Opis iskustva
1995 - In the intensive care unit, curtain surrounding the bathroom area, light began emitting from behind the curtain (sort of 'Wizard of Oz'-like - no noise, just light and vibration). Knew a presence wished to come into room. Knew by the indescribable quality and feeling of light it was God, as I know him. I asked him 'not now', please my children (I am single parent of two, one disabled through leukemia at four, no family but me. I asked for more time, responsibility of visit too frightening. He/she/it immediately acquiesced. I always regretted it.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
April 2000. Went for routine bypass surgery. Not so routine. Hemorrhagic disorder. Woke up forty-five days later after being on respirator and had many, many experiences, journeys, including 'waking' during one of the three surgeries, unable to open my eyes, found out later because they were taped shut, tried to wiggle so anesthesiologist could put me further under. No pain just watched procedure and heard every word uttered in the operating room including countdown of 'clock' well over seven minutes. Too real to continue watching so traveled through one of those lovely cracks to a place I think was made of alabaster with many pools and gardens. Did life review, quite interesting - 'tended to, taught, loved and replenished', more travel. In November 2000 had respiratory then cardiac arrest.
Tunnel, dark, rounded like a big drainage pipe. Smiling faces in shadows of the walls. 'Knew' every one of them, have no idea how. Light at other end. Same God light. My 'Nana' between the light and myself. Wanted her SO bad, needed her even more. No talking by mouth. Just let me know not my time unless I chose it. Suggested I didn't. Showed me my daughter. Asked for strength. Woke up, came home.
Osnovne informacije
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
(2) in 2000
Elementi NDE-a
Da li je u vreme vašeg iskustva postojala povezena opasnost po život?
Yes Heart attack Open heart surgery, 3 open hearts in three days in April and In November Complete cardiac and respiratory arrest due to CHF Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Had heart attack in 1995. Had experience in the intensive care unit but willed it away, too scary, always regretted it but had children who needed me. In 2005 had multiple bypass, which did not go well, three open heart surgeries in three days due to hemorrhaging. On respirator for forty-five days. Many journeys and experiences throughout that period in April/May. In November had complete respiratory and cardiac arrest. Another experience.
Kako smatrate sadržaj svog iskustva?
Mixed
Da li ste se osećali odvojeno od svog tela?
Yes
I lost awareness of my body
Kako se vaš najviši nivo svesti i budnosti tokom iskustva poredi sa vašom uobičajenom svakodnevnom svešću i budnošću?
More consciousness and alertness than normal It was much more real. I know that doesn't make much sense.
U kom trenutku tokom iskustva ste bili na najvišem nivou svesti i budnosti?
In presence of the main God, light, vibration. But most of all in tunnel when choice had to be made. I was tired.
Da li su vam misli bile ubrzane?
Neither
Da li se činilo da vreme ubrzava ili usporava?
Neither I have what I call 'Swiss cheese for brains'. Some things are missing or dropped.
Da li su vam čula bila življa nego obično?
Neither
Molimo vas da uporedite vaš vid tokom iskustva sa vašim svakodnevnim vidom koji ste imali neposredno pre vremena iskustva
Colors perfect, things and places seen without flaw, almost undisturbed. Every petal of every flower perfect. No decay of any kind. Transparency somehow changed and music without time. Couldn't explain that one in a million years wouldn't know where to begin.
Molimo vas da uporedite vaš sluh tokom iskustva sa vašim svakodnevnim sluhom koji ste imali neposredno pre vremena iskustva
It was hearing but not auditory exactly all the time.
Da li ste imali osećaj da ste svesni stvari koje se dešavaju negde drugde?
Neither
Da li ste prošli kroz tunel?
Yes Already described.
Da li ste u svom iskustvu videli neka bića?
Saw them
Da li ste naišli ili postali svesni bilo kojih pokojnih (ili živih) bića?
Yes Already described.
Da li ste videli ili se osećali okruženi sjajnom svetlošću?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Da li ste videli nebesku svetlost?
Yes Already described.
