Opis iskustva
This incident occurred at the end of a long period of abuse - about three years. My abuser isolated me while I was swimming in a pond behind his house. After a brief argument with the man, as I was trying to swim away from him, he pushed me underwater by my shoulders and held me there. I struggled against his hands on my shoulders, but was not able to come to the surface. When I was almost out of air, I looked up through the water at the face of my attacker. His expression was very frightening to me because he was smiling, but also appeared to be very angry.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
The perspective of my memory at that point changed from looking up at him to looking down at the top and back of his head and myself from above. I saw my body floating limply under water with my eyes open. At the same time the visual perspective of my memory changed, I remember the pain in my lungs, my feelings of panic and the urge to breathe stopped as well. I felt peaceful clarity. I was aware of the circumstances and knew I was dying. My face looked peaceful and oddly pretty. I was aware I had a choice and was happy to move on to the light behind me. The light looked like a very bright full moon. I felt a strange tug as I moved away from my body toward the light. It felt like an involuntary gasp. Then, I realized my little sister needed me so I had to come back. I came back into my body and it hurt. All the feelings of panic were gone, but my chest was burning. I knew from looking at the scene from above, that he was just pushing me under, not holding onto me.
I swam/sunk downward and backwards away from him on my back. He couldn't see through the water because it was very muddy and murky at the bottom. I came up under a floating dock in the middle of the pond and hid there until he left.
Osnovne informacije
Gender:
Female
Date NDE Occurred:
1981
Elementi NDE-a
Da li je u vreme vašeg iskustva postojala povezena opasnost po život?
Yes Criminal attack Other near drowning
I was being held underwater by someone who intended to either scare me or kill me.
Kako smatrate sadržaj svog iskustva?
Wonderful
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Out of body experience
Da li ste se osećali odvojeno od svog tela?
Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
Kako se vaš najviši nivo svesti i budnosti tokom iskustva poredi sa vašom uobičajenom svakodnevnom svešću i budnošću?
More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
U kom trenutku tokom iskustva ste bili na najvišem nivou svesti i budnosti?
When I had decided to, but before I had re-entered my body.
Da li su vam misli bile ubrzane?
Incredibly fast
Da li se činilo da vreme ubrzava ili usporava?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time stopped and I felt like I was floating with no gravity.
Da li su vam čula bila življa nego obično?
Incredibly more vivid
Molimo vas da uporedite vaš vid tokom iskustva sa vašim svakodnevnim vidom koji ste imali neposredno pre vremena iskustva
The surface of the water glinted in the sun in a starburst effect and the appearance of my body was in a haze of the pond water. It was surreal.
Molimo vas da uporedite vaš sluh tokom iskustva sa vašim svakodnevnim sluhom koji ste imali neposredno pre vremena iskustva
I don't remember any sounds except for my attacker breathing heavily and the water slapping against his body.
Da li ste imali osećaj da ste svesni stvari koje se dešavaju negde drugde?
Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Da li ste prošli kroz tunel?
No
Da li ste u svom iskustvu videli neka bića?
I actually saw them
Da li ste naišli ili postali svesni bilo kojih pokojnih (ili živih) bića?
No
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Darkness
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Light
Da li ste videli ili se osećali okruženi sjajnom svetlošću?
A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Da li ste videli nebesku svetlost?
Yes
Da li vam se činilo da ste ušli u neki drugi, natprirodni svet?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place surrounding the light was very comfortable and is not comparable to anything I have felt or seen since.
Koje ste druge emocije osećali tokom iskustva?
Peace, absolute clarity and an absence of pain.
Da li ste imali osećaj mira ili prijatnosti?
Incredible peace or pleasantness
Da li ste imali osećaj radosti?
Happiness
Da li ste osećali osećaj harmonije ili jedinstva sa univerzumom?
I felt united or one with the world
Iskustvo je uključivalo
Special Knowledge
Da li vam se odjednom činilo da razumete sve?
Everything about the universe
Da li su vam se vratili prizori iz prošlosti?
My past flashed before me, out of my control I understood a much broader picture while I was not in my body. It didn't flood back to me in a visual life passing before my eyes. I went from ignorance instantly to wide awareness - not just of my life circumstances, but also of emotions, my family circumstances, a sense of purpose that I didn't have before. There was no sense of time, just calm sense of knowing what was and also what I needed to do.
Da li su vam dolazile scene iz budućnosti?
Scenes from the world's future I knew my mom was not going to die from her illness.
Da li ste došli do granice ili tačke sa koje nema povratka?
I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Bog, duhovnost i religija
Koja je bila vaša religija pre vašeg iskustva?
Liberal None
Da li su se vaše verske prakse promenile od vašeg iskustva?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Koja je vaša religija sada?
Liberal None/Open minded
Da li ste doživeli promenu u svojim vrednostima i verovanjima zbog vašeg iskustva?
Yes I believe in spiritual energy now. I had no religious or spiritual beliefs before.
Da li vam se činilo da ste sreli mistično biće ili prisustvo, ili ste čuli neidentifkovan glas?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Da li ste videli preminule ili religiozne duhove?
I actually saw them
Što se tiče naših zemaljskih života osim religije
Tokom vašeg iskustva, da li ste dobili posebno znanje ili informacije o vašoj svrsi?
Yes I understood my purpose on a different level. The string theory was a no-brainer for me. Somehow, I realized that we are all energy and that solid mass was an illusion.
Da li su se vaši odnosi promenili posebno kao rezultat vašeg iskustva?
Yes My sister and I have a special connection now.
Posle NDE-a
Da li je iskustvo bilo teško opisati rečima?
No
Da li imate bilo kakve psihičke, neobične ili druge posebne sposobnosti nakon vašeg iskustva koje niste imali pre iskustva?
Yes I can pass easily into this area by choice and sometimes wake up after sleeping with memories of being there, flying effortlessly.
Postoje li jedan ili više delova vašeg iskustva koji su vam posebno značajni ili važni? Molimo objasnite.
The experience changed my life. It ended the abuse and gave me a huge amount of empathy.
Da li ste ikada podelili ovo iskustvo sa drugima?
Yes I started sharing the near drowning experience with my psychologist at age twenty-one. In the last few months, I have been processing the experience with an emergency doctor and have been able to describe the experience in more detail.
Da li ste imali bilo kakvo znanje o iskustvima bliske smrti (NDE) pre vašeg iskustva?
No
Šta ste verovali o realnosti vašeg iskustva shortly (dana do nedelje) nakon što se desilo?
Experience was definitely real I knew the experience was real. Soon after that experience, I began researching near death, out of body experiences, channeling and other forms of spirituality. I even did a report in high school where I interviewed a couple of psychics.
Šta verujete o realnosti vašeg iskustva sada?
Experience was definitely real I view this experience as my life energy moving between planes of consciousness under duress. I view it along the lines of the law of conservation of energy. It states that the total amount of energy in an isolated system remains constant. A consequence of this law is that energy cannot be created or destroyed. The only thing that can happen with energy in an isolated system is that it can change form, that is to say for instance kinetic energy can become thermal energy. Because energy is associated with mass in the Einstein's theory of relativity, the conservation of energy also implies the conservation of mass in isolated systems (that is, the mass of a system cannot change, so long as energy is not permitted to enter or leave the system). Our psychic energy, soul, what have you, is just another form of energy.
Da li je u bilo kom trenutku u vašem životu nešto ikada reproduciralo bilo koji deo iskustva?
No