Elizabeth B
STE
Greysono skalė: 16
#33314
Patirties aprašymas
I was at the beach on the south coast of Guatemala with old friends. It was sunset, and I was walking back from the ocean across the sand to an open-air kitchen where they were cooking. At the time, I was trying to recover from PTSD after many years in a very violent marriage. I remember feeling very lonely and sad as I walked back because my family hadn’t supported me, and I couldn’t get support from my friends, either, as they were also his friends. I felt suicidal and lost.
Suddenly, a large, bright, otherworldly light appeared, shining in the darkening sky up and to my left. I stopped walking and looked up. Instantly, I was flooded with overwhelming feelings of joy and peace. I never wanted those feelings to end. I had never before felt such compassion for myself and others. I lost awareness of my body. I realized clearly that what I was experiencing was the reality behind the confusion of living. I felt deep love for everyone and everything. I understood that we are all the same. We seem to be all caught up in life, worrying about things that do not truly matter. It was as if a veil had been lifted, and I could see that the true nature of life is love, joy, and compassion.
This only lasted for a short time, though it seemed like an hour to me. The light slowly faded, and I began to cry. I knew I would remember the experience, but the intense feeling of being joyful and enveloped in love would fade, and I would fall back into confusion and what I now realized was an illusion.
After that experience, I became interested in the experiences of others. I read William James’s book *Varieties of Religious Experience* and found that my experience was very similar to those described in his work. I realized my experience could be described as religious, though I do not subscribe to any one religion. In religious terms, it would be described as a state of grace.
I am so grateful to have experienced absolute love, joy, and compassion even once in my life. I took the lesson I learned and spent my life in Latin America and Africa, working in rural public health to prevent suffering and death. Now, as I grow old, I do not fear death, because I know that when we die, we all return to love.
Fono informacija
Lytis
Female
NDE įvyko data
1/1/1979
Artimo mirties patirties elementai
Jūsų patirties metu ar buvo susijęs gyvybei pavojingas įvykis?
No, PTSD, Other (briefly specify), Suicidal, sad
Kaip vertinate savo patirties turinį?
Entirely pleasant
Ar jautėtės atskirtas nuo savo kūno?
I lost awareness of my body
Kaip jūsų aukščiausias sąmoningumo ir budrumo lygis patirties metu palyginamas su jūsų įprastu kasdieniu sąmoningumu ir budrumu?
More consciousness and alertness than normal, Overwhelmed with joy, love, compassion
Kuriuo metu patirties metu buvote pasiekęs aukščiausią sąmoningumo ir budrumo lygį?
When I was in the light
Ar jūsų mintys buvo pagreitintos?
No
Ar atrodė, kad laikas greitėja ar lėtėja?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning, When I was in the light, I was overwhelmed with feelings. Time didn’t exist.
Ar jūsų pojūčiai buvo ryškesni nei įprasta?
Incredibly more vivid
Palyginkite savo regėjimą patirties metu su kasdieniu regėjimu, kurį turėjote iš karto prieš patirtį
Immediately prior, my vision was distracted and dull. During the experience, I saw everything clearly, as if a veil was lifted.
Palyginkite savo klausą patirties metu su kasdieniu garsu, kurį turėjote iš karto prieš patirtį
I didn’t notice a change. There was no sound.
Ar jums atrodė, kad suvokiate dalykus, vykstančius kitur?
No
Ar jūs praėjote į tunelį ar per jį?
No
Ar per savo patirtį matėte kokių nors būtybių?
I sensed their presence
Ar susidūrėte arba tapote sąmoningi bet kokių mirusių (ar gyvų) būtybių?
No
Ar matėte arba jautėtės apsuptas ryškios šviesos?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Ar matėte nežemišką šviesą?
Yes, I saw and felt a large, bright other-worldly light
Ar atrodė, kad patekote į kitą, nežemišką pasaulį?
No
Kokius jausmus jautėte patirties metu?
Peace, joy, calm, compassion, enveloped in love
Ar jautėtės ramybėje ar malonume?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Ar jautėtės džiaugsme?
Incredible Joy
Ar jautėte harmonijos ar vienybės jausmą su visata?