Da li vam se činilo da ste ušli u neki drugi, natprirodni svet?
Clearly mystical or unearthly realm already described some. many more, lots of travel and sights
Koje ste druge emocije osećali tokom iskustva?
Wonder, joy, fear, trust, grateful, small, big, powerful, powerless, amazed, graced, light, open, peaceful, inquisitive and loved and loving. Perfectly in tune.
Da li ste imali osećaj mira ili prijatnosti?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Da li ste imali osećaj radosti?
Incredible joy
Da li ste osećali osećaj harmonije ili jedinstva sa univerzumom?
United, one with the world
Da li vam se odjednom činilo da razumete sve?
Everything about the universe
Da li su vam se vratili prizori iz prošlosti?
Remembered many past events Life review takes place through the feelings and emotions of others in any given moment in time. We experience and feel whatever we created in that moment for them. I am much more sensitive.
Da li su vam dolazile scene iz budućnosti?
From the world's future
Very private.
Da li ste došli do granice ili tačke sa koje nema povratka?
A conscious decision to 'return' to life
Bog, duhovnost i religija
Koja je bila vaša religija pre vašeg iskustva?
Moderate Raised catholic, believe in collective unconscious, a higher power have had unusual, unexplainable experiences throughout life making conservative organized religious experience not acceptable.
Da li su se vaše verske prakse promenile od vašeg iskustva?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Koja je vaša religija sada?
Liberal Have conscious contact w/ higher power daily, pray and meditate daily, use Native American Medicine Wheel for healing/teaching. Use ancient esoteric teachings from stones crystals given by Native American grandma turned good catholic when she was a young
Da li ste doživeli promenu u svojim vrednostima i verovanjima zbog vašeg iskustva?
Uncertain While in many ways the information and experience was powerful and informing, I know less and less as the days roll on. Not that I am loosing information or experience. Just different.
Da li vam se činilo da ste sreli mistično biće ili prisustvo, ili ste čuli neidentifkovan glas?
Definite being, or voice clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Da li ste videli preminule ili religiozne duhove?
Saw them
Što se tiče naših zemaljskih života osim religije
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste dobili posebno znanje ili informacije o vašoj svrsi?
Yes Very private.
Da li su se vaši odnosi promenili posebno kao rezultat vašeg iskustva?
Yes I am much more willing just to be me without pretense, walls or protections that we humans erect to protect ourselves from REALLY being seen.
Posle NDE-a
Da li je iskustvo bilo teško opisati rečima?
Yes We don't have words in our vocabulary that express the 'energetic colors of vibration' emitted by 'higher being'. The emotional quality of 'feeling state' beyond measure or words. Information received so simple, yet so complicated it would take hours to verbalize. Recognition of persons in tunnel already 'passed over' (I think) so familiar, yet didn't recognize a one. Saw my grandma no words. Couldn't see 'God', but saw energy emitting and felt enormous vibration and felt emotional presence and vibration throughout life review.
Da li imate bilo kakve psihičke, neobične ili druge posebne sposobnosti nakon vašeg iskustva koje niste imali pre iskustva?
Yes Personal.
Postoje li jedan ili više delova vašeg iskustva koji su vam posebno značajni ili važni? Molimo objasnite.
Oh my God, are you kidding? Too personal for a computer screen.
Da li ste ikada podelili ovo iskustvo sa drugima?
Yes Immediately. Sure, reactions were mixed. I hope they were influenced.
Da li ste imali bilo kakvo znanje o iskustvima bliske smrti (NDE) pre vašeg iskustva?
Uncertain After my mother died I had and my son had a 'dreamlike' waking encounter.
Šta ste verovali o realnosti vašeg iskustva shortly (dana do nedelje) nakon što se desilo?
Experience was definitely real It was more real that what's here in my consciousness on a daily basis and I stay as connected as possible daily.
Šta verujete o realnosti vašeg iskustva sada?
Experience was definitely real It affects me in every moment.
Da li je u bilo kom trenutku u vašem životu nešto ikada reproduciralo bilo koji deo iskustva?
No