that time in my life.
Чи є у вас психічні, незвичайні або інші особливі дари після вашого досвіду, яких у вас не було до досвіду?
No
Чи є одна або кілька частин вашого досвіду, які є особливо значущими або важливими для вас? Будь ласка, поясніть.
The fact that I said 'No'. I had no idea my will to live was so strong nor did I realize that sometimes we have a choice about dying.
Чи ділилися ви коли-небудь цим досвідом з іншими?
Yes A few people I told immediately. I'm not sure if they believed me or not. I know that they believed I believed it. I find more people believe me now. There is an awakening taking place and a lot of people are far more free thinking than in 1994.
Чи мали ви якісь знання про досвід близької смерті (NDE) до вашого досвіду?
Yes Not any personal knowledge, though I had heard others' accounts of NDEs.
У що ви вірили стосовно реальності вашого досвіду незабаром (протягом кількох днів до тижнів) після того, як це сталося?
Experience was definitely real It haunted me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was desperate to understand why I didn't die that night, what saved me from that fate.
У що ви вірите зараз щодо реальності вашого досвіду?
Experience was definitely real Now I believe in quantum physics so I think I jumped to a parallel existence and actually did die in that timeline.
Чи було щось у вашому житті, що коли-небудь відтворювало частину цього досвіду?
No
Чи є ще щось, що ви хотіли б додати про свій досвід?
No