Patirties aprašymas
I was aware that I was coming round from the operation. I began to hear the voices of the surgeon and staff first, and heard them say, 'Breathe Paul! Breathe!' I heard them saying that they would apply air via a tube but I was completely unable and unwilling to even try to breathe. My body was a dead weight, which seemed to have nothing to do with 'me'. What happened next seemed to me to last about an hour, although it was only seconds.
I felt that my mind was about four feet to the right of my head. I knew that I was still in the operating theatre, but I was no longer part of it. Suddenly, I felt as if someone was pushing me gently from behind. 'It's your turn,' said a voice and I was very surprised, as I'd had the impression that I was at the end of a long, long line of people (who I couldn't see but only sensed). The feeling was just like being sent to the front of the queue at a supermarket check in, I remember - pleasant surprise.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
In front of me, I then saw a huge open rectangular doorway, completely black beyond. Around it, the operating theatre started to fade away and I approached the doorway. The feeling was one of utter peace. There was no pain, no worry. It was indescribable. The I saw the number forty-nine about three feet tall in front of me (my age then) and I said, 'Only forty-nine eh? I thought I'd have made it to at least to fifty!' and I laughed. I felt so happy, but then I remembered that my daughter was getting married the next summer, and that I was looking forward to receiving an award soon.
The voices of the theatre staff came back to me, and I was pulled violently back into my body, I started to feel pain in my throat as they pulled out the tube. I felt 'heavy' being back inside my body, and wanted to go back to where I'd been. I had a headache for two days afterwards and a feeling that I didn't really belong in this world, but that it was my duty to stay. The world seemed so grey, so heavy, almost 'dead' compared to my experience. It took me some days to get used to it all again! It was as if I'd been away for ages.
Fono informacija
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
10/10/02
NDE elementai
Jūsų patirties metu ar buvo susijęs gyvybei pavojingas įvykis?
Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death My throat closed up and I couldn't breathe.
Kaip vertinate savo patirties turinį?
Mixed
Patirtis apėmė
Out of body experience
Ar jautėtės atskirtas nuo savo kūno?
Yes I was aware of my body lying there but didn't see it as I was looking elsewhere.
Kuriuo metu patirties metu buvote pasiekęs aukščiausią sąmoningumo ir budrumo lygį?
Explained above.
Ar atrodė, kad laikas greitėja ar lėtėja?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Everything was different, but the same. The 'here' and 'now' are one place. The same with time. It's all the same. There's no linear time. No space as we know it.
Ar jūsų klausymas skirtųsi nuo normalaus?
The voices of the staff faded away, but there was no sound. I seemed to 'mind read' the words I heard and spoke.
Ar jūs praėjote į tunelį ar per jį?
No
Patirtis apėmė
Presence of deceased persons
Ar susidūrėte arba tapote sąmoningi bet kokių mirusių (ar gyvų) būtybių?
Yes Someone was behind me, guiding me, but I never saw them. They were neither male or female, it was just 'someone'. I cannot describe the voice, as it was not audible. I 'mind read' their words.
Patirtis apėmė
Darkness
Ar matėte nežemišką šviesą?
No The opposite. I saw a blackness, but it was welcoming and not frightening. The way you like the dark if you have a migraine.
Ar atrodė, kad patekote į kitą, nežemišką pasaulį?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Described above.
Patirtis apėmė
Strong emotional tone
Kokius kitus jausmus jautėte patirties metu?
Surprise then utter bliss. Complete indifference to what was happening to my body. Confusion and disappointment at coming back.
Patirtis apėmė
Special Knowledge
Ar staiga atrodė, kad suprantate viską?
Everything about the universe There's a time for everything. A role for everyone. A reason for everything. The purpose of life is not just our own happiness.
Ar jums sugrįžo scenos iš praeities?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I felt no power. Others had the power; I felt as if I was 'following orders' and was very happy to do so.
Ar jums atėjo ateities scenos?
No
Patirtis apėmė
Boundary
Ar pasiekėte ribą arba apribojančią fizinę struktūrą?
Uncertain Big open doorway, comforting soothing blackness beyond. No fear. I was going towards it, but came back.
Ar atėjote prie ribos ar taško, iš kurio negalima grįžti?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I didn't want to return to my body, but was forced.
Dievas, Dvasia ir Religija
Kokia buvo jūsų religija prieš patirtį?
Liberal
Kokia yra jūsų religija dabar?
Liberal
Ar jūsų vertybės ir įsitikinimai pasikeitė dėl patirties?
No
Po NDE
Ar patirtį buvo sunku išreikšti žodžiais?
Yes The sudden change of feelings and the sense that time was dislocated. I was not dead but I was out of my body.
Ar po patirties turite kokių nors psichinių, neįprastų ar kitų ypatingų dovanų, kurių neturėjote prieš patirtį?
No
Ar yra viena ar kelios jūsų patirties dalys, kurios jums yra ypač reikšmingos ar svarbios? Prašome paaiškinti.
Best - bliss of being out of the body. Worst - being dragged back.
Ar kada nors dalinotės šia patirtimi su kitais?
Yes The doctors said it's just a symptom of the anesthesia. Some friends were obviously nervous about it, didn't like to talk about death etc.! My daughter was scared too. No one seems to feel like I do about it all.
Ar kada nors gyvenime kas nors atkartojo bet kurią patirties dalį?
No Not since but BEFORE, when I was seven. During a tonsils operation, I could see the doctors and nurses working on my body as I hovered near the ceiling. I recalled that they wore green clothes (which they only wore in the theatre and which of course I'd never seen before).
Ar yra kitų klausimų, kuriuos galėtume užduoti, kad padėtume jums perteikti savo patirtį?
If the person had had any similar experiences BEFORE the one they're relating.