I felt united or one with the world
Ar staiga atrodė, kad suprantate viską?
Everything about the universe, I suddenly saw everything clearly. That everything is a part of everything else. Everything is love.
Ar jums atėjo ateities scenos?
No
Ar atėjote prie ribos ar taško, iš kurio negalima grįžti?
No
Dievas, Dvasia ir Religija
Kokia buvo jūsų religija prieš patirtį?
Unaffiliated - Agnostic
Ar jūsų religingi papročiai pasikeitė po patirties?
No
Kokia yra jūsų religija dabar?
Unaffiliated - Agnostic
Ar jūsų patirtis turėjo bruožų, atitinkančių jūsų žemiškas tikėjimo sistemas?
Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience, Before my experience, I believed that there is a mystic connection between everything, but I didn’t believe that the great spirit cared about us as individuals or would show itself to me.
Ar jūsų vertybės ir įsitikinimai pasikeitė dėl patirties?
Yes, That experience changed my life. I know now that there is a loving spirit behind everything.
Ar atrodė, kad sutikote mistinę būtybę ar buvimą, arba girdėjote neidentifikuojamą balsą?
No
Ar sutikote ar sužinojote apie bet kokias būtybes, kurios anksčiau gyveno žemėje ir yra apibūdinamos vardais iš religijų (pavyzdžiui: Jėzus, Muhammadas, Buda ir kt.?)
No
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie visuotinius ryšius ar vienybę?
Yes, Absolutely. Everything and everyone is connected by love.
Dėl mūsų žemiškų gyvenimų, išskyrus religiją
Patirties metu ar gavote specialių žinių ar informacijos apie savo tikslą?
Yes, That our purpose is to love and have compassion for all living things.
Patirties metu ar gavote informacijos apie gyvenimo prasmę?
Yes, I learned that life’s purpose is to spread compassion and love.
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie gyvenimą po mirties?
Uncertain, No specific information, but a feeling that the love I felt is what you go into when you die.
Ar sužinojote informacijos, kaip gyventi savo gyvenimus?
No
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie gyvenimo sunkumus, iššūkius ir nepriteklius?
Yes, I learned that we are all bogged down in worrying about ourselves and things that don’t matter.
Ar per savo patirtį sužinojote informacijos apie meilę?
Yes, Yes, I learned that the true nature of life is love.
Ar jūsų santykiai pasikeitė būtent dėl jūsų patirties?
Yes, I hope I am kinder, more understanding, and less selfish.
Po NDE:
Ar patirtį buvo sunku išreikšti žodžiais?
Yes, The experience was otherworldly, ineffable
Kaip tiksliai prisimenate patirtį, palyginti su kitais gyvenimo įvykiais, įvykusiais aplink patirties laiką?
I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience, I will never forget that experience. I remember it vividly compared to my memory of other events around that time.
Ar po patirties turite kokių nors psichinių, neįprastų ar kitų ypatingų dovanų, kurių neturėjote prieš patirtį?
No
Ar kada nors dalinotės šia patirtimi su kitais?
Yes
Ar turėjote kokių nors žinių apie artimos mirties patirtį (NDE) prieš savo patirtį?
No
Ką manėte apie savo patirties realybę netrukus (dienomis ar savaitėmis) po to, kai tai įvyko?
Experience was definitely real, I viewed it as profound and set out to learn more.
Ką jūs manote apie savo patirties realybę dabar?
Experience was definitely real, My views haven’t changed. That was an incredibly profound experience and very real
Ar kada nors gyvenime kas nors atkartojo bet kurią patirties dalį?
Yes, I had an experience years later. I was in a forest and again the veil lifted and I could see the trees stretching, reaching up into the sky. When I looked down at my feet, I became aware that the grass was covered with ants as far as I could see. I felt compassion for them, and couldn’t move for fear of killing one. Everything around me was so alive.
Ar pateikti klausimai ir jūsų suteikta informacija tiksliai ir išsamiai apibūdina jūsų patirtį?
No, It would be good if you added spiritual to your list of religious beliefs. I am spiritual. That is not the same as agnostic.